02-17-2017, 07:13 AM
Day 18:
This is incredible.
So, yesterday, I took my first Muay Thai class at UFC. I'm sure everyone knows what Muay Thai is, but if you don't, just know that it involves A LOT of powerful kicks -- and since my knees have been severely damaged, THEORETICALLY I shouldn't be able train that often.
Yesterday's workout was just as intense as you'd expect from a gym bearing the UFC brand name. Despite the fact that it was my first day, the Coach gave me NO leeway. He expected me to work just as hard as everyone else. And I did, but I have extensive martial arts experience anyway.
I expected for my knees to be in extreme pain this morning. That being said... there was LITTLE TO NO PAIN at all, and not only that, but my legs feel SO MUCH STRONGER. A few weeks ago, I noticed that my legs would tremble a lot after working out, or if I popped a squat or held a deep stance. Not today. I tested it multiple times, even threw a few kicks. No pain, no shaking. This is a HUGE, HUGE, HUGE improvement over my past condition.
Now here's where it gets weird:
Interestingly enough, I had some severe resistance yesterday in the form of a massive headache. I didn't think it was DMSI. Those of you who have experienced v3's resistance headaches know that it's an absolute day-wrecker. This went away WAAAY too quick. In fact, I just took some pain killers and went to Muay Thai.
Last night, I had a number of dreams related to women and sex. Woke up about 4am and I was completely wrapped in the healing energy. I've never experienced it like this before. However, I was also experiencing a new form of resistance: Disgust of myself and my body. Best way I can explain it. I wanted to vomit because of my own natural smell, the feeling of my hair made me wanna vomit. The thought of any woman wanting to have sex with me made me feel shameful -- and yes, I wanted to vomit.
Went back to sleep and had even more dreams about women. Particularly this weird one where me and all my friends were competing for this gorgeous black chick named Constance. The weird thing -- and I'm not being racist -- was how BLACK she was. Like, black as the night, man. I only mention it because anyone who has read my journals knows that I've dealt with significant racism in my life and it's been an issue. Anyway, I ended up getting the girl in this really melodramatic scene where she poured strawberry jelly all over her body and begged me to lick it off.
Okay.
Anyway, when I woke up, that's when I noticed how pain-free I was, how clear my mind was and how energetic I feel (which I just ruined by eating that damn "eggnormous burrito" from Burger King).
Could DMSI's super clearing modules be mixing with MHS's clearing lite to hit some really, really deep stuff that's keeping me from achieving BOTH?
Or, have my experiences with women somehow prevented me from being healthy. Perhaps my subconscious was deliberately keeping me away from the gym, clean eating and just healing itself naturally as a way to repel women...?
This is incredible.
So, yesterday, I took my first Muay Thai class at UFC. I'm sure everyone knows what Muay Thai is, but if you don't, just know that it involves A LOT of powerful kicks -- and since my knees have been severely damaged, THEORETICALLY I shouldn't be able train that often.
Yesterday's workout was just as intense as you'd expect from a gym bearing the UFC brand name. Despite the fact that it was my first day, the Coach gave me NO leeway. He expected me to work just as hard as everyone else. And I did, but I have extensive martial arts experience anyway.
I expected for my knees to be in extreme pain this morning. That being said... there was LITTLE TO NO PAIN at all, and not only that, but my legs feel SO MUCH STRONGER. A few weeks ago, I noticed that my legs would tremble a lot after working out, or if I popped a squat or held a deep stance. Not today. I tested it multiple times, even threw a few kicks. No pain, no shaking. This is a HUGE, HUGE, HUGE improvement over my past condition.
Now here's where it gets weird:
Interestingly enough, I had some severe resistance yesterday in the form of a massive headache. I didn't think it was DMSI. Those of you who have experienced v3's resistance headaches know that it's an absolute day-wrecker. This went away WAAAY too quick. In fact, I just took some pain killers and went to Muay Thai.
Last night, I had a number of dreams related to women and sex. Woke up about 4am and I was completely wrapped in the healing energy. I've never experienced it like this before. However, I was also experiencing a new form of resistance: Disgust of myself and my body. Best way I can explain it. I wanted to vomit because of my own natural smell, the feeling of my hair made me wanna vomit. The thought of any woman wanting to have sex with me made me feel shameful -- and yes, I wanted to vomit.
Went back to sleep and had even more dreams about women. Particularly this weird one where me and all my friends were competing for this gorgeous black chick named Constance. The weird thing -- and I'm not being racist -- was how BLACK she was. Like, black as the night, man. I only mention it because anyone who has read my journals knows that I've dealt with significant racism in my life and it's been an issue. Anyway, I ended up getting the girl in this really melodramatic scene where she poured strawberry jelly all over her body and begged me to lick it off.
Okay.
Anyway, when I woke up, that's when I noticed how pain-free I was, how clear my mind was and how energetic I feel (which I just ruined by eating that damn "eggnormous burrito" from Burger King).
Could DMSI's super clearing modules be mixing with MHS's clearing lite to hit some really, really deep stuff that's keeping me from achieving BOTH?
Or, have my experiences with women somehow prevented me from being healthy. Perhaps my subconscious was deliberately keeping me away from the gym, clean eating and just healing itself naturally as a way to repel women...?
