06-09-2019, 11:23 AM
So I was lying down with my cat just a bit ago, and I thought about the friendship breakup and how even if she doesn't forgive me, I forgive myself, and then thought "Okay now what? I've gotten over that hurdle, but aren't there things I should be doing with my life? Shouldn't I be doing this? Shouldn't I be doing that?" and I came to a realization that I really don't HAVE to do anything. All my life, I've been a perfectionist. Everything needs to be perfect. And now I'm starting to feel as though not everything needs to be "perfect" and I don't need to do anything or prove anything to anyone. I can take things slow and do what I want, at my own pace, and just be happy with what I'm doing and not care about "perfection".
