Tao's Journal (Multiple Subs)

[Tao374]

Hum, I just reviewed Shannon's post on the 20 types of resistance. It makes me wonder if switching back to running AM 5G was a mistake. Also, It makes me very excited about 6G technology. Subs have done a lot for me over the last 5 years and 10 months. Subs were really exiting to use in the beginning probably because I was so screwed up and a lot of things started to get fixed fast. Now I feel like I'm at the point that that there is really only extremely deep level stuff to fix that I can't seem to get past. I believe I used the analogy of it being like a video game earlier on in my journal. You get to the end of the game and levels are extremely difficult and often become a grind to achieve very small advancements. I'm not going to impulsively quite the AM refresher however, I'm strongly considering stopping at 64 days instead of 96. Then taking about a week break from subs (something that is not easy for me to do, I'm always trying to push forward and fix myself and don't like the idea of wasting valuable time). After some time off for things to settle hopefully I can find my base line and move forward using a 5.5G or 5.75G sub. I've been saying I want to run DMSI when not being in a relationship since I purchased it 2 or 3 years ago but I've been scared due to how I reacted to some of the earlier versions. It is supposed to be better now with the fear removal module. LTU 5.5G also sound appetizing. I feel that I was working on something huge emotionally and sabotaged myself by switching to AM due to outside pressure that I was feeling. Also, E3 is more advanced and would be a new experience that maybe would push me forward as well. I'm going to do a lot of reflecting over the next week or so and try to determine the best path for me to move forward.