09-09-2020, 02:08 PM
Stage 1 Day 29 (36)
I'm itching to start the new stage. Now yet Mystic, not yet, be patient.
I wanna write some kind of summary of my love life on this journal, mostly because I need a venue to write my thoughts down and an opportunity to analyze this and the role that sweetheart of mine plays in this. It's not gonna be easy but it might be necessary. I'll have some time tomorrow so I'll try to do this before the new stage starts. Lots to talk about my expectations, NoFap, my past mistakes and what I can look for in the future.
As for House, M.D... I wanted to write about this TV show because it's important for me. When it was airing I was in High School and I was using it to teach myself English - you have no idea how well watching with subtitles will teach you. However I did not watch it all to the end and imagine my surprise when YT in proposed videos send me essay about House. Watching it reminded me of how I liked this character. Way back when I imagined myself being like him when I'd be older - cynical and jaded but respected for his skills and knowledge. Now that I'm not that edgy I don't see the appeal so much. Maybe it's because I've watched it in an essay format but I seem to see through his mask now and how fragile he was behind his persona. I think this is this kind of lesson that comes with life - cynicism is not something cool, it's both defense and coping mechanism.
Tell that to 14 years old me though. Everybody lies, I'd answer.
I'm itching to start the new stage. Now yet Mystic, not yet, be patient.
I wanna write some kind of summary of my love life on this journal, mostly because I need a venue to write my thoughts down and an opportunity to analyze this and the role that sweetheart of mine plays in this. It's not gonna be easy but it might be necessary. I'll have some time tomorrow so I'll try to do this before the new stage starts. Lots to talk about my expectations, NoFap, my past mistakes and what I can look for in the future.
As for House, M.D... I wanted to write about this TV show because it's important for me. When it was airing I was in High School and I was using it to teach myself English - you have no idea how well watching with subtitles will teach you. However I did not watch it all to the end and imagine my surprise when YT in proposed videos send me essay about House. Watching it reminded me of how I liked this character. Way back when I imagined myself being like him when I'd be older - cynical and jaded but respected for his skills and knowledge. Now that I'm not that edgy I don't see the appeal so much. Maybe it's because I've watched it in an essay format but I seem to see through his mask now and how fragile he was behind his persona. I think this is this kind of lesson that comes with life - cynicism is not something cool, it's both defense and coping mechanism.
Tell that to 14 years old me though. Everybody lies, I'd answer.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
