03-11-2016, 12:57 PM
Day 6
80.5 Hours Listened So far
On this day of my run I took 2 5000 IU vitamin D pills. Within 2 hours I was starting to get mad and irritable and kinda assertive. I think it's the testosterone creation and production caused by the Vitamins that triggered this along with the Subliminal playing. I still feel bad in my body but not so much my heads moods down but I sense that in my body there is some sort of sadness buried in there that's waiting to be released and burst out. There is still spasms in my body that comes out at random times and I sorta feel a coldness taking over my body and influencing me to act in a bad way when this happens.
Other things that happened when I wasn't posting was that I realized that I now feel sexual attraction in my heart/upper solar plexus spot instead of my balls. I saw a hot dark peached skin chick with a big ass and the right amount of breasts exposed and it felt like 1,000 volts to the heart instead of a feeling to fuck. I accredit this to No Fap ( 20 Days) and EHPRA 2.0 since this started on Monday. On the street though when I look at a girl with a man I am able to stare at them and make eye contact with the man when I am scanning his girl without looking down but when I see a hot chick on the street I look at her then down and all interest she had at me changes when I see her expression after I do that. It's kinda hard to make eye contact with some women because of guilt that you had fantasies about them and wouldn't want to be judged. They perceive this as weakness and don't give you the respect you deserve.
Another activity that I have been doing is not moving when I see someone in my path when walking and it has not been going so well because I still Unconciously keep on moving out the way for people, especially women without a seccond thought. Guess I still have some fears to hunt.
80.5 Hours Listened So far
On this day of my run I took 2 5000 IU vitamin D pills. Within 2 hours I was starting to get mad and irritable and kinda assertive. I think it's the testosterone creation and production caused by the Vitamins that triggered this along with the Subliminal playing. I still feel bad in my body but not so much my heads moods down but I sense that in my body there is some sort of sadness buried in there that's waiting to be released and burst out. There is still spasms in my body that comes out at random times and I sorta feel a coldness taking over my body and influencing me to act in a bad way when this happens.
Other things that happened when I wasn't posting was that I realized that I now feel sexual attraction in my heart/upper solar plexus spot instead of my balls. I saw a hot dark peached skin chick with a big ass and the right amount of breasts exposed and it felt like 1,000 volts to the heart instead of a feeling to fuck. I accredit this to No Fap ( 20 Days) and EHPRA 2.0 since this started on Monday. On the street though when I look at a girl with a man I am able to stare at them and make eye contact with the man when I am scanning his girl without looking down but when I see a hot chick on the street I look at her then down and all interest she had at me changes when I see her expression after I do that. It's kinda hard to make eye contact with some women because of guilt that you had fantasies about them and wouldn't want to be judged. They perceive this as weakness and don't give you the respect you deserve.
Another activity that I have been doing is not moving when I see someone in my path when walking and it has not been going so well because I still Unconciously keep on moving out the way for people, especially women without a seccond thought. Guess I still have some fears to hunt.
E2 Days in All: 606 Days
UD Start Date: November 1st, 2017- January 19th 2018
DMSI- February 22nd 2018- When AM7 Comes Out?
UD Start Date: November 1st, 2017- January 19th 2018
DMSI- February 22nd 2018- When AM7 Comes Out?
