11-04-2019, 01:52 PM
GPR-P18 is almost finished. Probably not today.
I'll be working on MIR v3 next. It started out being a focus-fire, but then I discovered something really useful during my research, and it's now got about 42 different goals on top of the focus fire, so it;s no longer a focus fire. This may take me a little while to accomplish. This is looking challenging to script and build, but it's also looking very promising.
MHS has to get started soon also, since my lungs are exceptionally sensitive recently. I walked into a Spice & Tea Exchange four days ago to order some tea, and while I was there the spice dust was enough to have me coughing my brains out for the last four days.
I've also been exceptionally exhausted recently and I'm not sure why. On top of that, I'm increasingly becoming irritable and I believe that has to do with the effects that the current cycle is having, which is the same cycle that peaked when my uncle died in May. It peaks for me again on the 24th and 25th of December, which is not going to make for a good Christmas, if it does again what it did before. And the way things are falling apart is exactly what happened leading up to my uncle's death. This time, my family will be torn apart again by my cousin and my aunt moving to China. My cousin is one of very, very few blood relatives I have left. But the whole pattern of events is playing out exactly the same as it did last time: more and more failure caused by random unexpected stupid crap, leading to more and more time spent repeating my efforts and getting nowhere, while finances get screwy for weird and unexpected reasons, family disruption, growing frustration over wasted time and money, and less and less real ability to be productive because of all this.
I was really hoping that this wouldn't happen, that the previous "hit" on this cycle was just me wrongly correlating it with what happened, but no. It's replaying with a precision that makes my prediction as to how this "second hit" of this cycle would go 100% accurate so far.
For example... it took me 5 days to calculate the ASRB for GPR-P18 "Elwood". That normally takes me 20-45 MINUTES. On top of that, I find myself spending my time and money on things that irritate the hell out of me, like... an hour and 27 minutes to change my oil, rotate my tires and swap out the transmission fluid? The bill for which was around 4x what would have been reasonable, too. Then going to have lunch and discovering that the person we went to see wasn't there, after she specifically told us she would be. Then going to wally world "on the way home", only to discover that 3 of 5 items we were there to buy were not in stock or were not what we needed... then coming home to discover that I am too exhausted to work because I made an unheard of number of mistakes not once, but three times in a row while attempting to correct the mistakes I made. Which frustrates me even further because now I can't work again, because I'm too tired, and I don't even have a reasonable explanation for why I am tired!
So... I'm working on it. And GPR-P18 looks really promising in the models. And MIR v3 has me excited. And MHS looks cool. But I'm not making much progress lately. I guess it comes down to just perseverance at this point, as I struggle to maintain my sanity through this shit storm. Again. Bear with me.
I'll be working on MIR v3 next. It started out being a focus-fire, but then I discovered something really useful during my research, and it's now got about 42 different goals on top of the focus fire, so it;s no longer a focus fire. This may take me a little while to accomplish. This is looking challenging to script and build, but it's also looking very promising.
MHS has to get started soon also, since my lungs are exceptionally sensitive recently. I walked into a Spice & Tea Exchange four days ago to order some tea, and while I was there the spice dust was enough to have me coughing my brains out for the last four days.
I've also been exceptionally exhausted recently and I'm not sure why. On top of that, I'm increasingly becoming irritable and I believe that has to do with the effects that the current cycle is having, which is the same cycle that peaked when my uncle died in May. It peaks for me again on the 24th and 25th of December, which is not going to make for a good Christmas, if it does again what it did before. And the way things are falling apart is exactly what happened leading up to my uncle's death. This time, my family will be torn apart again by my cousin and my aunt moving to China. My cousin is one of very, very few blood relatives I have left. But the whole pattern of events is playing out exactly the same as it did last time: more and more failure caused by random unexpected stupid crap, leading to more and more time spent repeating my efforts and getting nowhere, while finances get screwy for weird and unexpected reasons, family disruption, growing frustration over wasted time and money, and less and less real ability to be productive because of all this.
I was really hoping that this wouldn't happen, that the previous "hit" on this cycle was just me wrongly correlating it with what happened, but no. It's replaying with a precision that makes my prediction as to how this "second hit" of this cycle would go 100% accurate so far.
For example... it took me 5 days to calculate the ASRB for GPR-P18 "Elwood". That normally takes me 20-45 MINUTES. On top of that, I find myself spending my time and money on things that irritate the hell out of me, like... an hour and 27 minutes to change my oil, rotate my tires and swap out the transmission fluid? The bill for which was around 4x what would have been reasonable, too. Then going to have lunch and discovering that the person we went to see wasn't there, after she specifically told us she would be. Then going to wally world "on the way home", only to discover that 3 of 5 items we were there to buy were not in stock or were not what we needed... then coming home to discover that I am too exhausted to work because I made an unheard of number of mistakes not once, but three times in a row while attempting to correct the mistakes I made. Which frustrates me even further because now I can't work again, because I'm too tired, and I don't even have a reasonable explanation for why I am tired!
So... I'm working on it. And GPR-P18 looks really promising in the models. And MIR v3 has me excited. And MHS looks cool. But I'm not making much progress lately. I guess it comes down to just perseverance at this point, as I struggle to maintain my sanity through this shit storm. Again. Bear with me.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
