Subliminal Talk

Day 12

Currently listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=498ERMjeUko

Within 11 days of using DMSI, the program seems to have put me in a position where I was able to execute its goals.

I'm writing about DMSI as if it's a separate entity, or perhaps, the process this version is taking me through is changing me into a different version of myself. The two sides of the same coin sentiment.

Last night I met up with my friend who I wrote about in my previous post, the one I had the fried chicken and beer with, I'll call her K. We got together again last night to just hang out and watch a movie at her place. NYC was in a state of emergency with the snow storm, and I had nothing better to do.

I was originally going to see the friend from Thursday night, I'll call her Y, before she was going to a Rangers game. However, our timing didn't work out, and before I went home K gave me a ring and asked me to swing by. I've known K for almost 18 years. We knew each other here in the city, and we hung out together when I was living in Korea and she went back home to see her family.

K and I are tight, always have been. So it's not unusual for us to get together. We've fallen asleep in the same bed together plenty of times, and she'll usually curl up next to me, but nothing ever happened between us. Maybe it was timing or just the friendzone thing that happens, but, it was fine for both of us.

So last night she wanted to do a movie night while waiting for the storm to pass through NYC. I was game as I didn't have anywhere to go today. I would have just been curled up in my apartment reading or working.

We got through a few movies, ate Ramen noodles, and talked about when we were in our 20's and all the shit we used to get into then and how much we grew up.

A little past midnight I was going to head home, but K asked me to stay and I was tired, so I took her up on the offer.

I went to lie down on the couch and she laid on top of me and we talked for a little while. Again, nothing we've never done before.

And then, without me fully grasping what just happened, we were naked and making out. We eventually moved to the bedroom and had sex. It was pretty amazing sex.

When I slept last night I had a dream with a blonde haired girl who was looking at me and smiling. I remember thinking in the dream that I had sniped her.

When I woke up this morning, things between K and I were exactly the same as they always were. We talked, laughed, and acted as we always did. Nothing changed between us, despite what happened last night.

I did have a headache though. When I got home in the afternoon, I felt an anger well up inside of myself. I don't know what I was angry about, but something was burning up inside of me.

I thought a lot about Y suddenly as the evening came. Last Thursday night, while we were out, she asked me at some point as to whether or not I loved her. I said I didn't. Which is true. I don't love her. I have strong feelings for her, but I wouldn't say it's love.

As I'm writing this, I realize even more that there are so many things happening inside of me now. So many things that I don't understand and can't even begin to explain.

Tomorrow I'll be someone different than I am today...

Welcome to reality bending.

Day 14

Currently listening to: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ot1FtvVaoI8

Yesterday I did my loops using the hybrid tracks. By the time I was done I was so disoriented I couldn't really function properly. For the most part my day was a complete wash.

By evening I was ravenous and raided my refrigerator like a caveman at a buffet. I practically emptied everything in it.

Last night I had dreams of K all night. And all night the dreams consisted of the sex we had. I remember at one point in the dream I was watching us having sex on my iPhone, as if I had recorded what we had done.

There was also another woman in the dream, but that part was foggy for me.

I should note that since starting 3.1, I rarely remember my dreams. Most nights I close my eyes and then my alarm goes off in the morning.

Today I listened to my loops using the masked tracks. I was totally focused and banged through a lot of really good work meetings. I was really productive.

Some interesting effects of DMSI were also noticed today.

So, for anyone who lives in NYC, there's a lovely small chain of coffee shops called La Colombe. I love their draft latte. I love it so much, I will walk 7 streets and 2 avenues in freezing, slushy, NYC streets to have a cup of coffee from this place.

At least that used to be the case. I went today, delighting in the fact that I was treating myself to this blissful coffee experience, and I took one sip, and realized I had lost my taste for it.

I know some other folks on here reported similar things, but I didn't think it would happen to me also. Alas, it did.

I met up with a few friends this evening for a social gathering at a cigar bar to celebrate one of them closing a very lucrative deal. I don't have many vices, but I do indulge in certain pleasures once every few months, like smoking a cigar. I rarely have drinks also, maybe twice a month at most. And even then, I stick to a maximum of two drinks. All in all, I try to stay disciplined for the most part.

This is partially due to the fact that when I worked in Wall Street, I was what you would call a functioning alcoholic. I drank excessively 6 nights a week and hammered through the day with work. It became excessive because I had built up such a tolerance to it.

Then again, everyone else I knew was the same way. When I left the street, I didn't drink for 2 years, and now I try to maintain a controlled approach to how much I drink and how often.

But, I can still enjoy a beer, a wine, once in a blue moon a scotch with a cigar.

None of that floated today. I didn't enjoy the drink I had, and I didn't enjoy the cigar I smoked.

And that's OK, I actually appreciate that. Because, quite frankly, it's not really beneficial anyway.

I will admit that I was somewhat heart broken about my draft latte though.

Anyway, while at the event I ran into someone who I had seen at some of the other events that I went to with this group of friends. She and I usually just have a short chat and carry on. When I initially got there, she was really friendly and we had a nice, fun conversation. I'm definitely attracted to her.

Anyway, shortly thereafter my friend introduced me to someone else that he wanted me to converse with regarding some business. So I speak to her, and the other woman walks by and offers me something and walks away. For the rest of the night, that other woman became really cold to me.

I was kind of surprised by the switch in her behavior. Anyway, I just focused on my friend for the rest of my time there and celebrated his success.

I've noticed that I have an interesting attitude towards women these days. Similar to what other members have posted, such as 4Kings and Carman.

RTBoss also gave me an idea regarding switching up how I listen to the sub. Tomorrow I'm going to create a new playlist with one masked and one hybrid track and see how that affects me.

I really am enjoying this version of DMSI a lot. I have no idea what it's doing to me, but honestly, it doesn't even matter. The journey with this version is so enjoyable that at this point the destination no longer matters.

Day 21

Currently listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dQtnjuEsoFA

Last 7 days have been interesting with regards to how I perceive time. Even though it's only been 21 days on DMSI, it feels like I have lived through years of life.

I saw Y on Monday and I'm seeing her again tomorrow night for dinner. Things there have been good; we have a comfortable banter between us and I guess I just found my middle ground with her maybe. I don't quite know how to explain it. It's in a good place.

Work stuff has been driving me a little nuts lately. I'm pretty driven and I have a really low tolerance for bullshit, so when it starts to creep into my work life, which it does every now and again, it tends to push me over certain edges. I am trying to find my happy balance there. It's hard.

I also ran into another girl I know today, I'll call her C. I've been blowing her off for a few weeks now, due to just having too much on my plate. I promised her I would definitely have dinner with her next week. I had to promise, because, otherwise I probably would bail on her. I tend to keep commitments if I say I promise. I don't know why I work that way, but I do. I also have another woman that I had been blowing off, I'll call her L, and I promised her I would have dinner with her soon also.

The problem hasn't really been attracting women as of late, it's been more of I have so much work on my plate, that I don't necessarily have time to see a lot of women. When I have had time, I've been spending it with K or Y.

All these initials... pretty soon I'll be spelling out the alphabet in my journal posts.

So, one thing of interest, after 20 days of going through version A, I decided to be the asshole that tries out B.

Truth be told, when I hit play for the 2 loops this morning, I had made up my mind that I was going to update my journal today, and I was honestly expecting this entry to go very differently. I was expecting to say that I had a massively overwhelming feeling from running B and that I wanted to go hide in a corner after my loops were completed, or that I had to bail out half way through.

But that wasn't the case. I wasn't tired, wasn't overwhelmed, instead, I was actually sniping a woman on the train today. First time I feel like the sniper was working for me. She was with someone, and I just felt this intense desire to pin her against the doors of the train and rail her. It was animalistic; the feeling was just primal. And I could tell she was responding to me. Her body language told me. I could feel the sexual energy from her.

While I'm not part of the Century club like 4Kings, I'm probably less than a dime away from joining it. In my years of being sexually active, a few of the nights that stand out in my mind are the ones where I met a stranger in a club or bar, and I would lock eyes with her, and there would be this raw intensity that would flow out from her body. And I would just know. Those nights resulted in some of the most sexually intense encounters I had with women.

The thing is, I haven't felt that intensity in almost a decade. But this morning, it came back to me. I felt it again. I felt the raw energy of sex emanating from that woman's body. I swear I could smell the pungent scent of her soaking wet, from where I was standing.

It was amazing...

I'm going to stay on B for a few more days, maybe a week or two at most and see how I continue to evolve, before switching back to A for another 20 or so, day run.

I'll end my journal entry on a thought that I've had regarding 3.1 compared to 3.0.1.

I love cars. Always have. I love the raw power and rush when taking a car around a twisty track. I was never one for a 10 second straight quarter mile.

That being said, when I was in my late teens, early 20's, I loved the Viper. I loved the look of the Viper. I used to think it was the best looking car. And then one day I drove the Viper, and my love affair drained faster than the gas tank.

The Viper was raw, unfiltered, uncaring, earth shattering, drive you into a wall and melt your balls off power. It was fantastically looney.

I liken 3.0.1 to a Viper. Raw Power that takes no prisoners.

Now that I'm in my 40's, I prefer something much more refined. I think my favorite car these days is an Audi R8 V10. It has a lot of Raw Power, lots of fun to take around a track, and doing an AWD Drift in that car makes me giggle like my 12 year old school boy days when I had the Lamborghini Countache posters decorated on my walls. It's fun, it has plenty of oomph, but it has several other things as well, like a B&O sound system, power windows, ABS. All the things the Viper didn't have.

I can drive an R8 for hours and never feel like I can taste my spine grinding between my teeth as my intestines wrap around my brain like Japanese tentacle porn...

And that's what 3.1 is for me. It's my Audi R8.

I know a lot of people are hitting extreme resistance with 3.1. I don't know why, but I haven't. Maybe I've just been lucky so far, and maybe side B is me tempting fate. I don't know.

But, when I do find out, this community will find out with me.

For everyone that's struggling to see the results with 3.1, or DMSI in general, I'll leave you all with one of my favorite quotes.

"When you find yourself going through hell, keep going..."

I enjoyed your analogy of cars, Duke! Where may there happen to be a racetrack open to the public around NYC, if you happen to know?

(03-25-2017, 12:19 PM)apollolux Wrote: [ -> ]I enjoyed your analogy of cars, Duke! Where may there happen to be a racetrack open to the public around NYC, if you happen to know?

There are a few places, but none in the city itself. Depending on the type of track you're looking for, and the races you want to run, they have a few good ones in Jersey actually.

They also have a few car events around Giants Stadium, including an event every year where you can do a few rounds in a Lamborghini and Ferrari. Most of those are corporate sponsored events, but fun all the same.

The big track for running the exotics would be Monticello Motor Club. It's a private motor club.

If you're looking just to pick up an exotic for a weekend drive, check out Classic Car Club in downtown. CCC also has a few track day events for their members.

Sounds like a day trip to Jersey is in my future, thanks!

Day 26

Currently listening to: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=MR-Xo7PecP4

So, I have been using side B for 6 days now, after a 20 day run of A. There's been a lot of debate on the forum regarding the value of running B. I kind of wanted to shed some of my experiences with B as I have used both versions, and after 6 days on B, I have a good handle on the differences between the two.

To RT's point, I may still have the healing of A happening in the background, so my results with B may be skewed by that fact. Maybe not. Hard to say for sure.

So, I'll start with saying that A and B are completely different monsters (I use the term Monster in reference to their power) all together. A is kind of like King Kong. It's a beast that lives in an island. Everything it does, happens within that island.

What I mean by that is my interactions on A we're very inwardly focused. I felt the changes occurring within me, but I was protected as well. I had a really smooth ride with A. Zero resistance, energy levels were high, I executed the programs objective within 11 days of using it. I was king of my domain.

B is kind of like Godzilla. It's not interested in existing in an island. It's much more outwardly focused. It tramples through the world around you, breathing atomic fire and battles anything standing in its way.

The difference between A and B is, A does a great job of submissing whatever challenges came towards it. I liken that to the auric shielding and all of the other healing and clearing tech. Changes are smooth. No one challenges the king.

B, much like Godzilla, invites challenge, it stomps its way through the world.

However, that being said, and Leonidas has been posting about this, there is this outward pull from the world that B drives you towards.

My point being, even if all the healing and clearing is done on A, i don't think the user would experience the same effects as if they ran B. I think DMSI needs to be used as a combination of both versions, and traded off between both versions.

Because A and B create different experiences with how they execute.

I remember part of the reasons why Maestro created both versions is so you could trade off between the two on a weekly, or monthly basis.

I will say one thing for certain, the reality bending and state shifting is so much more pronounced on B than it is on A. It almost tears you from one reality to another. And, you will absolutely execute the goals with ruthless precision.

How it does this is also interesting. I noticed this on 3.0.1 as well, but not to the level I'm seeing it here. The B version will create opportunities for you to be who you need to be to execute the goals. That means different things for different people.

I think, and merely my opinion, but the healing in A isn't targeted to women only. It is targeted to whatever needs to be healed to get a woman. That means different things to different people. Some of it could be related to money, some of it could be related to old wounds. For Illumi, some of it could be related to his skin, which also has been healing. The factors around what is healed is different.

With B, it throws you into situations where you will do what needs to be done to execute. B is like a special forces training in that respect.

Anyway, I have beaten my point to death. I will close this thought out with saying that I think people should give B a chance and run it. I think everyone should take advantage of both versions and switch between the two. The experiences will be vastly different.

Some of my experiences over the last 6 days. Where do I even begin. I saw Y last Friday night and we ended up spending the entire night out together. It was amazing. My feelings for her have grown significantly. She also opened up to me a lot and shared many personal things that in my 5 years of knowing her, I never knew. We started making plans to go away together for a week somewhere out of the country. We have a few places in Europe that we're planning for.

Then I saw K last night. I saw K a few more times since two weeks ago when we had sex. But last night was the first time I saw her since starting B. She barely spoke to me when I went to her place. Instead she just hugged me and started grinding against me, rubbing her leg against my thigh. She was completely primal. Needless to say we had sex again.

And I met a few new women over the past few days as well, but, it's still too early to tell where things will go with them.

The respect factor is there, work stuff is getting interesting, and it's been a smooth ride in terms of how I am reacting to 3.1. I haven't had resistance headaches or anything like that. I do feel the shift in power though. It's like managed chaos.

It's awesome managed chaos.

Yeah, that sound about right to me. Legit results.

(....)

The last time I saw you mention the type of file you were using, it was hybrid. You said you were going to try 1 hybrid, 1 masked - not sure if you ever got around to that.

What are you using now?

(03-28-2017, 05:49 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]The last time I saw you mention the type of file you were using, it was hybrid. You said you were going to try 1 hybrid, 1 masked - not sure if you ever got around to that.

What are you using now?

That's actually the setup I'm using. I start with the hybrid TS and the second track is the masked TS.

I started that setup with A after your post and continued with B over the last 6 days. I created two playlists on my phone, so in another 14 days or so I'll go back to A using the same mix.

It's definitely made a difference for me. I owe that setup success to you.

(03-28-2017, 06:54 PM)Duke.Togo Wrote: [ -> ]

(03-28-2017, 05:49 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]The last time I saw you mention the type of file you were using, it was hybrid. You said you were going to try 1 hybrid, 1 masked - not sure if you ever got around to that.

What are you using now?

That's actually the setup I'm using. I start with the hybrid TS and the second track is the masked TS.

I started that setup with A after your post and continued with B over the last 6 days. I created two playlists on my phone, so in another 14 days or so I'll go back to A using the same mix.

It's definitely made a difference for me. I owe that setup success to you.

You listen to them both at the same volume?

I do, 5 clicks on my iPhone. I haven't had any problems with the volume yet. I sometimes will increase the volume 1 or 2 clicks, depending on which headset I'm using. Typically on the weekends I use my Sennheiser HD 280 Pro, and during the week I use my in-ear skull candy.

Higher volumes on Sennheiser, about 5 clicks on the Skull Candy.