Strumming my Brain with MLS 3.0 Journal

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Day 13,

Oof. I had a pretty productive work day today; knocked off a lot of residents off of my queue. Two days ago, I found out that I had to come in on Thursday and remove 4 pages of referrals x 25/page. I got it down to just over 1 page, with extra work done. My brain was working pretty quickly, I would say.

I went home and tried to record my mini-series. The promo video was very good, but then I sat down to do the main video, and my brain would not work; my fingers acted dumb, I couldn't think of anything creative, and it was a major flop, and very disappointing. I can feel my brain being non-creative and non-synthetic; I can only focus on one thing at a time right now.

I'll mix-down the promo video and re-do the rest, most likely tomorrow.

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Never mind, my promo was shit, too.

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Day 14,

I probably got 5 loops today. It was a cheat day today. I did almost fuck all today, except for reviewing some policy stuff with my work. Then, I went to a first voice lesson with a baritone who's performed at the METropolitan in NYC. It was mostly talking, a couple of exercises. I think he's getting a vibe. Then, I went for sushi on my own. I struck up a conversation with the table next to me, a man, his son, and two women. They've all probably got a decade and a half on me. But the conversation was very easy, and they were very nice. They found out that I was in the new city on my own, and they invited me to his house to hang out by the pool. It was so nonchalant that I wasn't on guard. And I was right. It was a very nice, easygoing night. He'll make a good friend.

Then, I practiced guitar for the rest of the night; I'm immeasurably better compared to my on-camera performance last night. But, then I jerked off twice consecutively. So who knows how I'll be affected tomorrow.

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Day 15,

I'm being very lazy when it comes to building my business and my brand, but I spent some time doing languages, going for a run (which is unlike me), cooking, and tons of guitar practice. I think I'll work on the free mini-series tomorrow; my guitar playing has gotten much better since Thursday; I've been practicing with a metronome non-stop since yesterday.

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I think I'm learning an important lesson here; play one extra loop of MLS, add one extra hour of sleep.

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Ugh, I just feel stuck to my computer. I don't feel like doing anything worthwhile.
Just took an IQ test, and scored lower than I did 2 years ago. FML.

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Ugh, I just feel stuck to my computer. I don't feel like doing anything worthwhile.
Just took an IQ test, and scored lower than I did 2 years ago. FML.

Same. Just stuck on my mobile.

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Stage 16,

Just became productive as of 5:30 pm today. I filmed the entire mini-series and created the sequences on Premiere Pro, as well as pre-rendered, in which it will be ready for easy editing and exporting. It should tomorrow to do it.

I should jump into bed very soon. I have to wake up in 6 hours.

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Day 17,

Slept poorly; did poorly at work. I'm lazy as fuck. I properly edited 2 of 12 videos. Premiere's audio crashes whenever I play YouTube alongside it. It took me a little while to figure out this causal link. And so, I was floundering. I think that I have to make a decision between YouTube and productivity... In fairness, the software slows right up whenever there is text added to the video.

I'll have the time tomorrow, so let's knock a few more of these badboys, and ultimately get it done before the weekend.

I'll likely be working all day on Friday, which sucks, but I'll be getting an extra xxx $ this week/month, so that's good.

It have to snooze a little sooner than most other days. I have to wake up in just under 8 hours, so let's get to bed.

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Day 18,

Did pretty well at work today. Got caught up with the few cases they had, and then I spent the rest of the day working on referrals. I got it down from 27 to 4, but there were multiples, and some had passed away, so it wasn't purely a function of hard work.

I've finished editing all but 1 video (11 down). I can either do it tomorrow, or dig into my sleep. Maybe not.

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Day 19,

Woke up at 6am. On the road at 7am. Got to work at 8am. Worked until 4:40 pm, got to my singing lesson. My teacher invited me to have supper with him and his spouse. I finally got home at 9:15 pm.

Finally got the 12 videos edited and ready. They've been queued for export, and are not rendering one-by-one. I can leave it overnight. I can probably set up the system and have it on autopilot during the weekend.

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Day 21,

First weekend day; spent the morning on a conference call about ways to improve my work on the charting/coding software we use.
It's weird that I'm not stressed about work; I just go in and do it.

I've got many goals that require various degrees of commitments at any given day; I think I'll need to scale back the number of on-going goals (my number of goals expanded a week or so into this program).

I might have an angle for my singing; I think that I've been 'opening' the back of throat to some degree; but I've been holding it back around the passaggio. I think that I can open up even more, but I need to coordinate breath. I've also figured that I need to engage breath support AND feel the movement of breath. I hadn't worked on the second part. Using this; I could struggle at the passaggio, but hit B flat in an easy, easy way that sounded chesty, but was head dominant. I just need to practice support the right way.

I finished my mini-course, and finished creating extra resources. Udemy is reviewing the course now. If it does marginally well, I'll bring back my LeadPages subscription so that I can start pushing ads/traffic towards it. Right now, I'll keep to free/near-free options.

I spent a very large portion of my time goofing off and wasting time. I wondered whether it was due to the lessening of BASE, but MLS, fully executed, should maintain motivation, perseverance, and determination. I keep repeating myself, but it's a matter of resistance.

I've felt a little bit of occasional pressure on the front-right portion of my skull, a few inches in front and above my right ear. It only lasts a second per 5-6 hours, but it's repeated itself. I'm not too concerned.

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Oh yeah; I signed up for two acting classes, and I have a possible audition next week. I need to develop a sense of my facial expressions, and possibly an Australian accent. I'll need to sleep well tonight; I've over-played MLS today for sure. I'll do 25-30 reads of the script tomorrow.

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I went to bed at 2:45 am. I woke up at 6:30 am with some nausea. I was nauseous because I had my cheat day the day before. So, I sat on the toilet, and then laid at an elevated angle in order to feel good enough to sleep. I woke up at around 9:30 am and slept normally. I woke up at 3:40 pm !!!!!

WTF. I think I played to much MLS.