Apex-Predator Evolutionary Log - AM6 RE-RUN Stage 2 - Letting go

[Leo1990]

I've personally wasted a few years of my life, mostly during the start of uni, thinking I was good with girls, when in fact it wasn't at all the case. It was just a giant rationalization, and I was getting no girls. I was afraid of going up and speaking with them.. but dangnabit, I just knew that they loved me!

I also thought that I was so cool, super smart, and in some sense above other people. But because of that, I didn't put much effort into going out, studying, or truly improving myself. And if I did hang out with people, it was with people I thought were dorky and unpopular. But it was because I was also dorky and unpopular, and we were all right for each other.

The wrong beliefs, though they could be worded positively, can destroy you. That's why I believe that, with affirmations, it's much more important to focus on process instead of results.

"I'm good with girls" relies on an external result.
"I'm focused on becoming great with girls" is internal and takes personal responsibility. So is "I love women", "I love having conversations with various women", or "I feel happy and seductive when I speak with women"

Wow. Very interesting. I am thinking of some affirmations. Some along the lines of:

Having the subliminals affect me more and more
Having the subliminals change and challenge my old behavior more and more
Enjoying talking with women, and be seductive and eliciting seductive moves from women
Enjoying learning about my technology topics
Learning how to create and structure and create a business plan to start a business
learning how to create strong partnerships for business

[Ampersnd]

Wow. Very interesting. I am thinking of some affirmations. Some along the lines of:

Having the subliminals affect me more and more
Having the subliminals change and challenge my old behavior more and more
Enjoying talking with women, and be seductive and eliciting seductive moves from women
Enjoying learning about my technology topics
Learning how to create and structure and create a business plan to start a business
learning how to create strong partnerships for business

Right; Geodude once mention that simply reminding yourself that the subliminal 'is working amazingly well on you' will help you notice the changes more quickly. It could just be a big ol' mindtrick.

That said, that's why I'm not a fan of kids being told that they're number 1 in life, and that they deserve number 1. Or young girls being told that they're princesses/queens, and that they deserve a king. Or even, guys thinking they deserve women just by playing nice.

You deserve basic respect and dignity as a human being, yes. But you're not entitled to a title unless you've earned it. Without the idea of process, you'll think that you've 'arrived' without leaving your comfort zone.

You'll assume the role, but have none of the qualifications to fulfill it. There would be thousands and thousands of people better suited for the role of 'number 1' than you.

The biggest deception, and also on the other side of the coin, is when you follow a path layed out for you, being told that it will give you the result, and when it doesn't, your frustration gets called 'entitlement'.

Example:
- Go to school, get a diploma, work hard and settle down and you'll have plenty of money = "Gosh, you feel that your diploma makes you feel entitled an entry-level job!?"
- "I want a nice, funny guy that can make me laugh" = "Gosh, guys think that they deserve me because they're nice and make me laugh!"
- Marrying a woman who once let you drown in her vagina daily, and she suddenly starts withholding sex for long periods of time = "Gosh, why is it always sex with you!?"

You've fulfilled your side of the bargain, why can't they?
Solution = don't get yourself into these situations if you can help it. And learn from people who started similar to where you were, and now have what you want.

I'm saying this because you shouldn't invest time, money, energy, and other resources trying to become something that won't even get you (whoever's reading this) the results that you want.

[JackOfHearts]

Let the professional ie Shannon implant the good information in your brain it's way better unless you are sure about what you are doing. Or unless you want to become like Shannon which doesn't seem like an easy stuff to do. I think that's why we pay him 500$ for a product : he knows what he is doing.

To a lesser extent you do some easy stuff like. "The Shannon's Subliminal works better and better as each days goes by" but even here it can be misleading, be careful what you ask your brain to run on.
Recently I use hypnosis to make believe myself that the subliminal is running with my own voice and I scripted everything myself. It seems like a safe bet.

[Dee]

@ Maniac360 I assume the hypnosis is working well for you? Also I've been curious, the script in Shannons subs uses a computer generated voice right and not his right.

@DanAmerson I think I will create Affirmations as the last part of a goal setting session (included with ecology).

UPDATE:
I woke up at 15:30 meaning my sleeping pattern is now worst that ever, any suggestions guys?

I finally got my pills today a few mins ago, they are suppose to keep you alert for 12-14 hours and I cud'nt wait until tomorrow. Took one with an empty stomach, cant wait to feel the effects.

Game changer or another wasted money experiment? will soon see.

[JackOfHearts]

It has been, I can sleep easily even when there is sub resistance thanks to hypnosis. Though right I don't use it that much, just for sleep and some idea I got sometimes like this one for the voice.
Yeah I think he use a computer generated voice, at least he had, I read about it.

[Leo1990]

you should get on a correct sleep schedule and then take the meds. Your going to be so out of wack... haha

Though I do feel bad.

Energy drinks are a bad idea period.

[Dee]

AM6 STAGE 1 - Day 17

The energy drink side effects have faded last time am having them they are addictive. Feeling much better that I was. The pills are subtle but super effective, I got up around 15:30, when they came and went online to read the dosage, popped a pill and researched stimulates until around 20:40 (time just flew pasted), I actually paid attention to the details, read the scientific names and numbers and all, I cant say i've never done much a thing in my life.

Also I cleaned up with a sense of urgency, because of all the other things I needed to get done, which was also new, I would normally take my time until I got extremely bored with the task. Yesterday I thought I was kidding my self and wanted to give up and everything and just be content with my situation.

[Post in violation of Amendment 2]

But today NOW, I know more that ever that I will achieve, I now have the focus to aim all my passion and desires on my goals. Its an Amazing feeling. Its like I've broken thru another barrier now, I meditated too and for the first time in my life I could settle my mind and be in the moment for long periods of time, I noticed that it takes lots of oxygen to focus and my swallow breathing makes it harder to do so.Anyway, am sleepy as hell and I think, i'll be able to clear my mind until I fall asleep now.

I also have this feeling that the effects of AM6 will be a 1000 times better now that my actual psychical body is not resistance within its self.

Am really excited about the future, I mean the stuff I took inst even for ADD/ADHD , when I start working with my psychiatrist (for my deficits), the psychologist he is recommending and my ADD specialized Life Coach, I cant ever see my blame been limited because of my deficits/learning disability

[Dee]

AM6 STAGE 1 - Day 18

Not sure if I skipped a few days, been so out of sync with the Sun. The whole experiment is kicking my ass, I have got a handful hours of rest for the past 3/4 days.

EDIT:

These unstable moods are crazing my crazy. I was feeling are s*it the other day, the other day I was feeling on top of the world. This is taking longer than I expected to get results.

I have a question. Did any of you notice any changes to your bank accounts or spending habits from the AM produces? Tho that's not its focus there must be changes, I was upgrading my closet and I felt extremely guilty, left the shopping basket, then after I few hours of indecision, I just paid for the items?

[iceman]

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misunderstood the question! so i had to edit

[Leo1990]

I bought this sub using a CC so I have been paying it off every time I get a check.

I have been buying somethings, but mainly a new screen so I can sell my tablet.


Cant say much has changed. Maybe a bit more $$ oriented.

[Benjamin]

I have a question. Did any of you notice any changes to your bank accounts or spending habits from the AM produces? Tho that's not its focus there must be changes, I was upgrading my closet and I felt extremely guilty, left the shopping basket, then after I few hours of indecision, I just paid for the items?

Not specifically in that way, but I notice I have been talking to more people about coaching people to lose weight and have had several people enquire because of that, I talked to the gym manager and her bf in the supermarket about it and yesterday she come over to me at the gym and asked me if she can refer somebody to me.

That kind of stuff wasn't happening before, so I guess something in AM6 is helping attract opportunities to me.

-Ben

[Dee]

Iceman did make a good point. As the maturity, success training and other scripts must transfer to all other aspects of a person’s life, and I guess we mostly paying attention and tracking the sex/social benefits of the program. Well AM6 will definably amp up the results of the money subs am sure of it, they say people buy people not products so been a dominate attractive Alpha with one of those SUPER Aura's I've heard about can’t hurt.

[Dee]

AM6 STAGE 1 - Day 19?

-I think I may have skipped a day of my life not sure. Anyway I managed to sleep good last night and I woke up at around 6am like I programmed up self to do, but I wouldn’t get out of bed, told myself I needed to catch up on loss hours.

-I was so excited by the results I got with my ADD stimulate that I impulsively spent over £200 on supplements. I don’t know what I was thinking at the time, when I research all/most supplements and medications that can help with ADD, I created a wishlist now am looking at all those pills and I can’t make sense of it.

-I think I placebo’d myself into the results I got with the ADD stimulate, because the following two days it didn’t work so well. It just made me my metal fog more clear to me in addition to taking away my appetite, I had to (force) eat when I got weak. I just felt my normal fog and ascentsmindedness but will a restless feeling of I need to get shit done and I need to get shit done now. I also kept asking my self is this thought important or is what am doing important.

-I don’t know whether to be disappointed or not. I called my business partner and I was ready to jump into the project again, now I feel as tho it will be the same thing all over again, it’s really frustrating on the other hand it could be an indication that meds do work and I just need to find the right one (with Doctors help). If it was just the placebo and I do have it in me to focus like that then life is a joke and many of us don’t get it.

-I decided to make multiply journals in various communities instead of trying to fit everything in here , I’ll complain about my ADD in an ADD forum , post my Field Reports in a PUA forum and so on. Just keep Subliminal tracking for here, good idea? Last of these long posts.

AM6 STUFF

-On another note, I got a haircut and the guy at the door said it was £8, I waited while under the influence of the stimulate, not daydreaming as usual but in a daydream state planning the future (hours and days). During the haircut I thought I heard him say it will be £20 pound after a convo we had, in my mind I was like “he must think am stupid, am I stupid………….” As it goes I noticed I was activity looking for negativity and the stimulate make me aware of my intentions and actions. I get to the till and I give the same barber £10 and wait for my change, he says the cut is £10 and said your boss said £8 he said he cut my little coattee so that was £2 extra. I just froze as many different scenarios played in my head, like speaking to his boss, asking to see the price chart, that sort of thing, I felt like I was been ripped off. A part of me was like “am I going to cause a scene for £2 and another part of me was like Alpha males don’t get punk’d even for £0.1

-After my haircut I was indecisive as shit, I didn’t know what suit I wanted, I would just zone out during trying suits on and having the “tailor” tell me what to do. I wasn’t even thinking about women or nothing.

The Awkward BETA MALE getting hot p*ussy????and not you????

Anyway I was in the train with my bags on the seat, it got to a station were many people got into the train. I decided to not make room, I thought to myself alpha males space is an alpha males space on some animal treorial BS (just been an A HOLE maybe). Then I hear an attractive women sat in front of me shout in a demeaning way and gesture at a man to sit where my bags where, I unconsciously moved my bags, he sat down. Then a lot or people got off the train including someone say beside her. She then “shouted“ and gestured again at him to move across the train from my side of it to hers. He sat down and I had a chance to obverse him. She was hot so I kept looking at her as I felt attracted but it was probably my mistress porn brain cell were activated (porn is a hell of a programmer). So she started kissing him and stuff probably letting me know she was taken. Then they jumped out the train and I thought to myself, what’s wrong with me? Telling myself I need to be an Alpha male, have money, sexy body, good clothes and there is was an awkward BetaMale practically getting molested in front of my eyes. Sometimes all the seduction community teachings seem subjective.

- Another NEW thing I noticed is eye contact, I did not look away from anyone today, I even had a staring contest with some stubone women and WON.

- Also I seem to get pissed off at myself when I am the one to give way on the pavement, I mean why must I move? What gives them the right of way? I have been standing my ground and people seem to move even bigger males. If you’ve ever watched “First of the north star” you know what it means when he said “the heavens laugh when I stray from the path”.


That’s all for today folks.

[Dee]

I had a hard time sleeping today, it almost like I can see my entire life clearly. I think as a kid I had a crazy imagination I had no control over then as an adult it got mixed with all that human potential movement stuff like the only limitations are the ones you set up in your own mind etc. It seems some limitation are very real and the sooner acknowledged the better, there are always success stories but for every one that made it how many didn’t.

I mean I have been giving every opportunity in the world to make something of myself and be happy but I just did not have the capability to take advantage, from one of the nicest girls in the town liking me at 16 to one of the hottest women in the club coming to take pictures of me and all. From the skills taught in primacy school to the government sponspered university degrees. From the countless job training opportunities to the booming western economy. I mean really I have no excuses for myself. They say there is very little you can’t achieve with hard work and for my business I would spent 16 hours a day in my home office with a list of tasks but at the end of that day have done very little but spend hours learning about procrastination and productivity or something along those lines.

I could never picture myself living a normal life and now it makes sense, coz it’s impossible, 9-5 job I have to go to every day and focus on for like 50 years of my life, get married have kids I’ll be responsible for, yeah right. So my dreams of riches and freedom get me out of bed in the morning but now they really seeming unreal and am feeling childish for ever believing them.

It’s quite amazing. Am not in a dark depressed place, nor am I looking down on myself or feeling sorry for myself, it’s more of it is what it is type of thing, bearing your head in the sand isn’t going to make the storm go away. I now really don’t believe in freewill, I think everything is based on causality, if your mum was on crack in the ghetto when she was pregnant with you and you later in your life find yourself gravitating to it, did you have freewill or are you at the effect of that cause.

Or if you were born with a high IQ in an upper middle class family can you really be arrogant in your success and claim it’s because you made a choice to become a doctor and worked hard at it or was that just the natural result of your condition at birth. If someone points a fucking gun at you and pulls the trigger do you have a choice to doge it or not or are you going to experience the effect of gun powder lighting up and lead moving at 2,500 feet per second in your direction.

That said maybe this is the effect of the AM6 sub or that reactions to that stimulate, but I was thinking of closing down this trend I don’t think I will ever reach those stupid goals. I mean I will try to finish the sub, but am doubtful of its result. See when I saw that man in the train I logged in the last post it triggered something in me, my dad too isn’t the sharpest tool in the toolbox and my mum always has to think for him, most times in annoyance, like if it’s just commen sense.

For me each time I do something stupid I go into a bad state, in front of a women, I don’t even brother talking to her after. I can’t see my self been an alpha male and been the stupid man that I am, how does that work? You lead someone into a dead end. I mean I was once with a women in a train after a meetup in London and I found out we lived in the same city, she asked me about which route to take home, that was my chance to take the lead, but did I remember the route I have used for years off memory no. So what do I said to avoid showing my bad memory , “no your route is ok” then I’ll just follow the women, (aren’t men supposed to be good at directions from millions of years on hunting and tracking).
An alpha male is to be a leader, how can you be a leader when your brain is your worst enemy and impairs your judgement.

God grant me the serenity;
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Am fucking so confused and unstable right now, too many fucking sales letters in my head and too many disappoints I don’t know what I can and can’t chance. Maybe I would just start working on accepting and been content and happy with a unskilled job and any women who will have me and instead of been resentful I can program gratitude, then just let the subs do as just as they can do? Shannon help mate, I've starting thinking about Euthanasia again saving my self of the pain of growing old alone, poor, scared and bitter, either way you look at it you cant get out of life alive, so sooner and later and for some the sooner is better. Whats funny is am not even saying this from a depressed point of view just an holistic one. I mean The ADD med's have a 67% success rate overall, if they don't work for me like the first shitty result I got they all whole life will be meaningless. I mean I would have tried everything, even the entriment and focus sub of yours. I even tried spiritual practices but you still need to concerate to do meditation or prayer and you definably need self-control to fast and other such things.

Any words of wisdom?