05-06-2023, 10:19 AM
Had some somewhat disturbing dreams tonight, and I overslept for my singing practice. Oh well.
But in other news, I finally manned up and went to ask this lady I know whether she'd like to work with me as a singing teacher. I'm not getting out of this rut on my own. I've been waffling about doing so for quite some time now, but today I finally did it (also because I told my parents about this plan and they decided to give me money for this purpose, so now I have no excuses) and it seems like she's going to be willing to work with me. We'll see how this pans out.
Still suffering from the "overactive superego" as my therapist called it - thoughts that I'm a failure, at 35 having achieved nothing despite all efforts, including money-wise and sexually. She recommends I should have more "fun", but I'm incapable recently - due to the nagging thoughts that I should hustle and find work first, then have fun. But on the other hand, apart from looking for work and doing the odd translation job, I've got a lot of time on my hands and I shouldn't spend it all moping about and thinking what a failure I am, should I? Oh well.
But in other news, I finally manned up and went to ask this lady I know whether she'd like to work with me as a singing teacher. I'm not getting out of this rut on my own. I've been waffling about doing so for quite some time now, but today I finally did it (also because I told my parents about this plan and they decided to give me money for this purpose, so now I have no excuses) and it seems like she's going to be willing to work with me. We'll see how this pans out.
Still suffering from the "overactive superego" as my therapist called it - thoughts that I'm a failure, at 35 having achieved nothing despite all efforts, including money-wise and sexually. She recommends I should have more "fun", but I'm incapable recently - due to the nagging thoughts that I should hustle and find work first, then have fun. But on the other hand, apart from looking for work and doing the odd translation job, I've got a lot of time on my hands and I shouldn't spend it all moping about and thinking what a failure I am, should I? Oh well.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
