04-20-2016, 12:48 AM
Day 46
I feel like it took the first 30 days for the program to deal with the most pressing emotional issues (whatever they were; I was just feeling down a lot), and after that its been going to work on making things better.
The book (The slight edge) has been really motivating, I've constantly either been doing something productive or resting these last 2 weeks. At least 3 times I've even cried a bit just reading the book, because there were these... revelations of "yes, I can actually do that.. and that.. and I guess even that..". Hope, I guess. Empowering. Confidence has been on the rise as well lately. Nothing drastic, but noticeable still.
Why I wanted to post today is because I was clearly having fear-related dreams last night! Many dreams, or one really long and winding one. At some point there were several instances with some bullies that were much bigger than me, and I always stood my ground and kicked their asses. Then to the last one I met I said something like "You should know by now, if there's one thing I'm not.. its that I'm NOT afraid of any of you guys." I'm happy about this, since I'm always wondering in the back of my mind if I should be doing OGSF instead.
I feel like it took the first 30 days for the program to deal with the most pressing emotional issues (whatever they were; I was just feeling down a lot), and after that its been going to work on making things better.
The book (The slight edge) has been really motivating, I've constantly either been doing something productive or resting these last 2 weeks. At least 3 times I've even cried a bit just reading the book, because there were these... revelations of "yes, I can actually do that.. and that.. and I guess even that..". Hope, I guess. Empowering. Confidence has been on the rise as well lately. Nothing drastic, but noticeable still.
Why I wanted to post today is because I was clearly having fear-related dreams last night! Many dreams, or one really long and winding one. At some point there were several instances with some bullies that were much bigger than me, and I always stood my ground and kicked their asses. Then to the last one I met I said something like "You should know by now, if there's one thing I'm not.. its that I'm NOT afraid of any of you guys." I'm happy about this, since I'm always wondering in the back of my mind if I should be doing OGSF instead.
Thoughts, opinions and beliefs subject to change without prior notice.
