01-26-2018, 05:25 AM
A strange but welcome change is happening in the way I react to situations where others are not providing me with information like they should be or are treating me with less respect than I feel is appropriate. There is less resentment and less of the feeling of being purposefully wronged while I stand my ground. My vicious treat-me-wrong-and-I'll-burn-all-bridges-between-us is replaced by something more ... mature?
This old reaction pattern was always some kind of unconscious or automated response. Easily being hurt and inwardly bitching out while outwardly becoming silent and (purposefully?) distancing myself from and suddenly despising whoever commited the faux-pas, no matter how small and insignificant the issue. Pretty toxic and unhealthy now that I think about it.
Interestingly it is only after I act in a different way to address certain situations that I suddenly realize that there is a learned/default reaction pattern. And only then can I start to change it. Talk about getting out of a rut (or two)
This old reaction pattern was always some kind of unconscious or automated response. Easily being hurt and inwardly bitching out while outwardly becoming silent and (purposefully?) distancing myself from and suddenly despising whoever commited the faux-pas, no matter how small and insignificant the issue. Pretty toxic and unhealthy now that I think about it.
Interestingly it is only after I act in a different way to address certain situations that I suddenly realize that there is a learned/default reaction pattern. And only then can I start to change it. Talk about getting out of a rut (or two)
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