10-03-2016, 03:27 PM
Stage 3 day 32
Today is technically the last day of the regular run of stage 3, but since I'm doing extended, at least two months per stages 3 - 6, the real fun is just beginning.
I felt the all too familiar "take no shit from anyone" attitude today as i had to deal with some time wasters eating up my day.
This feels like the "Value Your Time Highly Enough To Refuse To Waste It" module at work. A few business people are dragging their feet, and in most cases i don't mind as long as it doesn't relate to me, but "Uh oh", it does relate to me. Stuff that should have happened a week ago are now slowly in the works. Soooo slowwwww, holy crap.
Another incident happened with a family member. I drove her around for what was supposed to be a few hours worth of errands. Damn thing took the whole day with me constantly asking how many more places we had to go.
The clincher was when she attacked me for trying to rush her. Yeah, I don't play that shit. I had to calmly remind her whose time she was using up today, considering that we had been running around for far longer than expected.
In situations where I should technically just blow up and let anger take hold, I'm finding that I am able to judge myself more objectively.
I see and feel the anger inside, but there is no automatic trigger to just let it loose now, which is a good thing.
Now, i have no idea if that's lingering from E2 or something new from BASE, but full emotional control is a very very good thing, and more people need it. So I'm happy that I'm slowly moving toward a more controlled emotional state of being.
As far as I can tell anger and mild anxiety are the two that I need to work on most right now. I'm moving toward more anxiety control with some meditations I'm doing right now using tensor rings (those rings kick ass, btw). And the healing sessions I've done with phyllis light seem to be doing wonders for me right now.
Today is technically the last day of the regular run of stage 3, but since I'm doing extended, at least two months per stages 3 - 6, the real fun is just beginning.
I felt the all too familiar "take no shit from anyone" attitude today as i had to deal with some time wasters eating up my day.
This feels like the "Value Your Time Highly Enough To Refuse To Waste It" module at work. A few business people are dragging their feet, and in most cases i don't mind as long as it doesn't relate to me, but "Uh oh", it does relate to me. Stuff that should have happened a week ago are now slowly in the works. Soooo slowwwww, holy crap.
Another incident happened with a family member. I drove her around for what was supposed to be a few hours worth of errands. Damn thing took the whole day with me constantly asking how many more places we had to go.
The clincher was when she attacked me for trying to rush her. Yeah, I don't play that shit. I had to calmly remind her whose time she was using up today, considering that we had been running around for far longer than expected.
In situations where I should technically just blow up and let anger take hold, I'm finding that I am able to judge myself more objectively.
I see and feel the anger inside, but there is no automatic trigger to just let it loose now, which is a good thing.
Now, i have no idea if that's lingering from E2 or something new from BASE, but full emotional control is a very very good thing, and more people need it. So I'm happy that I'm slowly moving toward a more controlled emotional state of being.
As far as I can tell anger and mild anxiety are the two that I need to work on most right now. I'm moving toward more anxiety control with some meditations I'm doing right now using tensor rings (those rings kick ass, btw). And the healing sessions I've done with phyllis light seem to be doing wonders for me right now.
