09-08-2017, 12:49 PM
Meanwhile i fully understand what many people in their journals refer to as "rollercoaster" 
Actual it seems that the inner process is going down on the very core causes, which led to lack of self-esteem. The thought pattern changed in a way, that circumstances which happened later in that chain are no more that important (thoughts stopped on a lot of issues) - as just being regarded as symptom.
Down there still some tough fighting takes place, getting some waves of anger/hate as the origins are made so clear.
On the outside nevertheless things start to improve. Speech and feeling solid in different situations improves. That does not count at all for my actual two problem zones in daily life (there is still some fear left), but i started already "acting" to change them - what is a huge thing for myself because it means not to stand on the reaction-side anymore.
Enjoy your weekend!
Actual it seems that the inner process is going down on the very core causes, which led to lack of self-esteem. The thought pattern changed in a way, that circumstances which happened later in that chain are no more that important (thoughts stopped on a lot of issues) - as just being regarded as symptom.
Down there still some tough fighting takes place, getting some waves of anger/hate as the origins are made so clear.
On the outside nevertheless things start to improve. Speech and feeling solid in different situations improves. That does not count at all for my actual two problem zones in daily life (there is still some fear left), but i started already "acting" to change them - what is a huge thing for myself because it means not to stand on the reaction-side anymore.
Enjoy your weekend!
