01-25-2016, 02:30 PM
So today I got a haircut and I realized that I still have a lot of trouble with it. I don't know if it's talking to the stylist, not really knowing how it'll turn out, or the fact that my hair has been receding on top and I'm really self conscious about it. The whole thing just has a tendency to stress me out. But I made sure I stayed present with however I was feeling to show myself it was just feelings, nothing bad was going to happen. And I felt a little better, no miracle breakthrough but it was better than dwelling on the anxiety.
I don't know if I mentioned this but I've always struggled with my self image. Since I have a natural inclination to look for flaws first in almost everything, the same happened with my own face. Using EHPRA has helped out a lot, but I still notice discomfort when I see myself in the mirror or see pictures of myself sometimes. The difference is now I don't get obsessive about it and worry. It's not an external validation thing either, I've had girls compliment me, didn't really do much. It's just all that internal bullshit that needs to be cleaned out. I've got so many distorted views about myself that just plummeted my self esteem a lot.
I don't know if I mentioned this but I've always struggled with my self image. Since I have a natural inclination to look for flaws first in almost everything, the same happened with my own face. Using EHPRA has helped out a lot, but I still notice discomfort when I see myself in the mirror or see pictures of myself sometimes. The difference is now I don't get obsessive about it and worry. It's not an external validation thing either, I've had girls compliment me, didn't really do much. It's just all that internal bullshit that needs to be cleaned out. I've got so many distorted views about myself that just plummeted my self esteem a lot.
