12-07-2015, 01:07 PM
Had some bad dreams the other night about a person I don't like. Hopefully I released those terrible memories. I Woke up feeling kind of strange. Just kept playing the sub and while the memory of the dream stayed with me the feeling neutralized. Went to school to write an exam and I was so sexually charged. I'm noticing how attractive the girls in my class are and I'm p totally mellow. I'm still pretty charged up and I'm trying my best to avoid masturbating but it gets tough sometimes.
If I had to describe erpha in a summary, I'd call it the mellow sub. When I run erpha I don't feel extremely energetic or happy. But I also don't feel terrible or extremely tired. I'm just in a content mood where I'm unaffected by anything around me. I can see things in a playful and not serious manner, and I'm just chill.
I like this sub.
Oh also a spider crawled on me today and I felt tension and anxiety still, there was some fear at first but I rationalized it away. I couldn't kill it or make too many sudden movements because I was writing my exam when it happened. I blew it off me but it kept crawling back towards me. So I suppose I'm still anxious around insects. I rationalized that even if it did bite me it wouldn't do anything at all. I just don't like things sneaking up on me, especially spiders.
If I had to describe erpha in a summary, I'd call it the mellow sub. When I run erpha I don't feel extremely energetic or happy. But I also don't feel terrible or extremely tired. I'm just in a content mood where I'm unaffected by anything around me. I can see things in a playful and not serious manner, and I'm just chill.
I like this sub.
Oh also a spider crawled on me today and I felt tension and anxiety still, there was some fear at first but I rationalized it away. I couldn't kill it or make too many sudden movements because I was writing my exam when it happened. I blew it off me but it kept crawling back towards me. So I suppose I'm still anxious around insects. I rationalized that even if it did bite me it wouldn't do anything at all. I just don't like things sneaking up on me, especially spiders.
