Subliminal Talk

(09-20-2016, 12:12 AM)Ivaylo Wrote: [ -> ]In other news, the presidential campaign I'm helping with is going quite well. My candidate went from being viewed as a slight-to-moderate underdog to being likely the second in the polls. On a hypothetical ballotage, which actually seems quite inevitable, a lot of the people who have voted for other candidates will vote for my guy as well. Still 6 weeks away from election day, I'd say things are getting interesting.

I'm seriously considering making an effort to put him on DMSI for the final debates, just for the respect hits. Not sure how that might play out overall, though.

Hi Ivaylo,

Are you helping with Donald Trump's campaign? I am not judging you either way politically, by the way, I am just curious since I always wanted to know the thinking behind the scenes, for he is an unconventional candidate to say the least. It is pretty great that you managed to get work at such a high level.

I deduced this since you said "guy", or did you mean you are helping with a candidate for senator/representative for this election?

Thanks.

(09-20-2016, 12:21 AM)Lowe Wrote: [ -> ]Hi Ivaylo,

Are you helping with Donald Trump's campaign? I am not judging you either way politically, by the way, I am just curious since I always wanted to know the thinking behind the scenes, for he is an unconventional candidate to say the least. It is pretty great that you managed to get to work on such a high level.

I deduced this since you said "guy", or did you mean you are helping with a candidate for senator/representative for this election?

Thanks.

Hi Lowe,

No, it's not Trump. I'm Bulgarian and we're preparing for elections too.

Though I do think Trump is doing a great job as a candidate. As far as the behind the scenes thinking for Donald Trump's campaign, I think Scott Adams' blog is a great resource. (although he's not part of the campaign in any way)

I realized I haven't said anything about the actual healing aspects of E2 for about a month now. I actually gave up on trying to follow my progress consciously. Either the naturalizer is so strong or I'm just changing way too fast to be able to follow anything. (possibly both)

What I can say is that I'm actually taking a step back from the entrepreneurial path for now. Obviously I'll still try and build up my copywriting business, but this is going to be supplemental to the other stuff I'm doing... at least until November and DMSI. Maybe even after that - no way to tell as of yet.


I'm still honing my skills though - the presidential campaign is making me fired up and I'm learning at high speed how to do this sort of thing... since some of the rules of the game are definitely different from the ones in marketing.

My "boss", the guy who's actually in charge of the presidential campaign, turned out to also be a freelancing sales copywriter as well. My first impression is that he oozes copywriting skill from every pore. I'm getting the feeling I'm going to connect a lot of dots in the coming weeks and months.


Anyway, on the purely healing front, I find I'm being drawn to Dr. David Hawkins' material. I think I've listened to about 15 hours of interviews of him and I'm just getting started.


EDIT: On the plus side, now I seem to be more tired physically, rather than mentally. On BASE it was often the other way around.

I feel almost zero motivation to write. But I will say this, I'm extremely grateful for E2. I'm making my way into politics and I'm facing loads and loads of negativity. (or at least I can still find reasons to be negative)

The situation is... well... "disgusting" wouldn't be too strong of a word. Yet that's only true when I don't get to have enough exposure to E2. This sub just keeps me in check in a blissful state of love.

(10-02-2016, 04:53 AM)Ivaylo Wrote: [ -> ]I feel almost zero motivation to write. But I will say this, I'm extremely grateful for E2. I'm making my way into politics and I'm facing loads and loads of negativity. (or at least I can still find reasons to be negative)

The situation is... well... "disgusting" wouldn't be too strong of a word. Yet that's only true when I don't get to have enough exposure to E2. This sub just keeps me in check in a blissful state of love.

I distinctly recall the drop in motivation while using E2. The healing was deep and lasting, but that blissful state was almost holding me back. At the very end of my run I had to say goodbye to the zen-like state of being. Us ambitious folk need to keep pumping and evolving, after all.

Don't get me wrong, though. I don't regret my E2 run whatsoever. It helped me clear out so much crap it's ridiculous. But from what Shannon has stated, that deep state of contentedness and serenity which creates the lack of motivation to be productive was done on purpose. I think of it like being in bed to get over illness; you're not likely to get anything done while recuperating, but that's sort of the point.

Glad to hear you're experiencing some deep change on it, though.

(10-02-2016, 01:20 PM)heavysm Wrote: [ -> ]

(10-02-2016, 04:53 AM)Ivaylo Wrote: [ -> ]I feel almost zero motivation to write. But I will say this, I'm extremely grateful for E2. I'm making my way into politics and I'm facing loads and loads of negativity. (or at least I can still find reasons to be negative)

The situation is... well... "disgusting" wouldn't be too strong of a word. Yet that's only true when I don't get to have enough exposure to E2. This sub just keeps me in check in a blissful state of love.

I distinctly recall the drop in motivation while using E2. The healing was deep and lasting, but that blissful state was almost holding me back. At the very end of my run I had to say goodbye to the zen-like state of being. Us ambitious folk need to keep pumping and evolving, after all.

Don't get me wrong, though. I don't regret my E2 run whatsoever. It helped me clear out so much crap it's ridiculous. But from what Shannon has stated, that deep state of contentedness and serenity which creates the lack of motivation to be productive was done on purpose. I think of it like being in bed to get over illness; you're not likely to get anything done while recuperating, but that's sort of the point.

Glad to hear you're experiencing some deep change on it, though.

Thanks! That's very close to what I'm experiencing too. I tried to battle this, but well... it's just stronger than me. Not really stronger, I could have just resisted E2, but there would be no point in running it then.

Actually, the decline in productivity I can handle... I've never been *that* productive anyway, but the emotional vulnerability is taking away my edge in contract negotiations too. Empathy can be good for customer relations, but not when taken to this extreme, lol.

I've been thinking about running either DMSI or BASE stage 7 soon (not much else to consider). BASE is the obvious choice, but I have a feeling DMSI can open some doors business-wise. My BASE programming feels to be solid, so I'm not sure what stage 7 can contribute apart from some temporary productivity boost and aura change.

At least until my candidate's presidential campaign is over in 5-6 weeks, I'm staying on E2 though. The idealistic drive to help make him my president actually resonates with E2's love flooding quite well, lol. Not to mention how much I'm enjoying the healing.


By the way, I forgot to thank you (I think) for bringing Eben's Self Made Wealth to my attention in your journal. Generally he's way too wordy for my taste, but I found an acquaintance has gone through the complete course and took some notes... they were just what the doctor ordered in terms of money mindset. Thanks!

I'm sticking to non-alcoholic drinks from now on, at least while I'm on E2. I very rarely have an alcoholic drink, but tonight I had some and... well, it was useless. I was actually just as social without alcohol and I also enjoyed faster thinking, better posture and speech, etc. Another testament to E2, I would think.

I think I'm starting to understand Nox' decision to leave the forum. OR at the very least I'm having the same temptation. Inner peace trumps everything else I may want. Can't help but wonder what would this forum look like if Shannon was using E2 to develop the skeleton script for 5.5/6G instead of DMSI.

Anyway, I'm fine, I'm happy and well... I'm looking forward to this forum reverting back to being focused on personal development as other advanced subs finally start coming out.

Since I already began the political theme in my journal, I'm just going to update it one more time.

So, most polls put the presidential candidate I'm working for outside of the inevitable ballotage. The funny thing is, the two candidates which right now seem a lot more likely to end up in this ballotage are, incidentally, the two most hated candidates overall. Nope, not talking about American elections at all here, this is happening in Bulgaria.

Even more ironic is that our internal polls suggest that while it would be close to a miracle if my candidate ends up in the ballotage... if he does, he will likely win by a landslide, regardless of who the other candidate is. If that's not an indicator of a broken system, I don't know what is.

So... this I just have to write.

On Thursday I returned from a three day trip to Brussels. It was a trip, scheduled by the political party I'm a member of so I was among people of similar persuasion and values. Expected it to be safe, nice and nothing too outside of my comfort zone... boy, was I wrong.

First challenge - blood loss
A few days before takeoff. I get a medical problem - the same one I mention in my testimonial for MHS 5G in the subforum. First time I get this problem for the last two years and this time it was worse than ever.

Even MHS took its sweet time to work. Up until takeoff I wasn't sure I want to take that flight, but I did anyway.

Second challenge - Lack of sleep
One of my biggest fears is to not be able to count on my mind. Not being able to sleep scares the shit out of me and just the night before takeoff I was lying in bed, unable to fall asleep. I was so full of fear I was seriously contemplating not going to Brussels just because of this (and the fact that I usually have trouble falling asleep in a new place).

Meditated a bit, was able to have three hours of sleep and went anyway.

Third challenge - snoring roommate
To add to the lack of sleep, I had a massively snoring roommate on this trip. I was ready to lose my mind as I pondered the idea I won't get much sleep again. Pushed through it somehow and got a massive 6 hours of sleep amidst all the snoring. Got 4 hours of sleep on the second night.

Fourth challenge - blast from the past
Met an ISFJ girl on the trip, who reminded me a lot of my first (and up to now the only exclusive long-term) girlfriend. I was with my first girlfriend for two years and without going into details we got separated for reasons beyond our control, which was quite painful for me at the time.

Now here's this pretty (and smart) 21-year-old girl, showing me IOIs, butt displays, solid eye contact and smiling all the way. Pushed through a lot of self-hate and feeling sorry for myself (things that were brought up from my past) and made my interest clear in several ways without escalating overtly. We were always with the group, she was an ISFJ anyway so I decided to just keep the sexual and romantic tension in check until we land back in Sofia.

A few hours ago I asked her out for coffee and she was "busy this whole next week". Full stop.



So... I don't think I'm afraid of a lot of stuff in my life, but this trip brought out a lot of crap. Some of my biggest fears were challenged and I went through each one with a deeper sense of inner peace (even if my superficial mind was sometimes freaking the fuck out for a short while).

If I wanted to set up this trip for maximum emotional growth, I can't imagine a much better movie script than this one.

By the way, I forgot my headphones at home so I didn't listen to E2 at all during the trip. I'm in disbelief at the ease, with which I've handled all that.

(11-19-2016, 08:48 AM)Ivaylo Wrote: [ -> ]Fourth challenge - blast from the past
Met an ISFJ girl on the trip, who reminded me a lot of my first (and up to now the only exclusive long-term) girlfriend. I was with my first girlfriend for two years and without going into details we got separated for reasons beyond our control, which was quite painful for me at the time.

Now here's this pretty (and smart) 21-year-old girl, showing me IOIs, butt displays, solid eye contact and smiling all the way. Pushed through a lot of self-hate and feeling sorry for myself (things that were brought up from my past) and made my interest clear in several ways without escalating overtly. We were always with the group, she was an ISFJ anyway so I decided to just keep the sexual and romantic tension in check until we land back in Sofia.

A few hours ago I asked her out for coffee and she was "busy this whole next week". Full stop.

This reminds me of a girl in one of my college classes getting super close to one my friends. She was pretty aggressive with the whole thing, setting up study dates and meals etc, and basically shocking the hell out of him because he couldn't believe she was interested in him.

Turns out though, that she was just incredibly social and had a bit of a problem of leading guys on.

My friend told me at the end of their study date she mentioned her 'boyfriend' a few times and it just CRUSHED him because he's pretty shy and legitimately thought she was interested in him. LOL

Even though he eventually took it well (the shock lingered for a while) it still made me laugh to no end because of how bewildered he was with the whole thing.

Apparently, she wasn't all that interested in what he had to say and kept up 90% of the conversion.

I told my friend, "Surely that was a sign from the start that she wasn't interested? I mean, it just sounds like she wanted someone to talk to...someone to vent her shit to."

Dude didn't respond

(11-19-2016, 10:54 AM)heavysm Wrote: [ -> ]

(11-19-2016, 08:48 AM)Ivaylo Wrote: [ -> ]Fourth challenge - blast from the past
Met an ISFJ girl on the trip, who reminded me a lot of my first (and up to now the only exclusive long-term) girlfriend. I was with my first girlfriend for two years and without going into details we got separated for reasons beyond our control, which was quite painful for me at the time.

Now here's this pretty (and smart) 21-year-old girl, showing me IOIs, butt displays, solid eye contact and smiling all the way. Pushed through a lot of self-hate and feeling sorry for myself (things that were brought up from my past) and made my interest clear in several ways without escalating overtly. We were always with the group, she was an ISFJ anyway so I decided to just keep the sexual and romantic tension in check until we land back in Sofia.

A few hours ago I asked her out for coffee and she was "busy this whole next week". Full stop.

This reminds me of a girl in one of my college classes getting super close to one my friends. She was pretty aggressive with the whole thing, setting up study dates and meals etc, and basically shocking the hell out of him because he couldn't believe she was interested in him.

Turns out though, that she was just incredibly social and had a bit of a problem of leading guys on.

My friend told me at the end of their study date she mentioned her 'boyfriend' a few times and it just CRUSHED him because he's pretty shy and legitimately thought she was interested in him. LOL

Even though he eventually took it well (the shock lingered for a while) it still made me laugh to no end because of how bewildered he was with the whole thing.

Apparently, she wasn't all that interested in what he had to say and kept up 90% of the conversion.

I told my friend, "Surely that was a sign from the start that she wasn't interested? I mean, it just sounds like she wanted someone to talk to...someone to vent her shit to."

Dude didn't respond

In my case I was the more talkative one, she was the shy listener who still had at least 4-5 friends in the group she could talk to if she wanted to. Two males included. She still may have used me for attention though, in which case I helped her out by not being aggressive.

Now that I come to think of it, my roommate was also a dead ringer for a very good friend of mine from the same time period - both in terms of looks and character traits. Felt like being in an alternate reality the whole time I was in Brussels.

As far as I'm concerned, this whole trip was another E2 manifestation that just needed to happen.

I've found that sometimes I have to let myself be played if I'm to break through a glass ceiling in my growth. Otherwise I'm too stubborn to admit my faulty beliefs. Not the first time I do it, but this time was definitely easier on me than before. Maybe at some point I'll actually learn to do it in advance and skip that extra step.

(11-19-2016, 11:23 AM)Ivaylo Wrote: [ -> ]I've found that sometimes I have to let myself be played if I'm to break through a glass ceiling in my growth. Otherwise I'm too stubborn to admit my faulty beliefs. Not the first time I do it, but this time was definitely easier on me than before. Maybe at some point I'll actually learn to do it in advance and skip that extra step.

This has been on my mind for a while...enduring BS in order to burst through to the next level. Like going through the dark tunnel to experience the light at the end; sometimes the confusion and frustration of our experiences (in this case, dealing with pain) might be needed in order to ascend.

I'm pretty sure I'll have one minor relationship next before i hit the one that has the potential to endure long term. I still have a lot of things to fix about myself, and those weaknesses are just reflected back in any intimate relations i have, so there's still a lot of work to do. There's always a lot of work to do Lol

So... after 3.5 months of E2 I think I'm ready to step it up a notch with DMSI 3.0

Actually, maybe I'm not, E2 is probably far from done and it's likely that I'll jump in on E3 the first chance I get, but until then it's time for some well-deserved fun.

That girl that reminded me of my first girlfriend hasn't come around as expected, but my awareness has expanded. Whatever needed to happen healing-wise... well, it feels like it happened. Last few days have been pretty great in terms of motivation and drive. I almost don't want to stop E2 out of superstition... which in my experience means that I should do exactly that.

Some issues with my PayPal account though, talk about timing. Expect to have them resolved by Friday. Let's see if DMSI is still available at this price by then. Time for a new journal.