Midway through stage 1:
Today I went to religious function held by one of my family members and this would be the first time seeing them after 2 years or so for most of them.
I had no anxiety around them regarding losing my hair which I used to have anxiety about. Once I started shaving my head clean I really started to accept that I'm bald and so what.
Also there was a girl who I found a little attractive , she was the pastors daughter and she was helping him perform the function. After the function my cousin was chatting with the girl and I sort of felt like I was losing my chance because my cousin is really alpha. Then he left and I started to talk to her and I started feeling anxiety when I ran out of things to say. So I just walked away and left her.
Later on my cousin told me he left because he thought I was gonna ask her number .then I started beating myself up a little, thinking of excuses why I didn't do it. I thought she looked a little young but it turns out according to my cousin she's only 2 years younger than myself. I would have found that out if I had the confidence to ask.
What I really learned today was that I have little to no game when it comes to women in random situations.
If it's a situation that automatically brings us together like work or school then I can use that to build attraction. But situations where I just walk up to a girl and start talking I just can't do it. I feel so much pressure.
I went to the grocery store with my cousin and he just randomly started a conversation with the cashier and I'm just watching wishing it could be this easy for me
I really need to up my game, start approaching random women and getting out of my damn comfort zone. I'm tired of this overly strong fight or flight response controlling me
Sub progress wise, I'm not sure if I really feel any different. I think I feel less anxiety in most situations. Heck I'm surprised I even spoke to the girl at all, so thats an improvement for me. Also I react less to other peoples emotions and problems. I feel a little cold and uncaring,
Today I went to religious function held by one of my family members and this would be the first time seeing them after 2 years or so for most of them.
I had no anxiety around them regarding losing my hair which I used to have anxiety about. Once I started shaving my head clean I really started to accept that I'm bald and so what.
Also there was a girl who I found a little attractive , she was the pastors daughter and she was helping him perform the function. After the function my cousin was chatting with the girl and I sort of felt like I was losing my chance because my cousin is really alpha. Then he left and I started to talk to her and I started feeling anxiety when I ran out of things to say. So I just walked away and left her.
Later on my cousin told me he left because he thought I was gonna ask her number .then I started beating myself up a little, thinking of excuses why I didn't do it. I thought she looked a little young but it turns out according to my cousin she's only 2 years younger than myself. I would have found that out if I had the confidence to ask.
What I really learned today was that I have little to no game when it comes to women in random situations.
If it's a situation that automatically brings us together like work or school then I can use that to build attraction. But situations where I just walk up to a girl and start talking I just can't do it. I feel so much pressure.
I went to the grocery store with my cousin and he just randomly started a conversation with the cashier and I'm just watching wishing it could be this easy for me
I really need to up my game, start approaching random women and getting out of my damn comfort zone. I'm tired of this overly strong fight or flight response controlling me
Sub progress wise, I'm not sure if I really feel any different. I think I feel less anxiety in most situations. Heck I'm surprised I even spoke to the girl at all, so thats an improvement for me. Also I react less to other peoples emotions and problems. I feel a little cold and uncaring,
