JAKE'S EHPRA 2.0

[Jake2015]

Some Advice and Suggestions sought from you all please

Hi Guys

So Im seeking your advice.

Ive been using E2 as you all can see with little to no results.

Im unable now to maintain a daily listen schedule as you all will know from my journal due to the xmas break etc.

My reasons for E2 was to test the most powerful sub that Shannon had made, coupled with its effect on fears.

The fears that I believe I have, are what leads to my procrastination, laziness, etc as well as fears to actually study etc.

That was why I had chosen to try E2, after many of you suggested this would be the 1 cure to rule them all.

I also thought if it could deal with any other fears and anxieties that I have then even better.

I also thought clearing up anything from my past would be a bonus.

That hasnt happened of course.

I have had more time to realise that my real issues are to combat my procrastination, lack of action and laziness.

In my mind I want to be the kind of student that studies and works. That also hits all his other goals, from exercising to eating right, and being disciplines and able to destress and focus on things as they need my attention.

Don't get me wrong, when I'm outside I get on with things outside but as soon as I'm alone back in my apartment, I fall and relax and don't move. I sit for hours on youtube and the internet and just don't move. I eat and don't move.

I don't want to do anything but stay where I am until its time to sleep and then go to sleep.

There are students that are doing and I'm not, I'm just imagining and not doing.

I therefore want you to help me, should I remain on E2, or move to another sub and if so which and why?

Remember in my mind, I want to reach my goals, I want to study, I actually want to learn, but I'm not moving and not doing.

The only time I get into action is when the fear of a teacher, a test or a deadline approaches.

I don't want to be this way. Is E2 the best one for me, or shall I move to another sub??

I did try E2 for longer than 32 days and go nothing from it at all.

Im happy to try another strategy on using it, for example as Ben suggested in the day with ocean masked track, but my whole purpose in using subs is to use the Silent track and at night or day so that it doesn't disturb or infringe on my day.

Im lost now as to what to do, I hate being the way I am, so lazy and unmotivated etc.

Maybe there is a sub with both motivation and procrastination in it?

Its now to the stage where I avoid cooking unless its something easy rather than a healthy meal. I have so many goals and I'm not moving on any of them and I don't know why.

So please advise. thanks