Shannon's Journal

[ncbeareatingman]

same here,cant wait. sooo looking forward to my first round with AM2012! NcBear

[Shannon]

However long it takes to get it right. Quality will always come before speed, but I really don't expect it to take all that long. My house guest will be leaving this evening, and when she does, I'll have plenty of time to work on this stuff. The changes that need to be made to AM will not require that the script be drastically altered for the standard version, so that will be a reasonably rapid job. The version for gay men, on the other hand, will require some time for me to research.

[mat422]

Hey Shannon I need some advice on something. I'm pretty sure it's fear of failure, but I just wanted to ask you and get the specifics on it. In my free time I like to produce electronic music. My biggest problem is just getting myself to sit down and actually compose something. Once I get going I usually enjoy it, but when I'm done for the day I have trouble going back to it. It's just this paralyzing fear that prevents me from finishing my work. It's almost like a love hate relationship. When I have a good idea and the ideas are flowing I don't want to walk away from it because I'm worried the next time I sit down I won't be able to do anything. Sometimes it's pretty unhealthy too, I get so absorbed in what I'm doing I neglect my own needs like food or water. Not to the extreme, but it's like my mind doesn't even process the hunger.

I want to get better and I've been making a consistent effort to push myself more, but I feel like a lot of the fear of failure takes away the enjoyment. Come to think of it, this happens with a lot of hobbies in my life and education as well. It's like I want to keep going, but at the same time it's a wall I run into.

I'm not sure if you can relate to how I feel, but I figured you might be able to relate. It's like when you create something and you know it could be improved upon, but you don't want to go back to it. You have to force yourself and sometimes it's mentally exhausting. When I finish alpha I figured I might give Overcome Fear Of Failure a try. I think I'm just too critical of myself and I don't want to fail in something because I see that as a reflection of me as a failure. It probably doesn't help that I have a black and white, all or nothing mentality. I try to see in shades of grey, but it's really hard.

You mean like the Weight Loss sub? lol I have been working on that for years in my head, but really had a hard time getting the changes actually going outside my head for the 4G version. I do very similar things, like, I will get started working and it's fun, and I get so focused that I stop eating, and I push myself to exhaustion because I am "in the flow".

The fear of failure sub would not be a bad idea, at least until I can see about making something a little more specific.

Keep trying on the shades of gray. It's worth it.

Haha, glad it's not just me. Thanks for the input.

[Shannon]

Alright, ladies and gentlemen, my guest has gone home, and I am now free to work again. I am really mentally shot after getting everything done today, though, so the only thing I will be doing is answering posts here on the forum. But I am now free to actually work. I expect that within the next week, I should be able to get the weight loss set to where I am doing pre-release quality control testing. Let's keep our fingers crossed.

I also have some interesting ideas for a series of manifestation programs designed to bring into your life new friends. Not just that, but new friends who will help you achieve or experience specific things. For instance, friends who will help you become more successful, or friends who will help you meet the sort of women you're interested in, or friends who will make your social anxiety easier to outgrow, etc.

[The GK]

Shannon, could you please comment this? I've only been using the silent version of AM 2011.

I started with stage 6 yesterday. And I feel like the motivation is getting better (don't know entirly if it's because of the program or because of the time in semester - getting really close to some deadlines).

But here's an issue: I feel very stupid, literally. It has been going on for about 2 months. I've been doing many stupid, small mistakes lately. Whenever I have to do some task and decide how to do that task (or in what order etc.), I mess up. Sometimes I over look important things, which promts me to do the task all over again.

Could it be a connection with this and my state during the last month (stage 5)? Where I had no desire and motivation. I would ask myself what I want out of life, and my mind didn't really had an answer - my mind was blank.

[jonathanzx10]

Shannon, do I need max learning speed if i'm doing improve your grades already?

[JAYCEE]

"New friends" sounds like an interesting concept. I look forward to it.

[Shannon]

Shannon, could you please comment this? I've only been using the silent version of AM 2011.

I started with stage 6 yesterday. And I feel like the motivation is getting better (don't know entirly if it's because of the program or because of the time in semester - getting really close to some deadlines).

But here's an issue: I feel very stupid, literally. It has been going on for about 2 months. I've been doing many stupid, small mistakes lately. Whenever I have to do some task and decide how to do that task (or in what order etc.), I mess up. Sometimes I over look important things, which promts me to do the task all over again.

Could it be a connection with this and my state during the last month (stage 5)? Where I had no desire and motivation. I would ask myself what I want out of life, and my mind didn't really had an answer - my mind was blank.

There's nothing in the program that would produce that response (feeling stupid). Is it possible that you are simply having a response to too much stress and not enough sleep? I notice that I get stupid when I haven't had enough sleep.

[Shannon]

Shannon, do I need max learning speed if i'm doing improve your grades already?

No, but they are not the same title for a reason. They're designed to be usable together to enhance one another. My stuff is as modular as I can make it. That gives you the most options for customizing your personal selection of programs.

[Magnus]

Hi Shannon,

I realize you are extremely busy but I have a huge request. Do custom subs include subs on subjects that aren't currently covered.

I have a huge fear of abandonment that no matter what I do I can't shake. I've tried everything from hypnosis to Hawaiian hauna to CBT.

I believe this is something I could shake through subs running at night because they give me dreams of memories I didn't even know existed.

When custom subs open up again would I be able to get one for fear of abandonment? if you do custom subs on a specific topic of course.

Looking forward to AM2012 once i've got through my abandonment issues to

[The GK]

Shannon, could you please comment this? I've only been using the silent version of AM 2011.

I started with stage 6 yesterday. And I feel like the motivation is getting better (don't know entirly if it's because of the program or because of the time in semester - getting really close to some deadlines).

But here's an issue: I feel very stupid, literally. It has been going on for about 2 months. I've been doing many stupid, small mistakes lately. Whenever I have to do some task and decide how to do that task (or in what order etc.), I mess up. Sometimes I over look important things, which promts me to do the task all over again.

Could it be a connection with this and my state during the last month (stage 5)? Where I had no desire and motivation. I would ask myself what I want out of life, and my mind didn't really had an answer - my mind was blank.

There's nothing in the program that would produce that response (feeling stupid). Is it possible that you are simply having a response to too much stress and not enough sleep? I notice that I get stupid when I haven't had enough sleep.

No, I've been sleeping enough and haven't had any stress either.

[Shannon]

Shannon, could you please comment this? I've only been using the silent version of AM 2011.

I started with stage 6 yesterday. And I feel like the motivation is getting better (don't know entirly if it's because of the program or because of the time in semester - getting really close to some deadlines).

But here's an issue: I feel very stupid, literally. It has been going on for about 2 months. I've been doing many stupid, small mistakes lately. Whenever I have to do some task and decide how to do that task (or in what order etc.), I mess up. Sometimes I over look important things, which promts me to do the task all over again.

Could it be a connection with this and my state during the last month (stage 5)? Where I had no desire and motivation. I would ask myself what I want out of life, and my mind didn't really had an answer - my mind was blank.

There's nothing in the program that would produce that response (feeling stupid). Is it possible that you are simply having a response to too much stress and not enough sleep? I notice that I get stupid when I haven't had enough sleep.

No, I've been sleeping enough and haven't had any stress either.

I don't know what to tell you then. I have never had any such response to the program, and to the best of my knowledge, neither has anyone else who has used it. And as I said... there's nothing in it that could cause that.

[WildFlower]

I also have some interesting ideas for a series of manifestation programs designed to bring into your life new friends. Not just that, but new friends who will help you achieve or experience specific things. For instance, friends who will help you become more successful, or friends who will help you meet the sort of women you're interested in, or friends who will make your Social Anxiety easier to outgrow, etc.

Sweet

[RainbowAbyss]

That sounds awesome, maybe some of that could be incorporated into Alpha male 2012, for success and integrity based friendship-like real 'Alpha brothers'
Or in sex magnet 2012-friends who are already ladies man.