Shannon's Journal

[Shannon]

The manifestation portion of AM2011 is designed to manifest beautiful women into your life, if you want that to happen. The specifics I do not remember and I cannot access my computer to check specifics until I replace the hard disk. But I think it was along the lines of if you want to, it will work on manifesting beautiful women into your life who you are able to be more than friends with.

[About]

Ohh that's interesting.

I'm guessing beauty here is subjective? So a friend of mine whose personality is really great, I was able to escalate it into something a little more without the need to go into a relationship.

I didn't post this in my journal, I like to keep these things to myself. But I suppose now is a good time to reveal it to you since that was the manifestation. Looks like your experiment worked.

[Shannon]

Yes, everyone defines beautiful differently. Interestingly, it seems to have worked for almost everyone I have kept tabs on, and myself. I figured that not only would that be a great way to have AM2011 finish, but it makes a perfect lead in for SM 2011 too.

[Benjamin]

Thought so, i've been noticing that.

I've just been working on letting go of the guilt of seeing more than one woman at once. Because i've never been happy when i've just been 'stuck' with one because she is 'just there.'

[K-Train]

@K-Train: I think that may have to do with a few things, one of which is likely that you simply are not noticing the effects it is having. That's been addressed in the 4G subs, making the effects more noticeable. It may also be one or two forms of resistance, but I am not going to speculate about that at the moment. I'd rather just rebuild it as a 4G program, make it as super-awesome as possible, and re-issue. If I keep hearing this sort of reports after that, I'll take it down.

However... right now I am having some severe problems with my computer, and in fact have to order 2 parts before I'll be able to continue working. The only hard disk I have at the moment that is functional is too small to hold my entire working build environment, and my keyboard needs replacement... again.

Understood boss man. I just find it odd that it seems that subs that are designed to attract women or the like are hard for me to get results from while other subs I can get positive results from.

Do you believe that it's because I'm short? I'm 5'6, but that still doesn't explain everything because I've had success with women in the past...hmmm. I am interested in the types of resistance you speak of though. I believe you went over it last year. Care to jog my memory?

[Benjamin]

Hey Ktrain, the 'short' thing is just an excuse. And because you are insecure about it it makes it a problem. If you don't care then they won't.

I'd say it's more the resistance and subconscious beliefs you currently have, and nothing to do with your shortness.

I have a similar insecurity with my weight, but I am getting better and feeling more secure lately.

-Ben

[K-Train]

Hey Ktrain, the 'short' thing is just an excuse. And because you are insecure about it it makes it a problem. If you don't care then they won't.

I'd say it's more the resistance and subconscious beliefs you currently have, and nothing to do with your shortness.

I have a similar insecurity with my weight, but I am getting better and feeling more secure lately.

-Ben

Good observation Ben. I know that it's nothing to be ashamed of, I just want to list all the possibilities. But the thought always pops up everynow and then, specifically when I see some REALLY tall.

I'm going to run Aura of Sexiness for another week, I have been experiencing some of the effects from week two, so hopefully everything comes together. I do know though, that within the year I want to try the Grow Taller sub, hopefully I can reach 5'8 or close to it.

[Shannon]

@K-Train: I think that may have to do with a few things, one of which is likely that you simply are not noticing the effects it is having. That's been addressed in the 4G subs, making the effects more noticeable. It may also be one or two forms of resistance, but I am not going to speculate about that at the moment. I'd rather just rebuild it as a 4G program, make it as super-awesome as possible, and re-issue. If I keep hearing this sort of reports after that, I'll take it down.

However... right now I am having some severe problems with my computer, and in fact have to order 2 parts before I'll be able to continue working. The only hard disk I have at the moment that is functional is too small to hold my entire working build environment, and my keyboard needs replacement... again.

Understood boss man. I just find it odd that it seems that subs that are designed to attract women or the like are hard for me to get results from while other subs I can get positive results from.

Do you believe that it's because I'm short? I'm 5'6, but that still doesn't explain everything because I've had success with women in the past...hmmm. I am interested in the types of resistance you speak of though. I believe you went over it last year. Care to jog my memory?

By resistance I mean that you may be resisting the program because it conflicts with some aspect of your subconscious programming we haven't touched on yet, or it may be that success with women frightens you to a degree that makes you resist success with them when it is possible.

Being short may have to do with it to some degree, feelings of not being good enough, but if you've been through alpha that shouldn't be a real big problem.

[Spiritman]

@K-Train: I think that may have to do with a few things, one of which is likely that you simply are not noticing the effects it is having. That's been addressed in the 4G subs, making the effects more noticeable. It may also be one or two forms of resistance, but I am not going to speculate about that at the moment. I'd rather just rebuild it as a 4G program, make it as super-awesome as possible, and re-issue. If I keep hearing this sort of reports after that, I'll take it down.

However... right now I am having some severe problems with my computer, and in fact have to order 2 parts before I'll be able to continue working. The only hard disk I have at the moment that is functional is too small to hold my entire working build environment, and my keyboard needs replacement... again.

Understood boss man. I just find it odd that it seems that subs that are designed to attract women or the like are hard for me to get results from while other subs I can get positive results from.

Do you believe that it's because I'm short? I'm 5'6, but that still doesn't explain everything because I've had success with women in the past...hmmm. I am interested in the types of resistance you speak of though. I believe you went over it last year. Care to jog my memory?

K-Train, I don't think you're short at all. This will probably make you feel better to some degree, I'm 5'3. So see I am shorter than you are. lol Yes I do wish I was taller because sometimes I feel like people don't respect me enough mostly due to the fact they see me as a little boy, not as a man. It could be that I don't accept myself for who I am at this point or something else. But that is why I am going through AM now and then SM afterwards.

[Shannon]

The first impression is taken of you instantly based on what you look like. Thereafter, each person will consider you based on what cues you give them for how to view you. A 5 foot tall man who has a calm, cool, with-it and in charge demeanor with nothing to prove is going to get treated as such, and Mr. Napoleon Complex will be taken as a joke.

People rely on you to tell them how to respond to and what to think of you. That's why you never want to have bad body language or use your words poorly when speaking with someone to lead them to believe something negative. Starting off with "Don't get mad, but..." or "This will make you angry, but..." is a good example. You've probably just quintulped your odds of them getting mad just because you unintentionally primed them for it based on an assumed expectation.

Let your attitude, choice of words, and body language speak as to your masculinity, not your height. Believe me, women will notice.

[K-Train]

@Spiritiman- Thanks man for your words of encouragement. You know it really makes no sense for me to still feel insecure about my height considering the majority of people I have encountered don't even think of me that way. If you're running AM, then you definitely feel solid as steel at the end. SM will just be the icing on the cake.

@Shannon: I think you're right about the resistance. I notice that I hardly have a problem with befriending women, or keeping things friendly. But once the possibility of a REAL relationship comes up, I tend to do irrational things.

This is what really intrigued me about your ex Shannon, because to be quite honest her actions reminded me of myself, especially since we both share a Venus in Scoprio. Smart, rational, and logical in most areas of life yet when it came to relationships completely illogical. Lol, it's actually funny when I look back because I'm sure the girls I dealt with probably were like "WTF!?" whenever I avoided a relationship. Befriending women is easy. No problem. Relationships though? Not so much. I felt like AM11 addressed this, but I guess I still have work to do.

[Shannon]

K-Train, in astrological terms, Scorpio is famous for being the most emotionally deep and sensitive of all the signs, and wherever this sign shows up, it produces extreme sensitivity emotionally, irrationality and a tendency to feel very vulnerable. The native usually learns to deal with it through hiding from the perceived threat, deception, manipulation and/or attacking. Venus in Scorpio says that when it comes to love and to some degree, sex, you are incredibly vulnerable and sensitive emotionally. What better way to avoid being hurt than to hide from the perceived threat and refuse to let the perceived threat get close to you? Scorpio is a Water sign (emotional/irrational) and also a fixed sign, so this tendency will be both deeply subconscious (water/emotions) and difficult to change. But you can make a change with both subliminals and conscious effort.

[Shannon]

Okay. I have replaced my laptop hard drive, and restored from backup. However, the backup that actually was functional is a month old, and I may have lost significant work. It will take me some time to determine what has been lost and what I need to do over again. But... I'm back to work.

EDIT: Starting SM2011 today. Also, Alpha Female's script has not been lost (but I do have to re-do a week's worth of work on it) and I still have the list of improvements to Alpha Male that I was collecting for 2011. Still sorting out what is what otherwise.

[Spiral]

^^^ That post looks funny.