JAKE'S EHPRA 2.0

[Jake2015]

Day 35 - Update

Im trying to listen to Ocean Flac via earphones through my phone whenever I can, and last few days have managed to listen to on average 4hrs in the day which is great.

At night the US has changed from mp3 to flac and I listen to that as usual and stated in this post.

Any noticeable results = Nil

So whats happening in my life at the moment then?

1) My Sleep has become my primary goal as you all would have read. I have been managing to wake up (not get out of bed) but wake up around 5.45am-6.10am.

This is fantastic for me as I was usually waking up around 11am on a push to 1 or 2pm on a norm.

However waking up is only happening with an alarm and I realised that I need to get 8hours sleep otherwise the quality of my sleep won't be good and ill be a zombie all day.

Ive tried to go to sleep by 9pm but getting to bed that early even on a weekend hasnt been so easy due to eating so close to that time and not feeling hungry any earlier.

2 days ago I began taking my sleep supplements again. For anyone interested these are: ZMA, 5HTP, GABA, Melatonin and Magnesium. Never take these all at the same time. I spread them out following advice from my local supplement store from 5pm-9pm.

Yesterday I got to bed around 9.15pm and watched youtube on my phone until 10pm then fell asleep. So its getting better slowly.

My goal is to get 9hours sleep every day which is the ONLY way I can feel fully refreshed I feel.

IMPORTANCE: When I do however wake up, at the start of this new regime I wasnt getting out of bed for 1.5hours. I mean I may go to the bathroom then come back and sit on the bed and watch youtube or snapchat or check emails etc. I wouldnt get out of bed.

I today managed to reduce that time by 30mins, so I'm in the shower within 1 hours waking up which is a good start.

I am however still slow in the morning, and not as active or productive as I would like to be, will this improve at all - does anyone have a view on this?


The goal is to wake up at 6 and finish my bathroom needs by 6.15pm (not likely as yet) and then to walk to the local gym and start working out from 6.30am - 7.30am. Then to come home, have breakfast, have a shower and then dress and go either to uni at 9am or do work from 9am.



So what else:

Today I felt fear. Fear of actually doing assignments assigned to me. I am not doing what needs to be done because I am prioritising researching online the art of studying, or how to study as my technique both of note taking and then what to do after that is still bad/poor.

I have only managed to get this far due to sheer persistence and fear.


The purpose and reason for me starting E2 was to eliminate these fears, fears leading to procrastination, fears leading to self doubt, fears leading to inaction and analysis to paralysis, fear of failure and fear of success, as well as improve my self esteem and self worth and responsibility and maturity.

In all honesty none of these has changed or been affected as yet.

The only reason I believe that I am focused on sleep improvement is because I have been for many months and was there but then went backwards to do going home pre-easter. I am not eager to get this fixed so that in the summer I can get focused on my physio and gym and then start the 3rd year of my degree more focused.

I also said I felt fear today and that was fear that what if the sub isn't working, not because it can't work on me but because I don't have it loud enough.

So please please can someone kindly answer this for me but incase no-one does ill post it on Shannon's Journal to ask him too.

The question is, am I playing US loud enough. I checked it with frequensee and at the speakers it is around 30db and at my pillow/ears its around 45-55db.

This fear has made me wonder if the sub is being heard by my ears so if anyone has any information on this please let me know.

I should now do some work, the time is 10.55am, instead I am on here writing this.

I have deadlines looming and nothing started :/

thanks for reading