02-07-2014, 05:13 PM
LAST NIGHT OF STAGE 2
Cool day again I didn’t do as much as I could have liked, I woke up at 10am and didn’t do much of the stuff on my new ritual. We had one candidate for my our business but the person didn’t fit the role, hopefully before the end of the month we will find the perfect person, I registered the business in April 2013 and would like to launch it before April this year, for morale reasons. If I can find the right person I won’t have to struggle with my ADD and having to get obsessed to get the work done. I am actuality more happy than I think I have ever been and this year will be the most memorable of my life. Besides overcoming some major issues, stopping smoking, drinking, porn and masturbation.
The negative voices in my head have stopped I have overcome religious fears of hell and demons. I am actually going out and socialising with people without the aid of drugs, life is good. Soon my business I put blood, sweat and tears in will be off the ground and I will pick a person to manage it while I build up my other business plans, this is so amazing, I want to cry tears of joy. Last year this time I never thought I could ever feel so good about life and other people and myself. Am so grateful but I don’t know how to express this gratitude.
As part of my business goals I have set plans to directly sponsor orphans (I don’t trust charities) in all around the world but starting in Africa, it will cost about $1500 to support 10 kids per month inclusive of everything and in about 1 year of trading we’ll be able to support about 100 kids. I have got so much support and assistance along the way I can never repay it with money but this way I can express my gratitude by “passing it forward” whatever “it” that will be my thank you to God and the Universe.
Older women dilemma
I don’t know if it’s due to watching porn at an early age and having all the porn starts be older than I was but I seem to like older women. My relationship coach as told me the story of “Don Jon” the movie then she proposed that she could “explore” together, no strings attached, not to mention she been seducing me the whole time I literary get hard. It fucked up she miles away in the states and I don’t know when I will have enough dividends from my projects to travel, she has some seminars in the UK soon tho, about exotic hypnosis and tantra.
Beside her I have the teacher women who was telling me how she’s a freak in the bedroom and India women who says she loves me and we made a deep connection. And it’s only been like two weeks and I’ve been out socially twice.
Shit man when I start going out more often, become alpha and do sex magnet I just know I will I’ll be swining in oceans of sex and turning it down on the daily, it’s a bit scary if I must say so myself. Someone should have told me back in the day when I was depressed and suicidal that my life would turned out like this, but then again I won’t have believed. I know all my dreams, hopes and wishes will come to pass but still it’s hard to believe even tho I know if that makes any sense at all.
Cool day again I didn’t do as much as I could have liked, I woke up at 10am and didn’t do much of the stuff on my new ritual. We had one candidate for my our business but the person didn’t fit the role, hopefully before the end of the month we will find the perfect person, I registered the business in April 2013 and would like to launch it before April this year, for morale reasons. If I can find the right person I won’t have to struggle with my ADD and having to get obsessed to get the work done. I am actuality more happy than I think I have ever been and this year will be the most memorable of my life. Besides overcoming some major issues, stopping smoking, drinking, porn and masturbation.
The negative voices in my head have stopped I have overcome religious fears of hell and demons. I am actually going out and socialising with people without the aid of drugs, life is good. Soon my business I put blood, sweat and tears in will be off the ground and I will pick a person to manage it while I build up my other business plans, this is so amazing, I want to cry tears of joy. Last year this time I never thought I could ever feel so good about life and other people and myself. Am so grateful but I don’t know how to express this gratitude.
As part of my business goals I have set plans to directly sponsor orphans (I don’t trust charities) in all around the world but starting in Africa, it will cost about $1500 to support 10 kids per month inclusive of everything and in about 1 year of trading we’ll be able to support about 100 kids. I have got so much support and assistance along the way I can never repay it with money but this way I can express my gratitude by “passing it forward” whatever “it” that will be my thank you to God and the Universe.
Older women dilemma
I don’t know if it’s due to watching porn at an early age and having all the porn starts be older than I was but I seem to like older women. My relationship coach as told me the story of “Don Jon” the movie then she proposed that she could “explore” together, no strings attached, not to mention she been seducing me the whole time I literary get hard. It fucked up she miles away in the states and I don’t know when I will have enough dividends from my projects to travel, she has some seminars in the UK soon tho, about exotic hypnosis and tantra.
Beside her I have the teacher women who was telling me how she’s a freak in the bedroom and India women who says she loves me and we made a deep connection. And it’s only been like two weeks and I’ve been out socially twice.
Shit man when I start going out more often, become alpha and do sex magnet I just know I will I’ll be swining in oceans of sex and turning it down on the daily, it’s a bit scary if I must say so myself. Someone should have told me back in the day when I was depressed and suicidal that my life would turned out like this, but then again I won’t have believed. I know all my dreams, hopes and wishes will come to pass but still it’s hard to believe even tho I know if that makes any sense at all.
If you can't manage the little you have now, who will trust you with more, if you can't control yourself long can you rule over others for? Its easier for a king to rule a kingdom than himself and who does want an empire? Being unconquerable lies with yourself!
