08-06-2020, 06:07 AM
AM 6 Stage 4 day 8
Had my first session with a doc and it was pretty positive. I was straight forward with what i was considering root issues and my goals for the therapy. He told me that im a lot more open about issues that some men have difficulty talking about. I figured that i needed to face the music now rather than later.
Started listening to Models by Mark Manson again.
AM6 Stage 4 day 9
Listening to the ultrasonic track and suddenly had a 4:30 am realization about myself and suddenly i "get" some of the concepts of models and some of the things in therapy.
1. is why do i keep investing in any relationship where it feels like me just throwing balls into the court like its some one-sided game. That causes half the agony that im feeling now. I should have the self-respect to not do that to myself.
2. I realized that i don't really have a positive father figure or much of one at all and that creates issues for me because i don't have a base of reference for me to learn. I realized that i have to be that father figure to myself in a sense and teach myself everything a dad is supposed to teach me that im sorely lacking.
3. I can reframe my past to allow myself to heal from the past traumas and that allows me to learn self-compassion.
Had my first session with a doc and it was pretty positive. I was straight forward with what i was considering root issues and my goals for the therapy. He told me that im a lot more open about issues that some men have difficulty talking about. I figured that i needed to face the music now rather than later.
Started listening to Models by Mark Manson again.
AM6 Stage 4 day 9
Listening to the ultrasonic track and suddenly had a 4:30 am realization about myself and suddenly i "get" some of the concepts of models and some of the things in therapy.
1. is why do i keep investing in any relationship where it feels like me just throwing balls into the court like its some one-sided game. That causes half the agony that im feeling now. I should have the self-respect to not do that to myself.
2. I realized that i don't really have a positive father figure or much of one at all and that creates issues for me because i don't have a base of reference for me to learn. I realized that i have to be that father figure to myself in a sense and teach myself everything a dad is supposed to teach me that im sorely lacking.
3. I can reframe my past to allow myself to heal from the past traumas and that allows me to learn self-compassion.
