Shannon's Journal, Volume 3

[Shannon]

I'm almost done with the current "on" cycle for MHS v2 and I feel its effects shifting. In the beginning, I was getting a backache for most days on, after that first time I used it, suggestive of some part of me being afraid of the healing process for some reason. It made me start wondering if maybe some part of me was creating the damage to my lungs to keep me "safe" or some sort of horse hockey like that. But this morning I woke up to a beautiful super-cozy sensation in which my muscles felt super relaxed and warm and glowy, almost like a cross between intense sexual afterglow and the effects of having just had a full body massage. I didn't want to wake up, it felt so good. Been awake a few hours now and I still feel it.

Also feel progress being made on my lungs. Very pleased with this program so far. The only downside is that it makes me feel so relaxed when it has this effect that it's hard to move at normal speed. It also definitely needs those "off" days, because at the end of each "on" cycle I feel very tired.

Love this feeling. I think whatever fear was causing the backache previously has been dealt with and that is interesting, because why would I have a fear associated with healing, and also, this program does not have FRM turned on.