Day 4, Part 2:
Very interesting. So, the resistance is passing, as well as the painkillers. I proceeded to pop a few more squats and dash up and down the stairs. Knee pain has decreased by 25-35% (rough estimate, as it's really tough to quantify this). Either way, my knees haven't felt this good in a long time, and that was worth the price of admission for me already. Pain in my right fingers have decreased by about 10%. Probably not enough for me to jump back on the heavy bags, but it's still an improvement.
That being said, I realize I'm resisting the SHIT out of the sub. Only Shannon can answer this, but I feel like there's a "clearing light" module in the sub, and that may have been what was causing that "weird resistance," as it seemed to be hitting something that's never been touched on before. It seems that my subconscious "can't believe" that I'm being healed so quickly and is attempting to thwart the script's effects. When I did my mental alchemy drill and performed a subconscious check, I kept getting something along the lines of, "this isn't possible -- it's a trick." Was also receiving, "It's going to keep hurting." And last, but certainly not least, "you'll never get over this."
I couldn't understand wtf was going on until I kept delving a bit deeper. Seems like I've been using my knees and poor health as a defense mechanism to hide away from scary things. I've always wanted to fight in an amateur kickboxing / muay thai / mma / etc. match, but lately it's been, "can't with these knees." Go on a lot of dates? Nope, can't fuck well with these knees. Play basketball with friends? Nope, not with these knees.
In actuality, it's just a deep rooted fear and my subconscious has manifested bad knees and other physical ailments as an attempt to prevent me from overcoming these fears.
This sub is getting "real."
EDIT: Oh yeah, I've been HUNGRY AS F*CK, man. Gotta get them building blocks to feed the sub.
Very interesting. So, the resistance is passing, as well as the painkillers. I proceeded to pop a few more squats and dash up and down the stairs. Knee pain has decreased by 25-35% (rough estimate, as it's really tough to quantify this). Either way, my knees haven't felt this good in a long time, and that was worth the price of admission for me already. Pain in my right fingers have decreased by about 10%. Probably not enough for me to jump back on the heavy bags, but it's still an improvement.
That being said, I realize I'm resisting the SHIT out of the sub. Only Shannon can answer this, but I feel like there's a "clearing light" module in the sub, and that may have been what was causing that "weird resistance," as it seemed to be hitting something that's never been touched on before. It seems that my subconscious "can't believe" that I'm being healed so quickly and is attempting to thwart the script's effects. When I did my mental alchemy drill and performed a subconscious check, I kept getting something along the lines of, "this isn't possible -- it's a trick." Was also receiving, "It's going to keep hurting." And last, but certainly not least, "you'll never get over this."
I couldn't understand wtf was going on until I kept delving a bit deeper. Seems like I've been using my knees and poor health as a defense mechanism to hide away from scary things. I've always wanted to fight in an amateur kickboxing / muay thai / mma / etc. match, but lately it's been, "can't with these knees." Go on a lot of dates? Nope, can't fuck well with these knees. Play basketball with friends? Nope, not with these knees.
In actuality, it's just a deep rooted fear and my subconscious has manifested bad knees and other physical ailments as an attempt to prevent me from overcoming these fears.
This sub is getting "real."
EDIT: Oh yeah, I've been HUNGRY AS F*CK, man. Gotta get them building blocks to feed the sub.
