Stage 1 Day 32
Time to wrap up stage 1
It took a good few days to feel any effects, but I did start to have feelings of being a bit of a playboy in my heart and acting open and warm to women I encountered. I showed genuine warmth and interest in my encounters (this wasn't forced but came naturally) and this was reciprocated by them being more open with me. Women take note of me and seem pleased when I'm around. It was also encouraging to be hit with some dating requests on POF and Match and be voted hot on hotornot. Although the women were not attractive to me it's encouraging to see some external
happenings. These were the first requests and hot vote since I joined these online sites nearly 2 years ago so it is significant. The fact they were
not lookers was a bit of a downer but I expect the quality of women will improve as I progress. This last 10 days or so has given me sexy dreams
and dreams about women in general. The overal theme is that I'm controlling them and their lives, what I say they have to do.. Weird! I've never had dreams like this in my whole life until I started WM so it's worth noting.
I think some resistance kicked in later when I had the "want to hide away" feelings and some depression generally. This period also saw me start my new job and for some reason, even though I was punching the air with happiness that I was leaving my old job, once I started the new job, I became very melancholy and had a feeling of bereavement about it all. I still don't feel so good about it but much better than before.
I do miss my favourite lady on reception but that's not the only issue as such (and just for those who think I've got oneitis over her...I also have a picture on my desktop of a woman who I met up there and who really turns me on just looking at her, but she is unfortunately taken as well.)
The problem is that I've gone from a large environment working amongst hundreds of people with a fair few hot women, to a small office and hardly any women, so I don't have much opportunity unlike my previous job. The women in the new job seem to appreciate me and like seeing me (big smiles, welcoming looks!) but they are not my types and are taken anyway. There is also a chronic shortage of single women outside of work and the online dating sites just have older unattractive ones all the time.
I remember this being a serious worry for me in the early stages of AM since I had planned even back then to do WM. So now I'm hit with that concern again and feeling I jumped ship too soon. I do wish I stayed longer to see out WM then do another AM>WM round. Another 18 months would have been quite doable but I was tempted by the money and extra time aspect but perhaps that doesn't outweigh the bigger cost of having a Woman Magnet sub attracting beautiful single woman where there aren't any beautiful single women
I know the sub 'manifests' women but right now manifesting beautiful single women seems an impossibility. Perhaps it's resistance making me feel hopeless.
This sub has really got it's work cut out!!!!!