EP E3 Journal

[Greenduck]

Thanks for the perspective. Naw I'm not on NoFap. Not interested. I know of the supposed benefits. Heres my counterargument: Let's say you land a bombshell of a woman, you got her in her bedroom or vice versa, she's naked on the bed and ready to go. Bit the damndest thing: YOU'VE been training yourweeweenot to get aroused when you see a hot naked woman. So it doesn't go up and you're *****. Or rather, NOT ***** cause ypu cant get it up. That's just one argument but the plain truth is: I just don't wanna go on NoFap. Maybe it'd help bit eh. ***** it.

Well you are right in one thing there, going on nofap can cause you do loose your sexual interest for a while, or it may seem that way, what you are doing is just healing sexually to get a more natural drive, rather than the artificial drive that you get from porn and masturbating. But after that, man, I can tell you things get different. I have a totally new drive for sex now that feels more real and natural, and I don't even have to think about the need to be aroused, I just am. No more performance anxiety in the bedroom, the experience of sex is more rewarding and so is my performance. The battle to get over the addition is hard, but I can say that it's definitely worth it.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

I'll consider limiting masturbation. I'm not quitting it entirely though.

[Greenduck]

I'll consider limiting masturbation. I'm not quitting it entirely though.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k6_QUhUPrF4

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Inspiring speech, but ever heard the phrase "All things in moderation?" Something to be said about that philosophy too. Just saying.

[Greenduck]

Sure thing. But I wouldn’t apply it to something I probably was addicted to which other people had great benefit of quitting.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

I would. Did it with pot.

But hey man, everybody rolls their own way. If 100% No Fap works for you, go for it!

Me? I'll try limited fapping. See how that works for me before I go "All in" on it.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

I consider it synchronicity that I stumbled upon this video:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sX8l5z_F00A

My whole life, I've been re-experiencing the same nightmare with a fresh coat of paint, never realizing I was experiencing every experience from the lens of a traumatic, nightmarish experience I cannot remember, but which permeates all experiences because I have chosen to hold onto it. The way to break free, I've recently learned, is to realize this whole nightmare stems from the illusion that what once happened is still happening. When you let go of that illusion and realize that the past is not happening now, the nightmare ends and one is finally free to dream with lucidity. I've been living my life as a traumatized child, and now I am free to be a man.

[Greenduck]

I would. Did it with pot.

But hey man, everybody rolls their own way. If 100% No Fap works for you, go for it!

Me? I'll try limited fapping. See how that works for me before I go "All in" on it.

I’ve read some about people trying to half ass it, and it doesn’t work, but I wish you best of luck.

It’s one of the best decisions I’ve made, but also one of the hardest. You don’t understand how much it’s messed with you being hooked on it for 10+ years doing it almost every day until you quit and get of the habit.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Day 89:

My mom just came to me to ask if my dad could take money out of my student loans to pay for a plumber because a pipe is messed up and dad can't fix it, and we need running water.

The 31st may be the LAST day of donating plasma for money. I will trade dad the card for a check whenever dad has the money, or I will find some other way to get the money out of my card and take it to the bank.

Point I'm trying to get to is, I CLEARLY need money and so does my family.

Which means I'll be going on UMS ASAP.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Day 90: Things are getting hectic. BUSY scedule. Difficult statistics course. Fucked up plumbing at house. Gonna cost us 400 bucks. I say "us" and not my patents because what affects their finances affects me. Gonna calculate the total amount earned on my BPL card by the end of the month and trade it to dad in exchange for transferring an equal amount into my account. Then, I should probably be able to buy UMS. I'll take however long a break I may need to take (if I need to take one) and then fo on UMS. Might also keep donating plasma for 1 more month. Should earn me another 300 bucks if I do it right. By the end of this month, I should have somewhere over 400.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Day 92: I have just bought UMS, and will probably be switching to that for the next year.