08-27-2020, 08:26 AM
Stage 4 day 32
This stage has definitely been rougher then I remembered but there has been a lot of growth.
There’s a sense of maturity that was developing under the hood that finally became clear at the end of the stage. I can sort of see farther into the future in the sense that I am more focused on my self development. I no longer want to feel validated by sex and women. How I noticed that is through my thought process in regards to what I should run after AM6. In the last I wanted to run SM3 to finally break this dry spell I had with women and to finally feel like I can catch up and have that typical college experience filled with sexual and female validation.
Now I noticed that I’m finally focused on trying move myself forward and purchased OF and LTU6. In a sense, this changed due to the stage resolving my own neediness. I no longer feel the obsession I had with specific women.
The second mask, the old self and my neediness, self loathing and other negative feelings seem to have died down now. Perhaps it’s been resolved.
I’m slowly learning how to be independent with the help of my sister. I used to rely on my mom to take care of administrative stuff regarding my healthcare forms but I mustered the resolve to do it myself. It’s a good feeling and it took a ton of purpose because I walked a whole mile to the healthcare office.
Overall, it was a ton of growth
This stage has definitely been rougher then I remembered but there has been a lot of growth.
There’s a sense of maturity that was developing under the hood that finally became clear at the end of the stage. I can sort of see farther into the future in the sense that I am more focused on my self development. I no longer want to feel validated by sex and women. How I noticed that is through my thought process in regards to what I should run after AM6. In the last I wanted to run SM3 to finally break this dry spell I had with women and to finally feel like I can catch up and have that typical college experience filled with sexual and female validation.
Now I noticed that I’m finally focused on trying move myself forward and purchased OF and LTU6. In a sense, this changed due to the stage resolving my own neediness. I no longer feel the obsession I had with specific women.
The second mask, the old self and my neediness, self loathing and other negative feelings seem to have died down now. Perhaps it’s been resolved.
I’m slowly learning how to be independent with the help of my sister. I used to rely on my mom to take care of administrative stuff regarding my healthcare forms but I mustered the resolve to do it myself. It’s a good feeling and it took a ton of purpose because I walked a whole mile to the healthcare office.
Overall, it was a ton of growth
Phase 1: The Foundation
AM6(2020)
LTU v6(2020-2021)
OF v3(2021)
Phase 2
AM6 Refresher + SM3(2021)
AM6(2020)
LTU v6(2020-2021)
OF v3(2021)
Phase 2
AM6 Refresher + SM3(2021)
