01-31-2014, 03:45 PM
Just so I don’t forget at any time in the future, this was all triggered at the end of the session with my coach she gave me assignments to write some stories that I can share since I have problems spending long periods of time talking to anyone. So the ones I had wrote where all about me as usual I had thought they were great but that’s expected. No problems right just write more stories I’ll need hours’ worth eventually anyway right.
Then she gave me some examples of good stories with “stuff” in it to help me with some other things I had going on, that worked nicely. Then I got my weeks assignments and BANG. I have always been insecure in my ability to learn, I still can’t say my a-z or remember how the song goes. So yeah I just naturally feel hopeless. Before I started here I had figured money could help out a lot, a relationship with a gold digger is still a relationship, I finaly understand those rich old men.
I have a chance to make a lot of money but that same insecurity is getting in the way so I have to rely on others for my success. I was suppose to be going for a poetry meetup tomorrow to share and get feedback, but I don’t think I can deal with critism right now. Plus am like a wild horse that’s just been broken I have no life left in my eyes.
Then she gave me some examples of good stories with “stuff” in it to help me with some other things I had going on, that worked nicely. Then I got my weeks assignments and BANG. I have always been insecure in my ability to learn, I still can’t say my a-z or remember how the song goes. So yeah I just naturally feel hopeless. Before I started here I had figured money could help out a lot, a relationship with a gold digger is still a relationship, I finaly understand those rich old men.
I have a chance to make a lot of money but that same insecurity is getting in the way so I have to rely on others for my success. I was suppose to be going for a poetry meetup tomorrow to share and get feedback, but I don’t think I can deal with critism right now. Plus am like a wild horse that’s just been broken I have no life left in my eyes.
If you can't manage the little you have now, who will trust you with more, if you can't control yourself long can you rule over others for? Its easier for a king to rule a kingdom than himself and who does want an empire? Being unconquerable lies with yourself!
