Subliminal Talk

Stage 4 Day 4

i dont know what to write guys.....
its like i just dont care about girls anymore .... but at the same time i do ....
so .... wtf?

and next is that i want to fix my back more then anything else now...
i want to workout and exercise ... i can because of it .
but i really really want to run maximum healing speed ... and just quit sm3 lol.
but hell no cause im on stage 4 already ...

working seems to be my #1 most wanting atm...weird how it took place of girls

girls interests hmmmm seems to be quit the same.... heres few things that might interest u guys

i was at a frat party last week. i just went there at 1am which is too late lol i was doing homework.
got there was slowing down.... so i went in walked around and left....

Before i arrive this girl walked up to me as me what address she needs to tell the cab guy cause she wants to go home. i told her go look at that rock theres a address there.
her: but....
me: alright ill show

i showed her she said thanks i left....
ok hindsight view.... dont we all say i shoulda fucked her???? i dont know...
as i recall she seemed a little drunk...probly horny too and was alone ..

Next as im walking home right after i left the fart house.
this asian chick came from behind me . and locks her arm around me neck.
and said hey were u just at the frat house
me: yes
she is defly drunk and horny....
her friend dragged her away lol.... before i could even make a move.
first i hesitated cause it happened so quick before i can even put my arm around her ... her friend too her...

as of other social events. in my dancing class ... girls just seems more open in general its been like this since the first class and yah.......

sm3 is a very very very tiring sub =_= holy shit ..... even though its my second sub ever ...
i can only compare it to am5.... but man its tiring as hell

EDIT: i am having dreams probly every single night ... maybe like few nights i dont remember what they were...
dreams can range from anything ..... ANYTHING !....

wtf is a "fart house"? lmao

frat . typo
as in fraternity

what the fuck

had a dream ...

this girl , that i liked just like 3 months ago.... still in my school , still see her around .

Well had a dream that she was in my town house from when i was younger in like preschool.

we were in my computer room. she looked mad...
i asked hey why r u so mad today?

i dont remember what happened in between was saying something...

then i remember her says : Because ur not sexual enough .

i woke up feeling some thing in my chest .... a weird pulling feeling ...
and i said to myself ... what the fuck did she just say that to me ?
and that was the reason she was mad? wow...da fuck?
i remember when i made a move on her.... there was a lot of resistance . i stayed too long in the Friend radar.

Ok i know i know my journal is getting boring....
so ima just add a few things that might interests some of u guys that would wanna run sm3 in the future. i didnt type them out because its really normal to me .
here r lists of things that might interests u

- Cashiers flirt with me , without me doing anything.
- Girls that i "know" will openly make face gestures at me.
- Most girls seem to be very open to me , therefore its easy for me to open them up
- no girls like walk up to me randomly and start a conversation ...yet
- girls that i talk to once would asks me name afterwards randomly.
- girls would randomly blush when i am close up to them..
- girls i approach always seems to react pretty positive (only done like 5 ... in the last month ..hard to say)
- Seems to be more in the flow now in terms of seduction, but i dont feel like the seduction is going anywhere.... probly due to my lack of experience further on.
- is incredibly energy draining ... dont recommend running this when u are taking 5 courses in university.
- one thing is try to not masturbate as much as possible during this sub... otherwise u might end up like a zombie.... because if u keep masturbating your gonna use so much energy to generate back that energy while still trying to change ur other beliefs. at most once or twice a week thats what im doing.
- girls that i never talk to , i sat down next to her she moved away from me like i was something to be scared of haha, then later .. i generated sexual energy without wanting to.... man shes was getting uncomfortable and closed up her body language (one case).
- weird how today i talk so dam fast... with the 3 approach i did on my way home. i never talk fast...
- girls that know me will sometimes open me... (dont they all? lol) but its a little difference cause there is still tension .. its not like im their good friend kinda thing
- oh wait i lied... the only time a random girl came up to me was that frat house night... (1-2 case if u count the cab one ) .( zero daytime still )
- i dont see myself going sexual with any girl at all yet... VERY WEIRD, currently almost super indifference...almost beyond indifference .. hopefully this will balance out more in stage 5,6. cause im not feeling any aggressiveness at all... i think this is due to neediness killed and now im on the extreme end of the spectrum therefore maybe ill balance back to middle soon...
- i seem to not look at girls as much as i do any more, seem to be able to ping point whos interested or not ... not sure about this one yet... need more references ..
- i think i mentioned this before... not very aggressive at the moment... also feels like my instincts became all time in tune... not sure how... but im guessing its because i am being what i am...
- seems to not care that much about girls... do see them initiate conversation a little more... but it isnt going anywhere... cause havnt really come across one i liked...actually i did...but they werent really as open as the other girls..

cant think of anything else atm....

interesting that you still masturbate .... i stopped masturbating at the half of stage 3 ....have no need for this now... i now started to think like a girl (only sex with feelings counts...)

Hey man, why don't you take a PUA bootcamp instead? That will definitely skyrocket your results. Plus u will kno where you are going, like which skillsets u need to work on etc.

pua bootcamp 2000 dollar for nothing... thank you but all game is inner game... and one day you wont need any game..... pua is great dont understand me wrong but without the right mindset it wont help you...

and paying that much money for a guy telling me to use a sentence like " mouthwasch before or after teeth brushing" (mystery) as an opener...is crazy...

Stage 4 day 11


Rave Party!!! (Finally a little something that can help judge SM3 more properly , first night venue in a month or two...)

Hi guys

First of all i am alittle wooof atm . And i just wanna say You guys are really interesting people , all one of a kind . i enjoy reading all your journals and posts you guys all seemed one of a kind. Feel free to ask me any questions or my progress, i always admire people that dont get defeated by multiple failures. keep up the good work guys

Ok......

Heres gist of what happen .

Got there ... 2000 people.
I have bad experience in clubs....
and this is just like a extra extra extra large club format....

I was like dam..... what now ...

Heres funny thing ....
i had a one hour battle with wanting to pick up chicks (i swear most hot chicks gathered in one place ei have ever seen ) , and just wanting to have fun

I choose to just have fun..

The music my gosh was like the fuckin best EVER ..... holy shit crazy good

so i was dancing really into the music ....

This should stood out to you guys

I ALWAYS had a big room of circle around me .... like no one dares to be in my dancing space...
and guys i am like 170cm and really small guys . People there were huge ....
Not to mentioned it was like fuckin crowded like a super pack club kinda crowded...
but somehow i just ALWAYS have so much space around me to dance whatever the way i want. people just give me space ....

But i Always always end up having no one in my proximity .... cause i was taking up so much space in my dancing lol..... its like Alpha energy....says this is my territory ... its like when a breakdancers goes in the middle and everyone backs off and surround him.... I was kinda in the middle .... but no one was like all looking at me ... but i had open space in front back side ... and everywhere else is crowded as fuck lol..

funny thing i just danced and enjoyed the fuckin best music all night .....
Girls seemed to appear around me .... and then away from me after a while
one point i just took a look around... i was dancing with like 6 chicks around me ....
none of them were touching me though .... but its very fuckin random i didnt notice until i looked around ... i was surrounded =_=..... I was so into my dancing i didnt give a fuck about girls anymore.... dancing was more fun then girls LOL (for the first time in history )

I still cant get over the fact.... Dancing was more fun then girls .... these girls were any type of girls u can think of , Sexy , hot , cute, gorgeous , beauty , badass , stunner, shyish .
and lists goes on ... i mean 2000 party girls ? come on . But Woah i didnt give a shit about getting laid tonite

Talk about internal struggles in the first hours , i wasnt really enjoying it ... cause i brought my shitty club vibe over ... as in " man this is gonna be one of those nights just like a in a club"
then i asked myself many questions ....
I did see Few girls interested here and there....but i was afraid to go for it......
i kept asking why ....

figured out base root of my fear is fear of success .... I have girls openly want to fuck me ... but i never take it ... my excuse is they are always not attractive enough. what the fuck was i excepting an instant bonder? .
But i realized sex is just sex.... i should just let it go ... and fuck a girl.... She doesnt have to be a 10/10 Victoria secret model... or some 8-9.5 stunner...

Back to story.... ok just gonna put some highlights i swear i went on ranting too much up top

1. I knew exactly to know how to play the game ... WTF? its like all of a sudden i understand the eye contact game woman was playing with u on the dancefloor ....

There was this girl behind me .... i was dancing . i move in circles so i spin sometimes and see whos behind me i had a glance . then i spin back again while dancing and look straight at her . i have so little shame guilt and fear these days its incredible ... straight at her while still enjoying my dancing . somehow i knew its on ... so i then had my back facing forward lol
This girl literally slaps her hand onto my shoulder blade area as if im her friend . she let it go real quick, so i turned backwards her and two of her friends were there... i was confused as fuck.
one of her friend is cute the rest meh...
still didnt give a shit .... kept on dancing ... its funny she then tries to get closer to me ... from behind me. then she was grinding with her friend then backs into me then her ass touched mine few times then she leans backwards onto me .... lol any retarded would know its on ....

i turned back ... looked at her smile . then went back dancing HAHAHAHA. i think she slapped my elbow and left .

one girl literally walked pass my and slide her and from my right shoulder blade to my back and up my left shoulder blade ....and presses her chest on me... this was very very beginning of the night i was just warming up plus she didnt look too much of a stand out.

Gotta mention .... even in such a incredible high energy environment ... girls seem to be afraid of me ... they dont know what to make of me ... They wonder that im such a small asian guy.... but my posture was so alpha.... and how people just give me so much space.... and how i can dance SO freely without zero emotional bandage on what anyone thinks of it .

Two retards tries to bring me down but telling me to not dance around him.... clearly im having too much fun .

i had infinite amount of energy... wow i have trained myself quite well on this area now . i was able to constantly draw energy up into me .... and it became everlasting .

so for the next.... 3 hours i was running on energy 100%.... Girls just come in and out of my proximity . they randomly appear in front of me .. always in a group though ... or sometimes as twos ....

So when they are in my proximity i make deep sexual and sensual eye contacts and imagine enjoying the lips to any girls that catches my gaze as im moving around.
Few girls caught it here and there over the night . then they would look back multiple times.
then these are all the events that happened we play the stare game... hahaha . im constantly moving around, turning my body to different directions so ...random i would be in her direction and if i caught her look i would stare at her .. until she looks away...
Do this a few times get them going and anticipated

Weird thing is when i go up and put my arms around , They fuckin like dont move...or do anything
.....now that i think about it ..now maybe they are just too high and reactions time too slow and is paralyse by teh fact i just her up to her LOL.... jokes aside
i dont understand they just stood there and doesnt move when i wrap my arms around her waists .
and then her friend would like take her away . then i just went straight into dancing ultra high mode again hahaa.

Then this VERY pretty girl like 8.5 pretty ( my 8,5 is like girls you would wish for, not some retard 8.5 rating ) . small skinny figure has a boyfriend LOL. i swear to god i dont know how he didnt notice. i thought she was just girls night out at first ... cause she was one of the 7 girls infront of me....we made eye contact once or twice here then She took this guys shades and puts them on and looks at my direction i stare into the shades and smile at her. She quickly turns back gives shade back to the guy. Then says few things to her girlfriends....
then she turns around came up to me : What your name?
me : XXXXXXXXXX
her: oh im XXXX nice to meet you

i was gonna say something to her .... ends up becoming a hug lol.
right after the hug.
i slide my hand down her cheek part that is close to her lips . all the way down to her chin. then i slowly went in for the kiss and she turned it slightly to the left a tiny bit . so i kissed exactly where the lip ended... Then she went back to her boyfriend ... and her female friend literally drops a "loud NO" bomb on me ....

and then holy shit 1am came so dam fast....music was amazing...
oh btw Shannon .... that meant it worked... i just got approached by a 8.5 ... at a party where there are tons of other alphas. that are super tone with muscles and tattoos .
Although i was having so much fun its contagious to people around me ... they were probly wondering where the fuck does this kid get so much energy and its constant for 3-4 hours .
the past time i went out was in stage 1-2 i wasnt having any fun.... thats why i couldnt get out of my head space...

my biggest issue is fear of success the fact that i already have way more girls offering me thing ... then any average guy. Makes me realize i gotta take whats giving to me man.... i just cant keep on going for those stunner that always on the fence and its like a tug war....

but at the sametime i understood and realized many many things about myself and who i am....
its like i unlocked a box inside me that i have long been wanting to open ...
After all i know this quote for a long time but to live it is sooo hard ..... i just realized its not about the girl..... its what you are ... you will attract what type of girl into your life.

I have literally super open , just having fun, zero neediness , didnt give a shit about anyone else guys or girls enjoy my music so well.... girls want to be part of it ... thats all there is ...
then u just kinda let them know that you know that they are interested and then you play the tease game lol...

Haha, Fluff it took a bit of deciphering but here's what I got from your post: you danced a lot, you didn't give a sh!t about rejection, you had alpha energy, and you had fun. Good stuff man.

Sounds like my night..

Keep up the bad work

K-train:
yah thats pretty much it ...one thing is i dont think they were rejections ... its just the fact i wasnt aggressive enough. i just went up and wrap my arms around their waists and except something to happen... nothing really did they stood there i kinda just backed off...
thats where i fucked it up....

Geodude:
haha thanks , i think urs were a little better cause u actually was dancing with the girls around you.
the girls around me was like random.... and i didnt even know wtf was going on.. its just liek a big crowd of girls somehow around me ... Then they leave and then like a new crowd just appears again =_= .... and then i get all the free space again... then it fills up again =_=


Stage 4 day 14

Ok i think .... this is what happened . Does external factors help manifestation happen? Cause i swear after the rave party was on Sunday. I stayed home Monday. so didnt see anyone.
Then Tuesday which is today i just went to class.... and went to my music lesson. and all these happened.

I was really happy at the fact i was approached by such a pretty girl man she was really pretty...
and was able to kiss her within a minute. too bad not really on the lips just kinda the side.
And the amount of attention i had .... from girls that night ... Was lets the most i ever had in a night. So i never had a girl that up high in the scale of looks approach me that forward....
i mean i had one .. at the frat shes meh.. and another one that was direct... and then the chubby girl who was like direct as hell... then this girl ... pretty to the point i didnt believe it happened.. obvious this thought came the next day when i have better sense.... it was like almost the perfect type of girl i would like... =_= . Not one of those super hot type of girl. Was one of those really pretty face and skinny figure and cute and smaller type of girl.

Anyways.... So Today i didnt feel like im on cloud 9 or anything ... i was just on my way to class...

In class this girl that i have mentioned in my previous journals ... i was just sitting directly behind ...her . I was just enjoying her pony tail... cause i like that hair style =_= ..
She turns to peak at my like 6 times plus . had to say that peaking skill was the worst i have ever seen... way to obvious lol. WAY too obvious...

then i was just walking ... took one look at this girl passing me... she smiled at me..

Then i was walking to music class.. this other girl smiled at me again.. when i just took one look at her when i gotten closer to her...

this other girl that i looked at ... for a while , while shes cross the street. then right before we cross each other she peak at me with the speed of lighting lol . i was like dam thats fast ....

then i was going to a bus stop... i was just standing there... looking . then i just happen to look at this woman . She smiled twice at me . i was like what the fuck is going on today..

then i went to a movie theatre ... this girl looked at me like theres stars in her eyes... like the we r in love kinda look.... i do notice that i am very loving towards girls.... i feel a lot of love... when i look at girls... thats kinda like my nature... maybe thats why .. After the neediness is gone ... i think my seduction is base on love .... kinda still discovering this but ... i never really heard anyone ...really talk about seduction base on love =_= so ... i really dont know at the moment . i have always been like this.... but before there was too much desperateness included with love... so maybe thats why its not attractive at all...

i wasnt like feeling extra sexy.. or have a big ass smile on my face or ... doing anything other then carrying a guitar on my back... thats it.
i had a face expression of neutral , not smiling or frowning or anything just a normal relaxed face...

Anyways one thing is i wonder if i will become more aggressive later in the stages....

Yeah, I had the "girls suddenly appearing all around me" thing happen as well - at some point during the night I'm like "f-ck it, I like this song" and I focus only on that and on dancing and enjoing it, and then voilà!
three different groups of girls casually end up dancing around me.

They keep the distance tho, and I don't know how to proceed.

For me the issue is not how to get close to them, or really close to them, but it's how do I go for the last 10%? How do I take the last step?

I feel icky at the idea of just grabbing her like all the other guys do. Ugh.

There must be a way to make it "official" between you and her without being gross about it.

Hey LL, the whole idea that you want something to be "official" with a woman who's dancing near you and that touching a woman who's dancing near you and appears to be receptive is "gross" reveals some issues you might want to look at.

If you dance closer, and she moves away, it's not on. If you dance a bit closer, and she does something to respond a bit, it might be on.