Apex-Predator Evolutionary Log - AM6 RE-RUN Stage 2 - Letting go

[Dee]

Decision Time - Laserlike Focus & Concentration or Balance Your Brain Hemispheres

I don’t know whether to start LF&C next as I move on to stage 2 of AM5 and compete 32 days of BYBH.

I think AM5 should get priority time-wise (at least 8 hours)... and then you should either run LLFC with it for as much time per day as possible, up to an equal amount of time as you give AM5, while entraining a Beta level of brainwave entrainment every morning for half an hour, and every midday for another half an hour.

Then once you finish AM5, run BYBH for 90 days while continuing Beta entrainment.

How to Become An Alpha Male

I got John Alexander - How to become an Alpha Male audiobook and I have been studying it, intently.

It brought up many issues and emotions, I became upset as I read it because strong feelings of overwhelm came over me. Something in my mind kept telling me I could not do it. At that moment other solutions to get sex started running through my mind.

Everybody know that Sex Sells

All the stress this book created in me made me re-consider the reasons I am doing this for. All I want is SEX (at present) as the mating ritual seems boring to me.

I used to be upfront about my intentions in the past and that wielded a low success rate. The way I saw it was, “we both want sex and we thinking about it, so why waste time courting for hours before we fulfil our desires?”

I then wondered if It would be easier for me to concentrate on making money while other guys spend that same time chasing tail and wasting it in the process. Wouldn’t it be easier to just pay for sex since that would be the main objective, not companionship with women.

To Protect My Ego

It’s amazing how the mind can rationalize fear in a way that protects the ego, I mean it makes sense and will motivate me to make a lot of money but the real reason is fear.

I can’t quit on my goals, and I knew it was going to be a challenge. I will still need to master these skills; I cleared all the anxious feelings I could and tried ti remain positive about the future and who I will transform into.

Introverted dyslectic

My personality type says am introverted, I can’t even hold long mutually interesting conversations with close friends let alone Women!!!!

Then John Alexander says to be non-logical with women, to be exciting and fun to hold they interest and have a good time. Part of me thinks this is impossible for me as it will require a compete personality change.

I think IML’s subs are the best thing that ever happened to me in regards to this issue. In the past all my visualization and affirmations didn't have the impact needed to make those drastic changes.

But the training sets unconsciously install all those things in the book for 8-16 hours every day. If I wasn’t for that fact I don’t think I’ll be as hopeful as I am now.


My Mad Fantasies

I am very imaginative and I think I spend most of my time in the future in my mind. As a kid I would share my fantasies with others and they would start experiencing them with me.

In my teens it was sort of the same, but now as adult’s, people seem to have lost they sense of possibility and wonder. It’s like exploration of the realms of thought, emotion and possibility are incompatible with responsibility.

I would have to find a way to convert that skill for entertainment reasons. I also have a storytelling course to do as part of my marketing training so it may help.

Action Plan: Improve storytelling skills that capture the imagination and hold the attention of listeners (and readers) regardless of age or gender.

Study Plan: Fully read and revise all AM5 recommended books 3 times each

Stages 1, 3 and 6 - John Alexander - How to become an Alpha Male
Stages 2,4 and 5 - David DeAngelo - Double Your Dating

The Manipulation Aspect - Mind Control

Isn’t all this just manipulation, do this for that result, say it like this to influence someone like that?

I had some issues with this as I have always strived to be a good honest person my whole life. I would lie like everyone else but only when there was no other alternative.

All these tips in these books are like lying intentionally and continually until it becomes permanent. And you become a compulsive lair.

Now of course I know this is not true but I still feel as though it is.

Am P*ssed off at My Life

Reading John Alexander’s work I lot of anger and frustration came up, I recalled all those times in my life I thought I was doing the “right” thing from a moral, cultural and religious viewpoint.

Most times I passed on sex I felt like a saint sacrificing carnal pleasures for the good of all mankind. But in truth all my good intentions and actions my whole life where in vain.

This may also make it harder for me to change as I will be admitting to myself that so many people I looked up to where wrong; like my parents and that I was a fool to believe them and take they advise on dating and many other things.

I trying clearing these issues myself but am struggling with reframes

Short Term Goal #1 – Early Riser

I got carried away last night and went to bed at 10pm but watched some vids, did hypnosis then some entrainment to fall asleep. Last time I looked at the time was around 1am, I got up at 11am. It’s a weekend and tomorrow is Monday, so tonight I will go to bed earlier.