Subliminal Talk

(08-23-2021, 06:58 AM)Kol Wrote: [ -> ]I start to see im in this fixing mentality. Fixing all, never good enough, perfectionism.
Dont forget to live. How much stems from insecurity?

 Kol....man you're killing it with OFv3. unraveling,peeling back and off da layers of stuff/limitingness/etc.... keep kickin it in oblivion !! heres some extra energy for ya Man.....Jimi wrote this one  for da Ladies!!!
   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yBtBrsvfPsY&list=RDMM

@ncbeareatingman your energy is so so welcome man! Thank you! And I definitely will. You gave me a breakthrough! Thank you for stopping by. Made my day.

Woke up, feeling okay.
Had to fill up my fueltank for work, saw this woman. I caught fear in that, like my subconscious turning me away from her, only to feel bad afterwards about it. Avoidance behaviour influenced by redpill "dont give attention" bs.
I want to be free to approach whoever en whenever I want. OFv3 shown me this before, resulting in spree-social days, in which I chat up literally everyone. Interesting. Handling this now is positive and will skyrocket my life.

So it is spoken, so it is.

(08-23-2021, 11:26 PM)Kol Wrote: [ -> ]Woke up, feeling okay.
Had to fill up my fueltank for work, saw this woman. I caught fear in that, like my subconscious turning me away from her, only to feel bad afterwards about it. Avoidance behaviour influenced by redpill "dont give attention" bs.
I want to be free to approach whoever en whenever I want. OFv3 shown me this before, resulting in spree-social days, in which I chat up literally everyone. Interesting. Handling this now is positive and will skyrocket my life.

So it is spoken, so it is.

Have you read "Models: How to attract women trough honesty"? I think you would like it as a contrast to what you mention as "redpill-bs".

No, I havent (yet).

Update:

Still running OFv3 following autoconfig. Last couple of nights I ran 8 loops. 2x 8 loops hybrid 1x8 loops US. Delving into stoicism lately. I have no interest in journalling, Idk why.

Book im reading is meditations by Marcus Aurelius. Have read sun tzu' art of war and dr haha lung's work on mindset and myamoto musashi, aswell "as a man thinketh"

Will read more, such as seneca, dianetics, art of the deal and on wealth creation. Everything has a formula and code to it, everything. Mindblowing. Perception is something, to see is to shift perception.
Another thing is, im operation through fulfilling needs. Reading what is informing me. Things that can use some extra light to be shoned upon. I feel lack in my wealth area? Read new provocative information. Get a book. Pick one and study. Like I said, reading 52 books a year is good for speed increase, other then that, its mere flash. Do you execute or is it empty posturing?

Learn, get it, apply.

Im way more disciplined. Meditatïon, reading, challenging myself through various disciplines. Leadership in the form of sleeping on the floor for example. You'll always be ready, its preparation and being as sharp as a blade, ready to go. Early wake ups, cold showers. Approaching situations in a "death" fashion. "Have to do it, even if it means death" its a usefull attitude and approach, leading back to the old ways.

Im finding new ways like this. Its empowering. It creates mental fortitude. Ownership. Accountability. Leadership. Respect.

Day 104 (5/9/21) ( track keeper )

Day 105 1 hybrid loop last night.

Zen af. Mental clarity focus and discipline.

Will run another loop tonight.

Day 106 Ran 1 loop hybrid last night.

Everything is on point today. Im a haven of comfort and eye contact is smooth. Its just who I am. Im in comfort with myself, and people are comfortable with me. Very cool.

Being a comforthaven has people open up and spilling the beans. Im simply chilled out and I love it. This is a huge HUGE asset.

Day 107

Extra social today. Got a comment on it from a friend of mine who pointed it out. I did know tho. Saw tons of beautiful women today. Something has changed. Idk what. But it was abvious.

Thought: pmo is bs. You interact and grow by interaction and exposure to non pixelized women, while pmo gives you a warped mind and there is no growth nor actual experience. Its negative. Real life interaction is positive.

Day 114 (15/9/21)

At the gym I came to realize that insecurity and underestimation can have you lead a certain life, aswell as other values, beliefs and subconscious seeds (for lack of better words) have you lead another.

Now im seeing through it, im like, choices, investments, anything. One internal change has you live a completely different life.

OF goes deep. This is life changing and perspective shifting. The marble and the sculpter.

This has me thinking back and reviewing all my life's choices. Im feeling really good about it. The process continues like a steamtrain which wont stop which is awesome.

Complete re-design.

Also, DMSI TID. I notice it in anything instinctively. Maybe because Ive ran earlier version, but respect, women simply flocking and me just being open are things I notice, like another stepping up. Whatever it is, im happy. New levels new devils. The amount of attractive women is skyhigh. Everywhere I go im surrounded.

Im having fun with it. Comfort and sexuality. From being an conquerer/emperor, to F-boy. Multiple modes.

My instagram use is down. I dont know if it is complete disinterest or fear, but im coolin with it lol.

Day 117 break

Flashbacks from several instances are surfacing regarding my childhood. Faces, people I remember out of no-where. Instances of cold responses. Part of it has to do with those snakes I broke away from. Controlling bullshit, especially later in my sub journey this became a thing. Manipulative, passive agressive attitudes. They where never my friends, they were users, along with dosis of disrespect.

AM6 unconvered this and started it all back then. I also blame my father for his shitty ways of upbringing, when it comes to me as a kid. Its child abuse to tell your kid to ignore bullies, instead of telling your kid "when they mess with you, fuck em up" never cultivate passiveness nor bs in your kid. Teach your kid to be a warrior. The teachings from my father is something that im still working on, as it never taught me boundaries as a kid. It made me a target for bullies and turned my rage inwards. Idc what anyone says, its unforgivable to do that to a child and you are a failure as a dad, betraying masculinity and neglecting the warrior spirit to pass forward. The damage is deep.

Now, in my mind I have the thought going around of being blackmailed. Bs stories for those snakes to have the upperhand, which are a strong suspicion. I wont stand for it. To have bs stories going around, badmouting, and people taking their side. We used to have similar connections. Now im pissed, and somewhat..."paranoid" furious.

Im allowing it to process and run its course. I might start up loops again tonight.

Day 119 3 hybrid over night

Non resistance with OF feels like going through a highspeed tunnel. Im suspecting reality bending DMSI TID. Im really enjoying it.

Last few days, my scent is stronger. Women flock instant in the gym, like a complete overhaul of social structure, regroup. Im worrying slightly because of an incident years ago at my former gym from which I was kicked out. My mindset was way different back then, but its slightly and faintly creeping back. Seems OF is hitting on the feeling of powerlessness now, having no scent control. The dude that ended my contract clearly disliked me and he enjoyed his position a little bit to much for someone fulfilling the role of host. Its a character thing.

Funny how this comes back. Im taking care of myself, groom myself and what not, yet my pheromone profile seems to be stronger. It reminds me of my dad. 

Underestimation, selfsabotage and perfectionism are still here being worked on  i see it in my journalling. To withold ( fear of judgment ) to not post ( underesrimation in my skills ) and selfsabotage by not posting it.

My vibe is still ballin. Im looking good and am enjoying it. I like how I look, how my voice sounds, and my eyes have different highlights, more green-gold-ish.

OF has me in a meditative state of complete not needing anything. Whole, fulfilled. Its showing in my interactions with people. Generally chill, tranquil.

When I was driving, I noticed a girl at the busstop. She rose her finger and locked eyes, gesturing "hi" before I even was aware of it. It simply happened. Energy introduces you, which is why in cases, women lose attraction. Idk who she was, at all. She looked kinda dreamy, fuck me eyes.

I also notice some people light up like christmas trees when I start talking with them, like they dont know how to open me. After the ice has been broken they spill so many things about themselves, its very interesting. Never knew this older guy was so vital in his life! Him telling he skates 30km and what was very cool. I realize with some people, they are being brought up when engaging with me. I have to display. I can see OF having a intimidating dominant factor. Women pay attention to this. Displaying being social is an attractive trait.

I read in RTBoss's journal ( shout out to you brother!) About empathic confusion, having the waters being muddles of which is which. This has been a long time thing for me. "Am I feeling it, or am I picking it up making it subconsciously mine?" Its been a source of loneliness, hurt and what not for me, thinking something was wrong with me, while I was doing just fine.

Underneath all the stuff im doing pretty good even. Things come up and thats it. Its like my core remains zen and intact. I still get furious about the madness in this world, but I dont have to accept it. Solution thinking instead of outrage. Still, whats going on deserves outrage but its a tricky subject.

Edit: oh yeah! My face has been really slimmed out. My jawline is pretty sharp. Very cool. Might be the low kcal of the last 2 days.