Well I guess from now on this is where I will post my stuff.
I have been Listening to Stop Masturbation Sub for a while..
Here are somethings I have noticed
I dont feel that much of guilt anymore. I will term that as a "Healthy Relapse".
My Streaks Haven't Improved and I tend to relapse more. (Resistance).
I have noticed that I do stuff like Doing laundry and cleaning my bedroom and my bathroom which I never use to do before.
I tend to sleep longer as I listen to ultrasonic on my desktop speakers on night. It makes some static voice but I kinda like it..
Now here is the problem..
I have social anxiety and I fear going outside. I havnt been to college for about a month....How in the world I am gonna overcome this..?
Static noise is not a good sign. The
speaker test must shed better light.
(10-10-2015, 04:29 PM)templecity Wrote: [ -> ]Looks like you are making progress and, if anything, you have a clean bathroom and bedroom
I wish I could clean and throw away all of my clutter.
Well Yeah Did a lot of stuff
Like I repaired my computer
Usually Clean My bathroom and Bedroom.
I do my laundry...
Also I take "True focus" daily its kinda helps me. Motivate to do stuff.
People Usually become addicted to stuff cause they have low Dopamine Level. So this stuff helps me get so little dopamine
Low Dopamine=Low Confidence=Much Likely To get addicted...
I have really High Hopes from Shannon Subs cause if this doesnt work then nothing will..
I read How "Patti" was facing so much problem leaving her smoking habits and I read her journal and every advice Shannon gave to her and I think my case is just like hers.
I have waited like 2 years for this Sub to come out and finally Its helping me out.
Also I am having lot of Dreams in which I am usually Naked and with other girls but usually playing with them or having shower with them. But then something happens in the dreams and in the end I realize that this is some kind of fear. For example in one dream I saw a white smoke and felt its presence as if it was a demon and its presence took over me and I was really frightened.
In another Dream I was sleeping but kinda in lucid state and I saw a BIG RED SPIDER and It shot its web towards me and was coming towards me and I was so afraid that I woke up and shouted OMG!!!..It felt so real.
Last dream I remember was related to DEATH!! and I felt so much fear..
Its all fear..I never realised I had this much Fear inside.
Today I dream't that I was talking face to face with my College Teacher.
Its strange that every time I dream something related to fear...I relapse the same day.
Guess its some kinda pattern..
Also Today I was thinking to stop listening the current Sub and start listening to "Overcome Fear Sub"..
But I don't plan on doing that. I know This is what you guys call resistance.
I still fear going outside and socialise(specially college) due to this I havnt been to college since month.......
Keep listening to this sub, no matter WHAT.
Maybe you need 192 days to get rid of this problem. Nothing wrong with that. Keep pushing. Up the hours as high as you can. Every repetition of the script is helping a great deal. Don't stop no matter what surfaces in your head.
Catman thanks for posting. Idk why but I feel so alone in this Subliminal journey.
This sub is working on a deeper level and every relapse feels different. Idk about the streaks anymore weather it is 3 days or 2 days I just don't care. Before starting the sub I was so obsessed with my streak but its now reduced so much..
So I feel as if all this fear which being shown in my dreams are making me grow up from inside. I feel some kind of healing process taking place inside .
When I used to relapse before listening to sub then I would feel so piss and exhausted. But Now its not like that anymore. I still have some energy but not that much..
Also I know this will sound weird but its as if I feel time has slowed down..Its like I think 2 hours would have passed but only 1 hour would have gone by..So much time..
I enjoy this stuff.
Also when I relapse I have a little hard time playing fantasy in my head or anything.
Which makes fapping a chore and somewhat boring..
I know its to soon to say Shannon should add a script in which it say something like....."I avoid fantasizing " or something like that...
30 Days Down.... Time for another 30
100% sounds like deep change is happening.
I'm very interested in this sub. It sounds like a lot of growth and fear is being purged. Amazing, keep going, up the hours if you can each day.
You are NOT alone. Never forget that.
When I started listening to this sub. Some how my sleep timing was fixed. I used to go to bed by 10-11pm and wake up at 6-7am..
But Now since past 6-7 days I have noticed that my sleep timing has kinda messed up again.
I go to bed at 4 am and wake up at Noon.
Weird thing happened today.
I slept at 4 am and woke up at 11 am.
But I was feeling some urges and thought "Man what should I do about these urges" and then suddenly my DAD came in and asked me to Drop him to work..
I feel this sub is trying to manifest stuff in my life. I have felt this Two times..
Few days ago I was fapping and my gf knocked on the bathroom door and
I completely forgot about fapping and my focus shifted and I wasnt even aware of it. All my horniness went away.
(10-16-2015, 02:02 AM)zainuu163 Wrote: [ -> ]Few days ago I was fapping and my gf knocked on the bathroom door and
I completely forgot about fapping and my focus shifted and I wasnt even aware of it. All my horniness went away.
Out of curiosity, why do you masturbate if you already have a girlfriend? Does she not satisfy the particular sexual urges you have?
(10-16-2015, 09:29 AM)4Kingdoms Wrote: [ -> ] (10-16-2015, 09:17 AM)apollolux Wrote: [ -> ] (10-16-2015, 02:02 AM)zainuu163 Wrote: [ -> ]Few days ago I was fapping and my gf knocked on the bathroom door and
I completely forgot about fapping and my focus shifted and I wasnt even aware of it. All my horniness went away.
Out of curiosity, why do you masturbate if you already have a girlfriend? Does she not satisfy the particular sexual urges you have?
I was wondering the same thing? I was very surprised to learn you have a gf because of the fapping issue!
If it is too sensitive a subject to answer... I apologize for asking.
I relate to this. I do not have a girlfriend at the moment, but in previous relationships, after almost every sleepover, having sex both at night and in the morning, I'd find myself masturbating to porn whenever she'd leave or I'd get back to my place. Although the sex would be very satisfying at points, it's still a different feeling when you give yourself pleasure, either with or without the help of porn. Probably not everyone could understand it, but I guess it's a personality thing.
Good luck on your journey zainuu163! I'm doing NoFap at the moment as well, with AM6 tho.
Why dont I have sex with my gf ?
One Word:
RELIGION
(10-16-2015, 10:26 AM)Blink Wrote: [ -> ] (10-16-2015, 09:29 AM)4Kingdoms Wrote: [ -> ] (10-16-2015, 09:17 AM)apollolux Wrote: [ -> ] (10-16-2015, 02:02 AM)zainuu163 Wrote: [ -> ]Few days ago I was fapping and my gf knocked on the bathroom door and
I completely forgot about fapping and my focus shifted and I wasnt even aware of it. All my horniness went away.
Out of curiosity, why do you masturbate if you already have a girlfriend? Does she not satisfy the particular sexual urges you have?
I was wondering the same thing? I was very surprised to learn you have a gf because of the fapping issue!
If it is too sensitive a subject to answer... I apologize for asking.
I relate to this. I do not have a girlfriend at the moment, but in previous relationships, after almost every sleepover, having sex both at night and in the morning, I'd find myself masturbating to porn whenever she'd leave or I'd get back to my place. Although the sex would be very satisfying at points, it's still a different feeling when you give yourself pleasure, either with or without the help of porn. Probably not everyone could understand it, but I guess it's a personality thing.
Good luck on your journey zainuu163! I'm doing NoFap at the moment as well, with AM6 tho.
You can say that we did everything but sex..So I know few stuff.
Also when I found out about AM 6 on IML. I also wanted to give it a shot cause I read so many users saying that they had lost interest in Porn.
But very few mentioned about masturbation. I read only One post saying that after using AM 6 he went 3 months without fapping..