08-01-2019, 10:21 AM
(This post was last modified: 08-01-2019, 11:03 AM by EvolvingPhoenix.)
So Im watching videos about this sociopath/narcissist who keeps making shitty apologies for cheating on his ex, and the comments sections are all filled with people saying things like "Yeah we've heard it all before" "crying wolf" and "apologies don't mean shit when you don't change" "If you really are sorry, respect her wishes and leave her alone. She blocked you for a reason" etc. And I realize that although I'm not a narcissistic sociopath like this guy, a lot of these comments could be applied to me and I have to admit to myself, my friend has good reason to treat me this way, even if I DO still deserve better. It's understandable. And DO I really deserve better considering how I was? Even though I HAVE changed, she has little reason at this point to believe that. She probably doesn't deserve my resentment. I'm just so deeply hurt. I wish I could just rebuild the bridges I've burned, mend this ruined relationship and sort things out and let bygones be bygones. If I want her to forgive me, I should first be willing to forgive her. I wish we could both just forgive each other and be friends again.
EDIT: Running a loop of E3 to help me out.
EDIT: Running a loop of E3 to help me out.