And also, I know that bit about how I don't really care about stuff I used to, is a big part of why I procrastinate so hard on job applications. Not only does it seems hard to get selected to a new position, in the back of my mind I have a fear that'd get me in even deeper to what I'm already sick of. Doing more things for the wrong reasons. Just don't yet know what else to do. Something that'd allow me to be a bit more "complete" wrt to work; so it'd not just be about being in my logical, analytical, critical brain. Some more movement (physical and emotional), more connection, more inspiration, more real, more.. open. No idea what that could be realistically, though. It should still be competitive, just not purely intellectually. I couldn't give a shit about who is smarter, intellectually, than someone else. Never have, really, so long as things get done.
Thoughts, opinions and beliefs subject to change without prior notice.
