10-27-2020, 02:29 PM
Stage 3 Day 17 (0)
Weird day again, not as much as the last one though. I took a day off pretty much, ended up spending 4 hours on zoom calls and maintenance work anyway... Oh well.
I find I need to take such a slow days simply because I'd burn out and my creativity would suffer. Some ideas need time to ripen. Also, unlike before, I don't feel guilty about it. By now, with summer break far in the past, I've figured out my path for the next months and I have a rough timetable. I know when I'll have to speed things up and when I can let myself slide. Tomorrow and on Thursday will be hard work days for sure (unless my body says no and alarm clock won't wake me up) but today I had to think through some ideas how to approach problems I'm facing at work. Kinda work in the background I guess.
Overall I seem happier than before on this sub. With each day I seem to figure out better what I wanna do, what is possible and how to get there. My energy is being spend more efficiently, on the stuff I care about. For example it's so much easier for me to wake up right now. How it feels like is that week or two ago my mind was spinning with ideas but I couldn't follow them for one reason or another - now though these ideas consolidated, those that are worthwhile and realistic survived and I'll be trying to study them and follow them.
Weird day again, not as much as the last one though. I took a day off pretty much, ended up spending 4 hours on zoom calls and maintenance work anyway... Oh well.
I find I need to take such a slow days simply because I'd burn out and my creativity would suffer. Some ideas need time to ripen. Also, unlike before, I don't feel guilty about it. By now, with summer break far in the past, I've figured out my path for the next months and I have a rough timetable. I know when I'll have to speed things up and when I can let myself slide. Tomorrow and on Thursday will be hard work days for sure (unless my body says no and alarm clock won't wake me up) but today I had to think through some ideas how to approach problems I'm facing at work. Kinda work in the background I guess.
Overall I seem happier than before on this sub. With each day I seem to figure out better what I wanna do, what is possible and how to get there. My energy is being spend more efficiently, on the stuff I care about. For example it's so much easier for me to wake up right now. How it feels like is that week or two ago my mind was spinning with ideas but I couldn't follow them for one reason or another - now though these ideas consolidated, those that are worthwhile and realistic survived and I'll be trying to study them and follow them.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
