After feeling all this negative crap I've realized I messed up. I got sucked into the stories I tell myself again instead of realizing it's just feelings. That's the thing though, if you do it enough it becomes a feedback loop. You feel a certain way and that triggers an onslaught of negative thinking and ruminating. Like I need some kind of justification for why I'm feeling a certain way so my mind builds a story or explanation.
You can get lost in your own mind so easily. I don't know if this is a result of the subliminal healing old wounds and then me confusing them for present day feelings. It's like a complete regression to my old self. Probably my mind clinging onto my old self.
Through my relatively negative and dark period, I did feel some kind of voice in the back of my head telling me it wasn't right. But I'd like to avoid this in the future if at all possible. It's almost like amnesia when it happens, I forget that I'm not that person anymore and I shouldn't feed it.
I have to remember to keep my focus towards the future and to not let the past dictate how I respond to life events. I've changed for the better and I have to use that new self to build new experiences for myself.
I just realized a lot of this just stems from lack of self compassion for myself. I'm going to practice having more compassion for myself from now on. I'm very understanding of others issues and accept them as they are, but it seems like I don't get the same treatment for whatever reason. This leads to a lot of inner pain because I'm constantly judging and criticizing myself.
You can get lost in your own mind so easily. I don't know if this is a result of the subliminal healing old wounds and then me confusing them for present day feelings. It's like a complete regression to my old self. Probably my mind clinging onto my old self.
Through my relatively negative and dark period, I did feel some kind of voice in the back of my head telling me it wasn't right. But I'd like to avoid this in the future if at all possible. It's almost like amnesia when it happens, I forget that I'm not that person anymore and I shouldn't feed it.
I have to remember to keep my focus towards the future and to not let the past dictate how I respond to life events. I've changed for the better and I have to use that new self to build new experiences for myself.
I just realized a lot of this just stems from lack of self compassion for myself. I'm going to practice having more compassion for myself from now on. I'm very understanding of others issues and accept them as they are, but it seems like I don't get the same treatment for whatever reason. This leads to a lot of inner pain because I'm constantly judging and criticizing myself.
