06-16-2021, 02:42 PM
Based on a modeling run for the long term benefit of myself and GF, I went from 1 loop OF 2 days on, 2 days off to 2 loops per day on and then to 3. Apparently, 3 is what she needs to overcome her deepest fears, and I'm thinking it is the same for me as well. So for the last couple days, we have been using 3 loops.
The first night, it upset some parts of me so much that 4.5 hours after I went to bed, I still had not fallen asleep. So I got up and decided to kill whatever excuses I could think of. Hungry, bathroom, etc. GF got up with me and we got to talking. I realized some things that amounted to quite a revelation as to why I couldn't sleep. I was apparently processing the deepest, oldest trauma I am aware of in my history, one from when I was just 2 years old. Did some exercises to help release that trauma, and then I was able to sleep. I have been trying to do what I was able to do last night for decades... that impresses me. A lot.
Last night wasn't hard to fall asleep. It was also not hard to wake up. I woke up 5 hours before I normally would and GF woke up with me again, which is unlike her. We had an early breakfast and then went back to bed, and we slept the remaining 5 hours.
We have both noticed that people are treating us differently and responding differently. More open, more wanting to talk to us in public. Fir the first time ever, I managed to get a server who we had made friends with over the last couple years to not only give me her phone number (she told me she was leaving that job, so I asked for contact info) but then actually respond to my texts and have a real conversation with me. Amazing.
I feel there's a lot going on under the hood, and it amazes me that all this comes from 2 or 3 loops a day, 2 days on, 2 days off. The changes going on are huge.
The first night, it upset some parts of me so much that 4.5 hours after I went to bed, I still had not fallen asleep. So I got up and decided to kill whatever excuses I could think of. Hungry, bathroom, etc. GF got up with me and we got to talking. I realized some things that amounted to quite a revelation as to why I couldn't sleep. I was apparently processing the deepest, oldest trauma I am aware of in my history, one from when I was just 2 years old. Did some exercises to help release that trauma, and then I was able to sleep. I have been trying to do what I was able to do last night for decades... that impresses me. A lot.
Last night wasn't hard to fall asleep. It was also not hard to wake up. I woke up 5 hours before I normally would and GF woke up with me again, which is unlike her. We had an early breakfast and then went back to bed, and we slept the remaining 5 hours.
We have both noticed that people are treating us differently and responding differently. More open, more wanting to talk to us in public. Fir the first time ever, I managed to get a server who we had made friends with over the last couple years to not only give me her phone number (she told me she was leaving that job, so I asked for contact info) but then actually respond to my texts and have a real conversation with me. Amazing.
I feel there's a lot going on under the hood, and it amazes me that all this comes from 2 or 3 loops a day, 2 days on, 2 days off. The changes going on are huge.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!