08-20-2020, 06:54 PM
Yet another rough day and had a mild panic attack. I was able to see it coming and meditate and whether it.
I finally found the name for the darkness inside me that wants to dive into narcissism, taking what i want in terms of women whether or not they want to or not, anger, rage and whatnot. I realized it was in a sense "society's Masculine ideals" fueled by the rage and pain from my experiences with women.
I finally found the name for the darkness inside me that wants to dive into narcissism, taking what i want in terms of women whether or not they want to or not, anger, rage and whatnot. I realized it was in a sense "society's Masculine ideals" fueled by the rage and pain from my experiences with women.
