6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS))

[Have at ye]

Two things of note today:

1. Got some singing practice in (first time since running OSC/DRSv2) and I felt more comfortable and confident in my skills even when something was not exactly 100%.

2. I think I experienced a strong "attack" today in the morning, after listening to my DRSv2 loops, as I ended up getting progressively more angry, and then strated to have a "neurologically, this kind of headache makes no sense" headache which passed after a while and then it took me an hour or two to recover full equillibrium.

[Have at ye]

So, funny story. I've been DRSing and OSCing for some time now, and now I have this pretty serious convicition that I should *really* change therapists. Makes you think, doesn't it? Gonna start shopping around, asked a lady friend who's "in the biz" for some potential recommendations (funkily enough, I know lots of women who work in psychotherapy, for some reason ).

[Have at ye]

So, funny story. I was asking around terapheutic ladies re: the above, and while I was at it one of them asked whether she can set me up on a date with a lady friend of hers. First time ever I've had something like that happen and I'm very flattered.

[Have at ye]

:double post, please delete:

[4Kingdoms]

So, funny story. I was asking around terapheutic ladies re: the above, and while I was at it one of them asked whether she can set me up on a date with a lady friend of hers. First time ever I've had something like that happen and I'm very flattered.

This chart shows how heterosexual U.S. couples met their partners in 1995 and 2017.
(scroll to the bottom of the article to view the chart)
https://www.statista.com/chart/20822/way...s-couples/

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@Have at ye - I'm very happy for you!!  Enjoy your date!!

[Have at ye]

Thanks!

Interesting stats.

It's supposed to be something of a blind date, so there's gonna be an element of surprise there, definitely.

[Have at ye]

So, planning ahead, after OSC I would run the planned OGSF 6g because I can tell from what DRS is doing that people are trying to influence me using negative emotionality and that's a no-no - and OGSF v2 5.11g had that "make yourself immune to people using GSF to manipulate you" which I assume is going to make it into the 6g version.

They're also trying to influence my cognitions directly, but that's a hard thing to do because after recovering from full-blown psychosis I'm nigh-immune to that. Har, har. Me so smart!

Otherwise, feeling pretty good, doing my thing. I'd love to have some singing stuff to work on (I'm currently in "practice my technique" mode), but that'll come in time.

My personal 6G wishlist as of currently:

OGSF 6g
DMSI 6g (obv )
OED 6g
USLM 6g (I love this combo and I'd rather have it in one package, but US + LM 6g would work too)
Something that's career-focused/oriented, like Your Best Professional Path or something! Maybe I'll try floating a request like that once I define it better.

I would also purchase X-1600 6g to see how it works. I've only used the X-series in 5.11g for short periods of time.

[Have at ye]

2. I think I experienced a strong "attack" today in the morning, after listening to my DRSv2 loops, as I ended up getting progressively more angry, and then strated to have a "neurologically, this kind of headache makes no sense" headache which passed after a while and then it took me an hour or two to recover full equillibrium.

Remember this? Just experienced another one of those, but this time it passed sooner and I regained equillibrium faster. My mood is slightly lowered now afterwards, though (but not by much ).

This would indicate that whoever is doing this is slowly learning their lesson and/or that the DRS gets more adept at dissuading such attacks with prolonged use.

[Have at ye]

The above-mentioned attacks, which were cognitive in nature (so of the "attempted mind control" type) were aimed directly at diminishing my confidece levels through making me perceive reality askew and were a direct response to me using OSC (as my mood and confidence lowered after and took some time - and listening to OSC again - to regain). So that's my read on that.

But now I'm feeling good and everything, now listening to my loop of DRS v2 for the day.

[Have at ye]

OSCing is progressing nicely, now that we're nearing the two-week mark. Funnily enough, my libido is making a gradual return (now I get at least a chubby even while simply thinking of touching boobies and such shenanigans, lol), as well as my confidence in my sexual prowess, heh heh. If this proceeds this way, I may not even *need* OED 6G (but I'd still do one run through, at least, should it become available, just in case!)

Now that I'm not filled with negative energies 24/7, thanks to the DRS, people are reacting to me way more kindly and respectfully in general. Glory to DRS v2! Best ready-made shield I had ever used (and I've tried many, plus my own concotions ).

I've consulted some more psycheterapheutic lady-friends about potential therapists for me, and I finally got some actionable suggestions. For now, though, we shall see how it goes with my current one, and how she reacts to DRS v2 (maybe it'll be, ultimately and a little bit counter-intuivtively, to her benefit). Seeing her on Tuesday. I feel better after whining about her a bit to other professionals, TBH.

[Have at ye]

Let's have another song related to DRSing and OSCing, it's very apt I think.

"You've got to resist take it in through osmosis
The narrowing ideas that nestle in your mind
The gradual absorption of tension built through time
Distorted false depictions can't stand the test of life

I see a dissonant figure
Rise up

What are you in the eyes of strangers
You are identical to none
Why this disparity of thoughts
When you are identical to none"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-UkSdSlY1YA - Dark Tranquillity, "Identical to None" \m/

[Have at ye]

OSC appears to be working through some issues that would stand in the way of me achieving Optimal Self-Confidence, mostly from early youth and teenage years, and this appears to be happening "beneath the hood" mostly, I get glimpses of it when I sleep.

DRS v2 is still going strong.

[Have at ye]

Thanks to the DRS v6 protecting me most effectively from being bombarded by negativity, my last psychotherapy sessions was great and very productive, so I guess I'll be sticking with my therapist for the time being.

Venting a bit probably helped too. I mean, it's been, like, almost three years I've been in an intimate relationship with this lovely woman. 

Feeling good, maybe a little bit bored (by which I mean - I wouldn't mind more action: parties, social gatherings, singing jobs, the works - because otherwise I've been keeping busy). Gonna be hitting the 14 day mark on OSC + DRS tomorrow. So far, so good.