30 Days of MHS 5.5g

[Benjamin]

It seems that people are consciously finding reasons to resist their subs.

I wouldn't say consciously, more subconsciously.

I want DMSI to work, but one pattern that has been long standing seems to be "I start getting attention > i'm like "oh this is good" > when I start to notice it some fear or something kicks in and derails it and it disappears."

It's not conscious but it's a pattern I know well and that i'm even aware of when it's happening but I can't seem to consciously stop it.