05-20-2016, 07:29 AM
Day 76
Yesterday 1st halv: feeling really good.
Yesterday 2nd halv: feeling really bad.
Today: feeling really good.
That 2nd halv I woke up from a 20-minute nap and felt a very sharp change in mood, to the worse. This has actually happened several times - there's something about napping for me on E2. Anyway, had to go walk it off and sit outside with it, as I understand it was mostly bitterness resentment, anger, sadness and such due to giving way too much value to other's opinions and on making sure things sort of work out well for all involved. I've been making several decision about where I'll live, work, how to handle various things, etc. I'm not saying I'm gonna be an asshole about it from now on, but I do need to let go of this guilt about some of my decisions possible affecting others badly, or not pleasing all other parties, or not wasting people's time. Its my life and I'm aiming for the best-feeling outcome I can, and that's all I can do. So I shouldn't be making myself feel so stressed and bad about those things.
Yesterday 1st halv: feeling really good.
Yesterday 2nd halv: feeling really bad.
Today: feeling really good.
That 2nd halv I woke up from a 20-minute nap and felt a very sharp change in mood, to the worse. This has actually happened several times - there's something about napping for me on E2. Anyway, had to go walk it off and sit outside with it, as I understand it was mostly bitterness resentment, anger, sadness and such due to giving way too much value to other's opinions and on making sure things sort of work out well for all involved. I've been making several decision about where I'll live, work, how to handle various things, etc. I'm not saying I'm gonna be an asshole about it from now on, but I do need to let go of this guilt about some of my decisions possible affecting others badly, or not pleasing all other parties, or not wasting people's time. Its my life and I'm aiming for the best-feeling outcome I can, and that's all I can do. So I shouldn't be making myself feel so stressed and bad about those things.
Thoughts, opinions and beliefs subject to change without prior notice.
