Transcendent Sith Lord's LTU 5.0 Journal

[EvolvingPhoenix]

You know, it sounds like you're doing A LOT more work for your TEFL certification than I did for my TESOL certification. I just used International Open Academy for 5 bucks and the process was pretty lazy TBH. Now I'm starting to wonder if my TESOL certification from International Open Academy is worth anything? I mean it was only 5 bucks, but still... I'm wondering if any companies abroad will accept it?

Nah, my TEFL certification course wasn't hard at all. I skimmed through most of the material and passed the end of unit tests. I then put it on hold once I started my degree program (I only had that paper left to send to finish the course). Now that I'm pretty much done with my degree program I am going to send in that last lesson plan and then I'm done. 

I should mention though that "some" countries are starting to crackdown on TEFL certs that are gotten purely online. As in they won't process your visa if it was gotten through an online course. Due to that if the company I work for offers a TEFL on the job I might take that one as well because at least then I would have gotten it in person and I would be able to get around that visa issue.

Which countries? Is Japan one of them? Because I eventually intend to teach in Japan when I get my Bachelor's.

[DarthXedonias]

You know, it sounds like you're doing A LOT more work for your TEFL certification than I did for my TESOL certification. I just used International Open Academy for 5 bucks and the process was pretty lazy TBH. Now I'm starting to wonder if my TESOL certification from International Open Academy is worth anything? I mean it was only 5 bucks, but still... I'm wondering if any companies abroad will accept it?

Nah, my TEFL certification course wasn't hard at all. I skimmed through most of the material and passed the end of unit tests. I then put it on hold once I started my degree program (I only had that paper left to send to finish the course). Now that I'm pretty much done with my degree program I am going to send in that last lesson plan and then I'm done. 

I should mention though that "some" countries are starting to crackdown on TEFL certs that are gotten purely online. As in they won't process your visa if it was gotten through an online course. Due to that if the company I work for offers a TEFL on the job I might take that one as well because at least then I would have gotten it in person and I would be able to get around that visa issue.

Which countries? Is Japan one of them? Because I eventually intend to teach in Japan when I get my Bachelor's.

Right now its mostly middle eastern countries (where most of the high pay is found) and I've seen at least one company ask for a non-online one (then also claim it is starting to be a nation wide policy). I would take that with a pinch of salt though since they might just be saying that and also it would be hard to enforce that policy since some parts of China are desperate for English teachers. As for Japan you won't have to worry. I have not seen any info saying that they are going to follow suit. The two biggest English employers there is the JET program and Aeon from my understanding. They both don't care about online certification. As long as you have one you are fine. I also intend to probably at least teach one year in Japan just for the experience.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

You know, it sounds like you're doing A LOT more work for your TEFL certification than I did for my TESOL certification. I just used International Open Academy for 5 bucks and the process was pretty lazy TBH. Now I'm starting to wonder if my TESOL certification from International Open Academy is worth anything? I mean it was only 5 bucks, but still... I'm wondering if any companies abroad will accept it?

Nah, my TEFL certification course wasn't hard at all. I skimmed through most of the material and passed the end of unit tests. I then put it on hold once I started my degree program (I only had that paper left to send to finish the course). Now that I'm pretty much done with my degree program I am going to send in that last lesson plan and then I'm done. 

I should mention though that "some" countries are starting to crackdown on TEFL certs that are gotten purely online. As in they won't process your visa if it was gotten through an online course. Due to that if the company I work for offers a TEFL on the job I might take that one as well because at least then I would have gotten it in person and I would be able to get around that visa issue.

Which countries? Is Japan one of them? Because I eventually intend to teach in Japan when I get my Bachelor's.

Right now its mostly middle eastern countries (where most of the high pay is found) and I've seen at least one company ask for a non-online one (then also claim it is starting to be a nation wide policy). I would take that with a pinch of salt though since they might just be saying that and also it would be hard to enforce that policy since some parts of China are desperate for English teachers. As for Japan you won't have to worry. I have not seen any info saying that they are going to follow suit. The two biggest English employers there is the JET program and Aeon from my understanding. They both don't care about online certification. As long as you have one you are fine. I also intend to probably at least teach one year in Japan just for the experience.

Do you know if Japan hires dudes in their 30's to teach English? Because I'm 29 now and still have yet to earn my bachelor's

[DarthXedonias]

Do you know if Japan hires dudes in their 30's to teach English? Because I'm 29 now and still have yet to earn my bachelor's

You'll be fine, I'm 31 so I would know lol. The only time I've seen where age becomes a issue for some countries is if you are in your 50s. I will admit though that some countries also want the person to be at least 22 years old. Either way you will be perfectly fine at that age. 

Update: Got my TEFL work submitted like an hour ago. So at this point I am waiting on that and the paper for my university course to be graded. Hopefully if those things are right the first time then all I will have left is the studying for my English teacher qualification. Like I said though I am thinking about doing the Math qualification as well up to middle school level for better pay. If I have time i might consider getting another one as well but we shall see. The more Qualifications I have the better I look good on Paper. I think my luck might be pretty good at the moment because I was searching around for what jobs are currently out there and I ran across a job in Indonesia that pays really well (3,100 - 3,500 USD per month), free accommodation that is furnished, and other really good benefits. The salary is a big deal because the cost of living outside of accommodation is literally about 500 USD a month which means I could be pocketing a large amount of money every month. Also, they want the prospective candidate to start in July which would work just fine since I would already be there visiting in June. After I get my qualifications done this is the main think I will be focusing my energy on. Getting this job if possible since it would really be perfect for everything I'm trying to accomplish. 

Anyway, hope this works out for the best.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

That's good to hear! Keep it up! I've gotta get my bachelor's degree, then I can start looking to see if I can do the JET program.

[Shannon]

Do you know if Japan hires dudes in their 30's to teach English? Because I'm 29 now and still have yet to earn my bachelor's

You'll be fine, I'm 31 so I would know lol. The only time I've seen where age becomes a issue for some countries is if you are in your 50s. I will admit though that some countries also want the person to be at least 22 years old. Either way you will be perfectly fine at that age. 

Update: Got my TEFL work submitted like an hour ago. So at this point I am waiting on that and the paper for my university course to be graded. Hopefully if those things are right the first time then all I will have left is the studying for my English teacher qualification. Like I said though I am thinking about doing the Math qualification as well up to middle school level for better pay. If I have time i might consider getting another one as well but we shall see. The more Qualifications I have the better I look good on Paper. I think my luck might be pretty good at the moment because I was searching around for what jobs are currently out there and I ran across a job in Indonesia that pays really well (3,100 - 3,500 USD per month), free accommodation that is furnished, and other really good benefits. The salary is a big deal because the cost of living outside of accommodation is literally about 500 USD a month which means I could be pocketing a large amount of money every month. Also, they want the prospective candidate to start in July which would work just fine since I would already be there visiting in June. After I get my qualifications done this is the main think I will be focusing my energy on. Getting this job if possible since it would really be perfect for everything I'm trying to accomplish. 

Anyway, hope this works out for the best.

Take a look back on your progress over the last couple years, man.  You have just taken off like a rocket since you started focusing on something other than DMSI.  And with what you're focusing on subliminally, I'm betting that eventually DMSI is going to be amazeballs for you, since it will be better and you will have grown past what was previously holding you back.  I am astonished at your progress since you've been on LTU5!

[DarthXedonias]

That's good to hear! Keep it up! I've gotta get my bachelor's degree, then I can start looking to see if I can do the JET program.

Eh, which country are you in? If in the US I can send you an PM about a few online universities I know that don't cost much and are accredited. They also are a alot quicker. Like my university where I only had to pay 3,200 for a term of 6 months and then within that 6 months I can take as many courses as I want. Had I not procrastinated I could have probably finished during those first 6 months. 

Take a look back on your progress over the last couple years, man.  You have just taken off like a rocket since you started focusing on something other than DMSI.  And with what you're focusing on subliminally, I'm betting that eventually DMSI is going to be amazeballs for you, since it will be better and you will have grown past what was previously holding you back.  I am astonished at your progress since you've been on LTU5!

Thanks @Shannon. Eh, I guess on some level I know I have changed but I guess because of that one technology working so well once a habit sticks it feels like I haven't changed all that much and it feels like I've naturally been like this for a while. I have definitely noticed an increase in my productivity especially over the last week and half though. 

Update: Got my paper sent back this morning with a few corrections. Shouldn't take long since it literally tells me which sections need to be corrected. No word back on the lesson plan and essay submitted for my TEFL certification. Hopefully, I will hear back about that later today or tomorrow. I'm hoping that I will get that one done on the first try without any corrections. In other news the guy I inspired to go to the Philippines after my trip has decided he is going to go back to school (using the same online university I used) to get his degree and pursue the foreigner teacher career. Seems things aren't going that well for him in the Philippines right now with him working for this one American guy. Won't say too much but lets say that this American guy is doing some things that aren't quite legal and he seems to be crappy at teaching this how to do the job. When he told me all this I told him just to get out of that situation, hunker down with whatever funds he has, and enroll in the university to get his degree so he can make decent money that way. 

So, he has decided he's going to do that and hopefully within 6 months he will be able to finish up everything before his funds run out. Lastly, I have noticed one area of resistance lately. I had planned on going to the gym yesterday but put it off. I know why now and it has to do with a certain fear which I feel was one of the primary fears in the way of DMSI that I mentioned. If any of you remember correctly I told you that I had been severally bullied while in Junior and high-school. As a natural consequence of that I started doing things to not draw attention to myself because I saw drawing attention to myself the same as asking to get bullied and emotionally hurt. One of my things was to finally get muscular and big but this seems to be getting in the way. There is still that fear that if I get muscular and big I will draw attention to myself and therefore get the same negative reactions. Hopefully with time this will be cleared away. 

Anyway, that's about it for now. Going to get some more work done so I can get out of this place as soon as possible.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Thank you so much Darth! Yeah I live in the US. I'd love to see those colleges you reffered to. Thank you so much!

[DarthXedonias]

Quick update:

Got my final paper back for a 2nd time for revision. Some of the stuff mentioned that needed correction was already included in the paper so I didn't change those things because obviously whoever was grading it was paying attention. I do admit this is getting tiresome given how many time I have to correct this and how close I am to graduating. Either way I did get it back this morning and then I literally worked on it for hours and hours until it was done and met every requirement I could think of. That kind of behavior is not something normal for me. So I think I might be getting to some kind of break-thru where these new behaviors are consistent. Its like I just get motivated to actually get work done.

I did notice another thing that is related to something else I reported before but a new has occurred with it. Some of you might have recalled my situation with when I'm about to go to sleep and when I get into some kind of lucid state. Well I had it happen at least 1 time this week (that I remember anyway) but something different happened as well. Before If I get into this state or a state of being half asleep its like I can "hear" or "feel" this conversation going on in a lower level of my subconscious. I have no idea which level it is though I have a feeling I might have been dealing with a different level this time. It was like I was hearing a conversation and I would get a flash of insight of what was going on but as soon as that happened the understanding of what was going on was just ripped away from me for some reason. The new thing I experience as well though was some kind of hallucinations while half asleep. Like I would be staring at something in my room while half asleep then see a hallucination of something. That something would be like a symbol or something like that which held great significance I felt like but then as soon as I saw it it just disappeared from my minds eye and I wouldn't even remember what I had seen.

This experience seems to be on a different level than before so I wonder if now I'm dealing with some other level of the subconscious that maybe is more difficult to understand possibly? Either way, thought I would mention it because it was just strange as hell. Also, I have decided on something else I will pursue a Masters in English so I could get better pay and such in different countries. I won't start the program till probably in September though once I have my current debt paid off. I figure I can just work on getting that so I have extra money that I can spend on investing. I think when I eventually UMS I will just work on getting very wealthy with investing and then later on if I run BAMM there is still the choice that I can make a very successful business with the Proceeds that I get from investing while running UMS.

I think if UMS does its job and even more so if my idea for it gets put in then I could see myself making pretty good money in the stock option market. Granted, if I'm able to predict trends correctly I could make even more money in the Forex market. Though I will admit the Forex Market can be pretty risky but with big risk comes big rewards. So, that is another option for me and it might even be better. I have dealt with Forex trading before and one of the benefits is that the Forex markets are open 24 hours a day 6 days a week. With me being in a different time zone and everything that would actually workout better for me than if I need to be up during a certain time when the stock market is open in New York. I might start reading up on Forex trading again once I have all my other business taken care of to get ready for when I start trading on UMS (whenever that might be).

Anyway, that is about it for now.

[DarthXedonias]

Well, I got my paper back this morning and I passed this third time. I am officially done with all my courses and now I just need to wait till Monday when my student mentor is back in the officer so she can send me the email. Its basically an application for graduation that I need to fill out and they will then send me my degree certificate online I believe. If you want an official physical copy I think you need to pay for it but I might be wrong about that. It might be that the first copy is free. Anyway, since that's done I just need to wait on the grading for my TEFL certificate and then keep studying for the ESL teacher qualification. I was looking around last night and found just the right real university that has an online component that offers an MA in English.

The reason I was looking an brick and motor University with an online component is because some countries as I mentioned before are starting to not accept online certificates (this includes degrees in some places). To make sure I can get jobs pretty much anywhere I need to make sure I get a degree in English (or related field) and make sure the university actually has classes in person. Not that I plan on attending on person but if I finished my degree there it wouldn't say on it whether I did the online component or the in person component. Anyway, plan is to probably start that up sometime in September and then hopefully it will only take me a year or so to finish. After that is finished I can move on to much better, high paying opportunities in  mostly the middle east.

Anyway, that's about all that has been happening. Hopefully I pass my TEFL submission on the first try and I'm thinking about finishing studying for that teacher qualification exam this weekend. Its possible I could finish it this weekend but we shall see. I do want to knock that out as soon as possible. After that I can really focus on moving my stuff into storage and preparing other papers work I will need.

[Shannon]

Congratulations! Great progress!

[DarthXedonias]

Well, thought I would give an update since its been a while.

Quite a few things have happened that have changed my plans. I found out the university I went to doesn't give a refund amount if you finish early unless you only have about 12 credits or less at the beginning of a term. So I didn't get the 2k USD I was counting on. Hence me and the Indonesian women decided I won't visit for like a month before I go to work. I will go to visit her in August or September. So, I will be going straight to work in another country after I get my paper work in order. Those countries will most likely be Korea or Japan at this point. This is because I found out that it can take up to a month for you to get the results for your teacher qualification. Since I'm kind of on a time limit at the moment its best to just get right to work as soon as possible. I ended up getting my FBI background check (for the visa) done and it got sent to me by email within like 15mins. Right now I'm just waiting for my degree to come into the mail so I can use a third party service that will get both my degree and background check Apostille.

Once that is done I pretty much have the process done for the visa requirements for any country. There is still the chance that I could just go straight to Indonesia for work but the pay is much lower than the countries I mentioned before hand and I still have debts to pay. As for directly about the sub the reason why I decided to write a post now is because of something I read in @Griffin thread. He had seems to have used the sub for the same amount of time I have and I'm starting to notice a similar thing. In that I feel like I have hit a plateau to a degree. I feel like I've been at this same place for about 2 weeks or so. I think I still have about a week and half before I'm at the 3 month mark though. Like I promised before at that point I will access whether I want to keep continuing with this or not. Most likely though I will continue at least until UMS comes out. Due to my debts and not getting that 2k I thought I would I am really in need of some financial assistance at this point.

Obviously, UMS is probably not going to be out within an week and half so I might continue with this. Either that or I do admit since I might be going to Korea or similar it had ran across my mind to jump back on DMSI at that point for a couple of reasons: (1) Sex drive has gotten higher again, (2) I seemed to actually execute more on DMSI when I went to a foreign country (as opposed to staying in the west) and (3) I do sort of want to see if LTU cleared out enough stuff to make DMSI actually work better now. Once again though, this is only a thought I've been having but we will see how things turn out. There is still a large chance I might still just run LTU until UMS comes out because I could really need that right now due to the reasons mentioned earlier. Anyway, we will see what happens when I get to the 3 month mark.

[DarthXedonias]

Well, think its time for an update and quite frankly something happened that has me quite annoyed (though I was pissed off at first).

First off not noticing much else with the sub besides the fact that I do have increased times of feeling more happy and also I want to actually do productive stuff. For example, I have to wait till I get the physical copy of my degree in the mail before I can move on with getting both that and my FBI check apostille. After I send those off it will be about a week or so before I get them back then I can look for jobs in Korea (The most likely choice at this point). I did apply to some local jobs (high paying district manager jobs) in case I want to stay here for 3 more months to earn enough to pay off my debts really quickly but I don't feel in the end I really want to do that. I just don't feel at home in this country and it doesn't mesh well with my personality at all.

Anyway, that brings me to the piece of "theater" I had to deal with today. Ugh, my mother finally cornered me for a "talk" which she had been trying do a few days ago. I had no interest because every time she wants to "talk" its really her just bitching/complaining about something and playing the victim. This is exactly what it turned into but even worst. She tried the whole guilt and shame bullshit to try to get me to stay here longer to "help her out". I'm not stupid though and I see right through what she is trying to do. She's basically trying to get me to put my life on hold and doing something that would actually make me happy (being in another country) in order to "take care" of her. Oh she didn't come out (because she knows she can't dare ask that of me) and say that but she couldn't have made it any clear. Basically saying how hard its going to be for her with the rent going up in July and how she can't really make ends me, etc.

This crap didn't work on me. A big part is that on LTU I find myself getting pissed off when I even get the hint of someone trying to manipulate me to do something. On top of that I just felt no pity for her. I'm not going to sit here and suffer with her just because she doesn't want to move out of one of the most expensive states there is. On top of that had she listened to me years ago she wouldn't be in this situation but she didn't want to listen. At the time she had gotten a substantial amount from a life insurance policy after my step father died and his retirement. I told her at the time that the money wasn't going to last and her best bet was to use the money to move to another state and straight up buy a house or cover most of the cost for it. She then wouldn't need to worry about anything at all as the retirement would be enough.

Did she listen to me? Nope, she didn't "feel" like doing that even though it was the best long term choice to make. Predictably, the money ran out a few months later (her giving money to people, paying ridiculous amounts of rent, and buying stupid crap she didn't need, etc) and then she had to get some night job that she hates. Despite her not wanting to listen and blowing off my suggestion I'm somehow suppose to feel "sorry" for her? Psh, I don't feel sorry for people who deliberately make bad decisions, even when presented with better long term ones, and then whine when they have to feel the consequences of making said bad decisions. I don't feel sorry for women who say they are strong, independent women who don't need some man but then when shit hits the fan they run to the nearest man and demand they take care of them. I don't know what it is but on LTU I have just grown to despise hypocritical and inconsistent people. More than any group they seem to piss me off the most at the moment while running this and I want nothing to do with them.

While thinking about this after it happened though I did realize something about myself that I should be proud about. Despite still feeling like I need some self development I was the only one out of a group of 3 children that is going to actually make something out of their life. This is despite the fact that I (and my brother) were treated less well than my sister by my feminist acting mother who basically showered her with stuff all the time despite her constantly messing up and getting into trouble. I'm the first one to actually graduate university. My sister only got as high as an associates degree in nursing and even with that she fucked up. She had a really well paid nursing position at one point but messed that all up by acting a fool and even got her parent rights taken from her because she literally beat her children. My brother doesn't seem to have any hope because he has just rolled over and become a "yes, Ma'am" to anything my mother says when she asks him for something despite him living alone.

Looks like I'm the only one that will be moving far, far away and basically breaking all contact because I realize how toxic this crap is. Funny thing is had I not done AM6 to start with all those years ago I doubt I would have come to this point or if I hadn't tried a lot of these 5.5G subs in between. I would probably be in the same, fearful place I was and being staying here to live miserably and only dreaming of finally moving to another country. Now, I'm actually doing it and I won't have to deal with this toxicity anymore thankfully. I also just feel like once I get over there that whether its the current or future version of DMSI I think my results will be "amazballs" as Shannon put it. I really do think my subconscious just really thinks I've had too much trauma with women over here and it would just be easier for me in another culture where there isn't as much of this toxicity in the dating culture.

Anyway, that's about it for now. Just need to get all this paper work finished and then I can start applying for jobs overseas right away. Still need to get a storage space for my stuff though and get a replacement drivers license (lost my previous one) but this shouldn't be too much of an hassle.

[Benjamin]

You're doing awesome on LTU. That post definately hit me as i've been exploring some Inner Child stuff so it's kind of fresh.

Though it's frustrating and you're dealing with alot of crap from her, it shows the amount of growth from LTU. Especially the "Now, I'm actually doing it and I won't have to deal with this toxicity anymore thankfully." That's a pretty powerful statement and shows how you've shifted.