07-26-2023, 03:13 PM
Day 146,
I feel myself unravelling.
I overworked my calves in a workout about 4 days ago where they got so tight that I could not stand up straight without intense pain. Naturally, this has forced me to be much more inactive.
It's gotten much better, but I have little desire to exercise. My zest for coding has gone out the window. Highly distractible and distracted while at work. I'm not pursuing women from my apps, and letting leads slip. I'm still playing guitar, but not hitting it heavily. I just don't care right now. Tired.
I've gone ahead and cancelled my AI mentorship because I'm spending too much money to not want to make any progress.
I actually think that some of my original motivation comes from escaping the guilt created by being sedentary; that by avoiding productivity, I'm taking on more than I'm willing to give; that I'm a do-nothing slug. It's possible that this guilt is being addressed, and now there's no fire to fuel what are usually my goals.
I feel myself unravelling.
I overworked my calves in a workout about 4 days ago where they got so tight that I could not stand up straight without intense pain. Naturally, this has forced me to be much more inactive.
It's gotten much better, but I have little desire to exercise. My zest for coding has gone out the window. Highly distractible and distracted while at work. I'm not pursuing women from my apps, and letting leads slip. I'm still playing guitar, but not hitting it heavily. I just don't care right now. Tired.
I've gone ahead and cancelled my AI mentorship because I'm spending too much money to not want to make any progress.
I actually think that some of my original motivation comes from escaping the guilt created by being sedentary; that by avoiding productivity, I'm taking on more than I'm willing to give; that I'm a do-nothing slug. It's possible that this guilt is being addressed, and now there's no fire to fuel what are usually my goals.
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