01-03-2021, 11:22 AM
Stage 5 Day 21 (cont.)
Dreams aside I still feel like crap. Mentally I'm mostly fine but physically I feel sick. I was thinking if I should go back to work today and I elected to take one more day to rest but I don't think rest helps me one bit. Really nothing seems to help me except for like an hour or so every now and then when I feel strong again - this fades quickly though. Again, my working hypothesis is the damn pressure which will not lower for some time.
So I am given little choice and I'll have to power through this situation until it subsides. Obviously I will not overbear myself not to make things worse but things need doing. And while I have time I'd rather tackle things if for no other reason than to get myself rid of anxieties like I described a few days back. I feel useless anyway, it's not like I can do something otherwise productive if I take it slow (like I did in November I think, one week off did wonders for me then).
Dreams aside I still feel like crap. Mentally I'm mostly fine but physically I feel sick. I was thinking if I should go back to work today and I elected to take one more day to rest but I don't think rest helps me one bit. Really nothing seems to help me except for like an hour or so every now and then when I feel strong again - this fades quickly though. Again, my working hypothesis is the damn pressure which will not lower for some time.
So I am given little choice and I'll have to power through this situation until it subsides. Obviously I will not overbear myself not to make things worse but things need doing. And while I have time I'd rather tackle things if for no other reason than to get myself rid of anxieties like I described a few days back. I feel useless anyway, it's not like I can do something otherwise productive if I take it slow (like I did in November I think, one week off did wonders for me then).
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
