07-11-2023, 05:37 PM
Day 131,
I decided to considerably reduce my coffee intake, starting yesterday. It was rough; nothing was sinking it, I had to keep myself awake with some Earl Grey tea, then had a decaf during a date.
Today was much easier, but only because I retired to sleep an hour earlier, and wound up oversleeping by two hours, not waking up once and sleep right through my alarms.
Note that my decision to remove coffee was an "eh, let's do it" decision, not some grand decision spurred on by being fed up some some circumstance.
I feel like certain scripts - assumptions about life - that had run before, are no longer running. I got into some conversations with some people in the gym that I would have been scarred by. I asked some decently attractive woman if she succeeded at her two-plate squat rep near me after I looked away; I had to rephrase my question a couple of times, and I didn't feel a thing from the confusion (where I might have in the past).
I'm not sure what the official term for these 'scripts' would be. Would it be a fear of judgment? Less care for others' opinion? Who knows
I decided to considerably reduce my coffee intake, starting yesterday. It was rough; nothing was sinking it, I had to keep myself awake with some Earl Grey tea, then had a decaf during a date.
Today was much easier, but only because I retired to sleep an hour earlier, and wound up oversleeping by two hours, not waking up once and sleep right through my alarms.
Note that my decision to remove coffee was an "eh, let's do it" decision, not some grand decision spurred on by being fed up some some circumstance.
I feel like certain scripts - assumptions about life - that had run before, are no longer running. I got into some conversations with some people in the gym that I would have been scarred by. I asked some decently attractive woman if she succeeded at her two-plate squat rep near me after I looked away; I had to rephrase my question a couple of times, and I didn't feel a thing from the confusion (where I might have in the past).
I'm not sure what the official term for these 'scripts' would be. Would it be a fear of judgment? Less care for others' opinion? Who knows
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