Subliminal Talk

The last couple of days have been interesting to say the least.

I used to think that something was wrong with me. I just don't like talking to people that much. Then it hit me. I really have a hard time caring about what most people talk about. I don't care about celebrities, the latest greatest tv show, how they did something stupid over the weekend and almost got arrested, etc. I guess there is time and place for it but it get's really boring really fast. It would be nice if people talked about other stuff other than but that won't happen anytime soon. I guess that's society in a nut shell for you.
Right now I'm in a place where I accept it. For some strange reason people have been friendly since then. I guess I don't try too hard to fit in and make them feel comfortable around me. Everybody has also been pointing out how quiet I am. Instead of feeling bad about it I just go "Yeah that's what I do".

Okay other news I just realized how bad my sexual issues are. I just bought DMSI and won't start it. I have so much fear even thinking about it. First time I was ever too scared to run a sub.lol I guess there is a first time for everything.

(10-12-2016, 06:05 PM)Why So Serious? Wrote: [ -> ]The last couple of days have been interesting to say the least.

I used to think that something was wrong with me. I just don't like talking to people that much. Then it hit me. I really have a hard time caring about what most people talk about. I don't care about celebrities, the latest greatest tv show, how they did something stupid over the weekend and almost got arrested, etc. I guess there is time and place for it but it get's really boring really fast. It would be nice if people talked about other stuff other than but that won't happen anytime soon. I guess that's society in a nut shell for you.
Right now I'm in a place where I accept it. For some strange reason people have been friendly since then. I guess I don't try too hard to fit in and make them feel comfortable around me. Everybody has also been pointing out how quiet I am. Instead of feeling bad about it I just go "Yeah that's what I do".

Okay other news I just realized how bad my sexual issues are. I just bought DMSI and won't start it. I have so much fear even thinking about it. First time I was ever too scared to run a sub.lol I guess there is a first time for everything.

Something to keep in mind, sometimes people want to talk about that other stuff too but they don't know how to go about it. The surface level interactions aren't always a good indicator of a person's character. Sometimes hidden in plain view are people more like you than you think, but they're also dealing with that subtle pressure to fit in. If you give them an opening it might present an opportunity to break away from those mundane topics.

(10-12-2016, 06:05 PM)Why So Serious? Wrote: [ -> ]Okay other news I just realized how bad my sexual issues are. I just bought DMSI and won't start it. I have so much fear even thinking about it. First time I was ever too scared to run a sub.lol I guess there is a first time for everything.

The clearing modules will take care of whatever is needed to take care. Other than that, a female DMSI journal would be interesting.

@Matt422
I guess that's something that I need to take into consideration. However some people will go into other subjects without going into small talk for a long period of time. Talking weeks here. They feel like that is their way of getting to know you.

@Mr. Anderson
Well I didn't download 2.4 so I won't be listening to it. I had assumed that when 2.5 was out that I would still have access to 2.4. Now I'm not sure I'll listen to 2.5. I'm pretty sure I will stonewall it.

I started taking a break from E2 Friday night and things have been confusing. I'm back to having no motivation, and the way I process things has slowed down a bit. This started happening around 6 days ago.
I think the confusion started when I decided I was going to listen to 2.4 (not that I can now). Since then I have been feeling bummed out. I still feel bummed out cause I can still try 2.5 even though a whole lot isn't going to come out of it. That made my mood worse typing out that sentence.(Read that sentence again literally seething now) I'm not sure 2.4 would have helped anyway
I'm just confused on what to do continue E2 even though my my thinking has slowed down? It's kind of starting to effect my grades and work.

So much confusion and depression going here. What to do next?

Maybe when Shannon is gets back from his vacation, you can mention this to him. If he can see that you purchased DMSI when 2.4 was still up, then maybe he'll let you get it.

As for E2, I really don't know what to say. For me, I know that running a clearing version of DMSI should directly address the bulk of the rest of my emotional issues. Plus it's newer tech. So my mind's made up. If you think there's some major things to address that DMSI wouldn't, stick with E2. At the same time, I know how much of a pain in the ass it can be when you think slow and processes things at a sluggish speed all day. Do a pros and cons list

(10-16-2016, 07:31 PM)maxx55 Wrote: [ -> ]Maybe when Shannon is gets back from his vacation, you can mention this to him. If he can see that you purchased DMSI when 2.4 was still up, then maybe he'll let you get it.

As for E2, I really don't know what to say. For me, I know that running a clearing version of DMSI should directly address the bulk of the rest of my emotional issues. Plus it's newer tech. So my mind's made up. If you think there's some major things to address that DMSI wouldn't, stick with E2. At the same time, I know how much of a pain in the ass it can be when you think slow and processes things at a sluggish speed all day. Do a pros and cons list

I'm not sure he will. I haven't seen him let anyone get old products. I guess it still can't hurt to ask. Though Im pretty sure I know the answer.
There are somethings I don't think E2 will address but I've been needing a break for awhile now. Need some kind of motivation, and clear thinking right about now.


I feel like I shouldn't care what people think or my job. I park where I want now not worried about getting fired for parking sticker for college. Just tried of caring about stuff that doesn't matter in the end. I can find something else to do for money.
I feel Mad enough to make changes.
Some motivation is starting to come back. Co-worker is really starting to grate nerves. Comes off as fake.

Woke up this morning thinking why am I not sexy nor fun. Like the current situation isn't lining up with what's going on internally. My subconscious and conscious goals are stating align.

I'll go ahead and give 2.5 a go for a week or two since I bought it. I really don't know if I will stonewall it till I try it.

(10-16-2016, 05:54 PM)Why So Serious? Wrote: [ -> ]@Matt422
I guess that's something that I need to take into consideration. However some people will go into other subjects without going into small talk for a long period of time. Talking weeks here. They feel like that is their way of getting to know you.

@Mr. Anderson
Well I didn't download 2.4 so I won't be listening to it. I had assumed that when 2.5 was out that I would still have access to 2.4. Now I'm not sure I'll listen to 2.5. I'm pretty sure I will stonewall it.

I started taking a break from E2 Friday night and things have been confusing. I'm back to having no motivation, and the way I process things has slowed down a bit. This started happening around 6 days ago.
I think the confusion started when I decided I was going to listen to 2.4 (not that I can now). Since then I have been feeling bummed out. I still feel bummed out cause I can still try 2.5 even though a whole lot isn't going to come out of it. That made my mood worse typing out that sentence.(Read that sentence again literally seething now) I'm not sure 2.4 would have helped anyway
I'm just confused on what to do continue E2 even though my my thinking has slowed down? It's kind of starting to effect my grades and work.

So much confusion and depression going here. What to do next?

I can tell that 2.4 was literally helping with motivation to study as well as concentration. 2.5 is pretty much the opposite. Maybe Shannon decides to let you do 2.4, because he would get data from female users (cataleya shown also some interest). But, however, 3.0 will have a version with and without healing inside.

Is that for everyone using it? I'll have to look at some more journals if that's the case then I'll wait for 3.0 and give listenin to subs a break. If I can't get a hold of 2.4.

(10-18-2016, 03:56 AM)Why So Serious? Wrote: [ -> ]Is that for everyone using it? I'll have to look at some more journals if that's the case then I'll wait for 3.0 and give listenin to subs a break. If I can't get a hold of 2.4.

I didn't read all journals, but as far I can tell it is not for everyone the case. You could simply try for a day or two and see what it does for you.

Yeah I think I'll start Thursday night till Sunday night and make a decision from there.

I still feel like E2 is working even though I stopped listening last Thursday. Like I'm still pushing through some issues but I feel like taking some action in my life. Feeling self confident again almost to the point that I feel like my ego is getting out of hand. Then again I never had a whole lot of self confidence and a very strong erge to set boundaries so this may be a normal amount. Finally!

Trying to figure out who to cut from my life. Find new people to hang out with.
Need to find a new way to make money besides a job. Lots of ideas there just need to pick one.
I'll definitely listen again in future. For now break time.

Since stopping E2, I definitely have had the same experience of feeling like it's still working through some stuff. I even briefly considered continuing E2. But I know for sure that it's time for me to move on.

Anyway, hope you enjoy DMSI! I'm starting my run this Saturday. I look forward to reading your DMSI journal. It'll be interesting reading what happens from a woman's perspective.

Aint it strange that we want to E2 again. Lol
I'm still getting my break regardless.

I hope I enjoy it too.

Hahaha funny.. you guys stopped E2 now want to do it again. That could possibly happen to me if I stop it as it has in the past.

Stop a program and start another one then i'm like "ahh I should have stayed with the first program". :Z

Just to clarify, I considered continuing E2 because of how it felt a few days after stopping. I was a wreck Monday. Once I saw that 2.4 would definitely address the bulk of the rest of my issues, I decided to wait out this week and see if I get the "bloom".

As of today, I'm 100% glad I stopped. Over the past couple days I've been getting over more stuff and quickly feel like I'm returning to my more centered and more powerful self. Didn't feel anything like this during E2.