06-26-2019, 07:39 AM
Day 25:
I'm trying to move on. I'm still ashamed of myself, and I don't know if E3 will be able to change that, but Greenduck's right that I need to pick myself up. If I'm going to live in shame, I should at least live as best I can. I do feel I deserve how I was treated. You don't know what I was like. But I shouldn't let that stop me from changing. For the last year at least, I have been trying to love myself as I am, rather than hate myself for how I was. It's hard to believe I'm worthy of forgiveness when she refuses to forgive me, but I need to do my best to forgive myself. This isn't going to change in a day, but hopefully, things will change and I'll love myself instead of hating myself. I don't know if there's anything I can do to make up for how I was, but I need to forgive myself.
I'm trying to move on. I'm still ashamed of myself, and I don't know if E3 will be able to change that, but Greenduck's right that I need to pick myself up. If I'm going to live in shame, I should at least live as best I can. I do feel I deserve how I was treated. You don't know what I was like. But I shouldn't let that stop me from changing. For the last year at least, I have been trying to love myself as I am, rather than hate myself for how I was. It's hard to believe I'm worthy of forgiveness when she refuses to forgive me, but I need to do my best to forgive myself. This isn't going to change in a day, but hopefully, things will change and I'll love myself instead of hating myself. I don't know if there's anything I can do to make up for how I was, but I need to forgive myself.