06-26-2019, 09:17 AM
(06-26-2019, 08:39 AM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: I have a therapist. The best we could get with the insurance we have. He's not much help TBH. I am deeply ashamed and I don't think E3 is going to be able to change that. But I'll keep using as directed and I'll slowly work to become the best version of myself that I can. This is going to pain me deeply for the rest of my life, but I've got to try to move forward as best I can. Hopefully E3 will help. I'm starting to face the reality of just what my situation is: I'll never reconcile with her (not even with the becoming method) I'll never get over it, and I'll always be ashamed of myself. I've just got to live with the shame. Maybe E3 will make that easier, I dunno. I hope so.
You are in a space where internal movement of emotions is still, and thus you are arguing from a standpoint that "things will always be this or that". Let me tell you that this isn't the case. You can't possibly know where you will be in 3 months or in 6 month or in 1 year. You are in a good place and I think E3 will help you in time.
How are you working with your therapist? A therapist isn't going to heal you, he is a tool for you to use. Have you talked about this deep shame with him? You need to open up for the work with him to become valuable, you can't just expect him to dig up everything in you, you need to take the first step and talk about that stuff that is bothering you, and is hard to talk about. That's the idea. You put it out there in the open to let someone else help you process it and see it from a different perspective. Let him know that it's hard to talk about and you can together investigate it. That's the healing process right there taking place.